ty for listening <3
prod. i'm geist x deadfish x hiraeth
mixed/mastered by deadfish

@imgeist
@hiraethsry
@imnotenvy
@yokaidreams
@sleepywater
@deadfishpoland

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also up on itunes and apple music!

// lyrics
// imgeist
oh, hold on wait, tell me did i let you down
can i breathe a little swear that i won’t make a sound
and everybody’s out for blood that’s why i hate this town
and everybody’s out for me that’s why i’ll go ghost now

oh, hold on wait, tell me I’m the monster now
when you’re the one who went and filled my head with doubt
i gave up everything just to be the one left out
i tossed you my heart, you stomped it on the ground

// hiraeth
put your hands all on my body now i'm leaving
i don’t wanna hurt you bitch, i'm falling for a reason
give another reason, leave without a meaning
tell me that you love me, tell me that you miss him

i could run away and still nobody wanna know now
funny i meant everything until he wanna come round
leave it at the door and get your shit just on the way out
text him that you want him cause he knows you're on the way now

// notenvy
and i cant even look at myself dont feel the same i'm
trapped inside my own little hell you pin the blame you
took my heart it snapped and i fell you'll never say why
i've been steady feeling unwell what has this come to?
and i've been dying tryna get you outta my head
and i keep fucking crying over things you said
dont tell me that we'll ever have a chance again
cause i can't deal with trauma take my life instead

// imgeist
oh, hold on wait, tell me did i let you down
can i breathe a little swear that i won’t make a sound
and everybody’s out for blood that’s why i hate this town
and everybody’s out for me that’s why i’ll go ghost now !!!!!!!!

oh, hold on wait, tell me I’m the monster now???!
when you’re the one who went and filled my head with doubt???!
i gave up everything just to be the one left out???!
i tossed you my heart, you stomped it on the ground

// yokai dreams
you always jumped at a chance to slice up my ego
power your libido
take your time, suck the life out of everywhere that we go
emotional mosquito
she's undead never had a care
for the affairs of the living
take your heart and she grinning
as the clock strikes 10
honest men will head to bed
but she just started causing pain by the minute

// sleepwater
torment anxiety
what is inside of me
i'm broken, i'm destined to die
a loner, a puppet in disguise
soil is dirty, i'm drowning reserve me
i need you don't burn me, i'm liquid lurking

// deadfish
and i've tried to move on
yea i’ve tried to forget
but you just
seem to never wanna leave my head
so
i can never fucking see you again
you know that
i really need it to feel again

stop fucking calling and wasting my time
said that you’ll fix that, we know thats a lie
now that i’m gone you regret what you've done
when you are crying i’ll hide in my home

could you stop fucking up my entire life
telling everyone that i was just another guy
never said what you did, i’d never tell a soul
cause i'm better than this and i'm better than u

Spotify

out for blood! w/ hiraeth, notenvy, yokai dreams, sleepwater, deadfish

produced by hiraeth and heylog <3

You’ve got nothing to say to me
I’m drowning in the ocean
Always complain to me
I’m dealing with my own shit
Filling my vacancy
(Just breathe)
If I died tomorow I bet nobody’d even notice

harder to breathe
when ur around I’m losing focus
Trying to speak, the words can’t seem to leave my vocal
Getting likes on ig
cause ur half naked in the photos
I’m dying to sleep, if I wake up im meeting god bro

Stay closer to me
I swear that nobody can touch you
if they tried
I’d grit my teeth and fight them all for you
I’m tryna hide, stop tryna reason what I been thru
It’s not my time, I’d kill anyone laying next to you

never should've went for u
and i ain't know your friend exists
if that was the case i would restart and go for her instead
what a shame
u let your life to pieces
who's to blame
(you)
you're the only reason i can't focus
got me losing sleep
and shit oh how i own it
tell that b-
she can drink bleach
you let it out there in the open
u show yourself no respect
and i wonder if u know this

i'm tired of preaching cus babe it really-
babe it hurts from underneath
all the wasted memories
don't go down, get off your knees
it's not the time for any pleasing

bleach ft. heylog

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@heylog

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lyrics - 

give the kinda love that i need right back
kinda on the fence but i'll take my chance
tired of the mistakes making me sad
can't get the thought of you outta my head

where do i go?
who can i trust to leave me alone
put on a show then go home
dying to know
i hate and i loathe
written in stone the words saying
'love you'

