im close im broke now baby
been down might drown dont save me
cut ties cut arms im aching
im tired let me just hate me

im close im broke now baby
been down might drown dont save me
cut ties cut arms im aching
im tired let me just hate me

in the bottom of the barrel where i be 
tryna gather all my dreams while dieing
aching bones wont break so come back
thats why i struggle when i love you just to show that 

oh i been lost
oh i been lost and cried a million times at least
oh i been down
oh i been down at the bottom i aint got an option 

how do i love
how do i love
how do i love
how do i love

im close im broke now baby
been down might drown dont save me
cut ties cut arms im aching
im tired let me just hate me

in the bottom of the barrel where i be 
tryna gather all my dreams while dieing
aching bones wont break so come back
thats why i struggle when i love you just to show that 

oh i been lost
oh i been lost and cried a million times at least
oh i been down
oh i been down at the bottom i aint got an option 

how do i love
how do i love
how do i love
how do i love

how do i luv (prod. sanvictor)

I CAN'T GO THRU THAT AGAIN

LYRICS:
I don't remember the last thing you said
I was running around in my head
And baby Ion rly need another friend
I can't I can't I can't UGH

I don't wanna go thru that again
I don't wanna die with my best friends
Woke up fucked up, when does it end
I can't go thru that again

Again and again, I been losing my mind
Like, when does it end? Feel like we ran out of time
(Woah-oh)
Do you remember forever
That's a lie, you change like the weather
And we got way too drunk in December
But I guess that's how it goes
Oh, oh, oh,  baby you can go
I've got no home, I'm all alone
I know we don't talk no more
Just step right up, enjoy the show
And I don't wanna go
But I will if I have to
And I thought that you should know
That I'm moving past you
And if everyone I loved was at a party
Then I damn sure wouldn't go
I'd stay alone, cuz nothing lasts forever
By now you should know

prod. @branwenmusic
mix/master by me
cover art shot by @dylancxle of @conflictingthoughts.us

ICGTTA 222 (branwen)

i just wanna feel again
when i'm feelin off i'm told to suck it up and deal with it
i got plenty thoughts that take control i'm tryna keep within
open up my scars each time you go i wanna bleed again
never wind up feelin it, i just wanna feel again

i been high as fuck but i ain't feelin shit
cuz every time you give me hell i start to breathe it in
just watch me blow out all the smoke and never speak again
you're losing all your fuckin friends; i'm never thinkin that

overthinking in my bed i'll never sleep again
you always promise me you'll stay but never keeping it
now i got another question to ask you
what's it like to have emotion surround you

i just wanna feel again
when i'm feelin off i'm told to suck it up and deal with it
i got plenty thoughts that take control i'm tryna keep within
open up my scars each time you go i wanna bleed again
never wind up feelin it, i just wanna feel again
when i'm feelin off i'm told to suck it up and deal with it
i got plenty thoughts that take control i'm tryna keep within
open up my scars each time you go i wanna bleed again
never wind up feelin it, i just wanna feel again 

where the fuck were all these people when i needed them?
cuz i been wondering if maybe i defeated them
some sort of battle, mind is in shambles
fallin apart because the devil's a gamble

i been falling apart, its getting harder to handle
got my mind in the dust, im tearing up like a vandal
maybe i should really listen what i say
im never really here

i just wanna feel again
when i'm feelin off i'm told to suck it up and deal with it
i got plenty thoughts that take control i'm tryna keep within
open up my scars each time you go i wanna bleed again
never wind up feelin it, i just wanna feel again
when i'm feelin off i'm told to suck it up and deal with it
i got plenty thoughts that take control i'm tryna keep within
open up my scars each time you go i wanna bleed again
never wind up feelin it, i just wanna feel again

feel again [prod. 17 letters x slayingibis]

i'm finding my bad habits
breaking out in the living room
'cos i don't wanna be here
but i know that u want me to
i'm holding onto breath and
i'm probably gonna die soon
'cos what's the point of staying right here without u?
i can feel the room float away when i compose myself
it's such a bad sign that all of this shit has happened now
u went to tell ur parents that i'm sick and that i'll come around
but baby it's been 3 years, and they still ain't proud
i don't have a single word to say
all of my excuses used and down the drain
baby i'm so sorry, this won't happen again
i know i said that last time, but i promise i'll change
BABY LOOK INTO MY EYES
TELL ME WHAT U SEE
LONELINESS AND MISERY?
FEEL I'VE WASTED ALL MY GODDAMN LIFE
HOW THE FUCK COULD U BE MISSING ME?

misery [intro]

I still need you 
Do you need me?
Ur love is ice cold 
And I’m freezing 
I won’t leave you 
Dont leave me
Where’d the years go?
There fading 

I still need you 
Do you need me?
Ur love is ice cold 
And I’m freezing 
I won’t leave you 
Dont leave me
Where’d the years go?
There fading 

Would you even care if I’m not here 
I was so faded wearing moncler 
I need prescriptions not to feel fear 
I wake up everyday but I’m still here 

The earth is in rotation but it stops when your around 
I can’t feel my feelings I can’t feel my own frown 
Everyone is after me it’s hard for me to stand my ground 
I just feel useless everyday year round 

Yea yea yea 

Let me take a sip 
Swerving in my friends whip 
Let me take a trip 
Xanax or klonopins 
I feel sad again 
wouldnt wan do that again 
If ur heaven sent 
Then why the devil is on my bed?

I’ve came out of the mud 
I’m a muck I’m so yuck 
Everybody in my phone 
Don’t give a fuck 
Won’t give a fuck 
Maybe I’ll feel fine when I’m drunk 
Double fisting cups of bud
Then I spark a blunt 
Then watch the girl I love run

watch her run from me

I’ll melt the sand to make it clear this time around 
And you can weigh it out 
Hold tight to what you found 
I’ll melt the sand to make it clear this time around 
Yeah this time around 
Yeah this time 

2X
I just wanted to be efficient 
Wanted to help, I’ll listen 
Take care of everything that’s when you were my everything 
I just wanted to be no different 
Wanted to help
You missing
All of the reasons and now I can’t deal with anything else 

If I enjoyed being selfish I’d given up on 
this way long ago yeah way back 
And now I’m longing for another go
No another go 
Need another chance maybe it’ll change that
Out on the balcony I thought that you were proud of me 
But lately I’ve been waiting for the smoke to get louder 
Don’t think it’s fastening 
My breath goes out keep passing me up
Hold that to yourself and maybe this will go faster 

2X
I just wanted to be efficient 
Wanted to help, I’ll listen 
Take care of everything that’s when you were my everything 
I just wanted to be no different 
Wanted to help
You missing
All of the reasons and now I can’t deal with anything else

clear (dead spyro)

ft. vails @alex-thomas-fox
prod. @whos-that-clown x @prodryankelly
LYRICS
Hold me close, my soul is like an open window
My sails will lead me where the wind blows
Holy ghost, i hear the tip toes
Crawling up the stairs hope im not sacrificial 

Sacrifice who i am, another sacrifice, another door to slam
And baby i might be cannon fodder but im not ur sacrificial lamb
I got goals i got dreams i got plans
And you might never understand
Ima keep on making even if theres no demand
She a demon, but in the end were still holding hands
I guess underneath the surface im an evil kind of man
sacrificial lamb, put me at the stake play ur hand

Last call, for the loners in the back, 
me myself and i, i guess i got a triple stack
Always second guessing but u still gon have my back
And honesty gon tell the truth, so baby where you at

VAILS:
So im retracing my steps headed back to my quarter
 Need to escape all the pain Feel like a lamb send to slaughter
 And its tearing away at me im so afraid
 i need to sacrifice myself So u can be saved
 But its so hard Giving up everything we built but all towers fall eventually
 So guess ill run away with the guilt



sacrificial lamb ft. vails [prod. the sound clown x ryan kelly]

First Love

TIGER BLOOD EDITION 2

ｏｐｅｎ ｕｐ ｙｏｕｒ ｅｙｅｓ
Follow: https://soundcloud.com/prodcayto enjoy :)

lyrics:

open up your eyes, you look good I fantasize
every second that I spend witchu.
I hope that we can make it through this,
Guilt.
its the pain that brings us up,
we live off each others love,
but its only cause were fucked up.

shawty wanna fuck now
all black jeans with the cuffs down
don’t talk to me on the come down
im comin up shawty fuck u now
imma fall in love with the moon wow
imma fall in love with u now
all black jeep riding downtown
fuck u, I don’t wanna be held down
wait
up an the sun in eye
gimme a reason to live 
not a reason to die
i don’t wanna get high
i don’t wanna survive
too many lives imma fight for mine
there’s a reason that I wanna start giving a fuck
im tired of these bitches I tell em good luck
i fell in love
that’s a lot to cuff
imma real dude but I’m tired of, you

open up your eyes, you look good I fantasize
every second that I spend witchu.
I hope that we can make it through this,
Guilt.
its the pain that brings us up,
we live off each others love,
but its only cause were fucked up. x2

guilt

spotify <3

guilt (prod. cayto)

produced by Jolst 
twitter: @prodbyjolst 
instagram @jolst_

engineered by skrwd

mixed and mastered by patrick gardner
twitter: @hella_patchy
instagram: @just_patch


done losing sleep over you, cause you always seem to let me down.
i wish you'd felt it too, but you're too busy living with your head in the clouds

no more of that ex shit
i be on my next shit
i been making hits
serving looks like it's breakfast
shorty see me up now she wants some of the action
tmm the clique, best believe i aint switchin
you kiss me
then diss me
now you say that you miss me
i think it's funny the way that everything seems to be shifting 
don't talk to me
don't acknowledge me anymore
i dont wanna be another score
i been on the low getting bills paid
dropped the coop, took a chance like ten day
i've got a past so im terrified to feel pain
i don't really give a fuck what your friends say

let me down (prod. jolst)

'Sin-Shi'

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