i'm missing all the memories
i can feel your soul slowly making less of me
safe to say it hurt to watch you leave
now there's no one left to help me here

you're feeling alone on a friday evening
try to hold on love i'm trying to see you
i know you're hurting, you stumble bleeding
i'll keep you whole
you're scared 
you can hold my hand
we'll walk alone, no light to guide
but i know where your heart is
and i know how you're feeling now

let go don't cry just

you're sick to death of me
you hoped i feel the same but it's
just too much to leave here
i'm dealing with the shame of it
thinking that you loved me
i cry and medicate
it's just too much to intake
i'll try my fucking best i
didn't wanna calm down
i'm tryna come to terms with it
molded my emotion
to feel like you're controlling it
so what's it gonna take right now?
gotta keep my feet on the ground

now that love has washed away
contemplating life and i’m sure you can relate
and i’ve seen better days
recently been bitter what’s the point if i ain’t gonna make it in life
i’m always stuck by your side
and can you do me the same
and stay close to mine

don’t leave now i still haven’t kissed you
when you walk out my house i already miss you
let’s snuggle here in the back of my car
our eyes meet the galaxy, we’re counting the stars
my dad says i need to be home before eleven
but she does not want me leave, “logan stay a second” 
a couple hours isn’t very long to spend that time with you
and i finally got the gut to lean in and kiss you

mistake w/heylog

Lyrics:


No I know that you don't really need me
Got caught on in this place you won't see me
On and off, different moods what're you feeling
What're you feeling
What're you feeling
After that let's get out of this place
No ones home now I'm wishing you could stay
Took a step further back staples in my face
Bodies shot red liquid is falling down my leg


This is not the same it is not the same
On the drive home I do not feel safe
I'm the one to blame I'm the one to blame
Without you this time I don't feel okay


Baby your my home, can't imagine it with someone else
Eyes are pointing to the floor don't want you to see myself
Are we on a different page or are we on a different shelf
I'll be reading chapters just so I could be with you or else

Driving home now I'm wishing I could stay
Lightning strikes the summer skies hear the city train
Purest words between your lips is keeping me sain
Ill keep you safe around my arms u give me all your pain
Just miss your flight and stay with me I'll give you better days
The weather shifts with waterfalls we're kissing in the rain
If your in doubt you know I'm here just tell me anything
We're out of time you gotta go is this where it will change?


No I know that you don't really need me
Got caught on in this place you won't see me
On and off, different moods what're you feeling
What're you feeling
What're you feeling
After that lets get out of this place
No ones home now I'm wishing you could stay
Took a step further back staples in my face
Bodies shot red liquid is falling down my leg

heylog - Driving Home & Im Wishing U Could Stay

produced by sleepwater & leftquiet
mixed and mastered  by sleepwater

if you dont love me
you wont see this
if you dont wanna love me
you dont wanna see this
how after all
how have i become
who, who

removing myself from everything
show you the world
cos your everything
cos your everything

that i need
so please
want me
cos your everything
i need
i need

she made me wanna die and i dont know why
i cant see the light i got the tunnel vision
reapers getting life call it double time
i dont think ill be able to stand here
dont want my personalities meeting
drowning thoughts seem to be sinking

cos your everything
cos your everything
cos your everything
i neeed

you gotta bottle it up
you gotta pack that in 
i wanna flood the gates
she betta celebrate it
so where would be the line
if i ever wanted to cross it
never felt right
when i tried
to love you
you
help

please

hope u guys like dis one!!! <3
another epic song w me and @imgeist
produced by: what?boy

LYRICS:

Take me back to last winter
When you were still here with me 
And I’m feeling so bitter 
Feeling so bitter sweet 
I’m gone, and your out 
Thinking bout what I should be doing now 
Leave me in the gutter 
I need some time to think about what I have done cause I’m at fault 
And I don’t think I deserve you I am better on my own 
So just leave me in the dust

As I run 
And I go to a place I don’t know 
It’s all changed, see your face, i don’t see you the same as before 
And I’m sorry I was always so cold
And do you have a second to spare 
I need your time baby, I just wanna get outta here
Been losing my mind lately, I cannot see things clear 
I suck at time saving, I ain’t seen you in a year
And since then I ain’t functioned sober 
And it’s you I can’t seem to get over 
But you don’t even remember what we had 
You just blame it all on a hangover 

I’m gone, and your out 
Thinking bout what I should be doing now 
Leave me in the gutter 
I need some time to think about what I have done cause I’m at fault 
And I don’t think I deserve you I am better on my own 
So just leave me in the dust

just leave me in the dust 
oh why the pretty words when u don’t care for us? 
you left a hole in me and ask me where’s the trust 
like you didn’t tear it up 
and it’s okay my love 

but tell me how you feel cause i’ve been losing my mind 
there’s only so much i can take before i let it all die 
and it’s been said my whole life
same song like one thousand times 
but i’m too tired to fight 
so can you save me the lies 
 
you don’t know the start of me 
and i don’t know what to believe 
you left me here just to bleed 
now i’m begging for relief

I’m gone, and your out 
Thinking bout what I should be doing now 
Leave me in the gutter 
I need some time to think about what I have done cause I’m at fault 
And I don’t think I deserve you I am better on my own 
So just leave me in the dust

have a good day :)

bittersweet w/ i'm geist

𝙞 𝙜𝙧𝙞𝙣𝙙 𝙢𝙮 𝙩𝙚𝙚𝙩𝙝 𝙬𝙝𝙚𝙣 𝙞 𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙣𝙠 𝙤𝙛 𝙞𝙩 𝙣𝙤𝙬
prod. kais
shoutout to https://soundcloud.com/lilskeleskrrt & https://soundcloud.com/heylog for getting on this with me <3

lyrics:
(kais)
don't look back at that house
I grind my teeth when I think of it now.
took all I had to make you proud
now all I see is your face as I'm bound.

(skele)
ooooo
there’s nobody here 
anymore 
look around
oh i wanted 
to feel 
you breaking down 
grab my throat 
need to feel something 
blood soaked house 
it won’t let me leave
scars won’t show 
but i feel them bleed 
n if i don’t choke 
would you be proud of 
me 
of me

(heylog)
don't look back at me
forget everything
hearing high-pitched rings
hanging by a string
I look up
what have I become?
oh god, you tell me to run
rooftops hidden by the snow
every limb appears white
and your body sits and glows
it glows

(kais, skele, & heylog)
don't look back at that house
I grind my teeth when I think of it now.
took all I had to make you proud
now all I see is your face as I'm bound.

bound

spotify

bound w/skele & heylog

You don’t 
Have to joke about abandoning me 
Cause I
Can’t shake these feelings and I truthfully believe that you should 
Don’t worry about what we could have been
Cause once you get to know me you’ll notice I’m not understood 

It’s not funny 
It’s a joke to you though
How’s it feel to know that everybody’s running away 
In my room I got my head in the window
Sorta wonder how anybody ever escaped 

I’ve been holding out for so long
I delete myself from photos
Or edit till I’m not recognised 
That’s why it’s always black and white 
So my family don’t know what I’m doing 
I can’t let them know the world that they put me in
Or how badly I want out of it 
It’s not really my fault, it’s partly theirs
And I don’t really want them knowing where it all went wrong
It’s too late now to fix it 
And I don’t want them with a complex
It’s boring 
Or make them think that they caused this
It’s awful
They only see the good things
It’s horrible 
All the shit that I’ve been through, to pull it off 
Stays unnoticed in the background , like it’s my fault
I only see you on a holiday, you should come more 

In the afterlife, would you hold me, a lot 
Or even know who I am, do you know where to run ?
Is there anything that picks me apart
But the look of me dying in your arms 
Mid June, but it’s cold out
Turned stomach and my hearts in my mouth
Two fingers, push it back down
But it only belongs in your house 
When the tide passes, I’m still in your bed 
Should have run so far, I could never regret 
It doesn’t mean I’d be with you, but at least I wouldn’t be dead
It makes me sick to my stomach knowing that you’re out there somewhere 
And anywhere without me is Better for you

black & white

Pull me down 
Hold me underwater 
Leave me breathless
Let me drown
Leave my body in the ocean near some wreckage
To be found
When they pull me out you’ll say you never meant it 
I’m unidentifiable 
My body’s been fermented 

It’s all about you 
Love it’s all about you
I hold my head in my hands 
Babe it’s what I’m bound to
Thinking of you
I can’t stop I’ve tried to
I’d let you do most anything, you felt you had to
Treat me however you wanted
Lay down my body, on mountains of rubbish
I broke my arm for you to hold it
Gave you a gun, point it right at your target

Oh it wasn’t worth it all
Watch it fade to black 
I could give my life to you, and still you’d want it back
When there’s nothing left to offer I could split in half
Give you the other part of me, the one I’ve never had

You can devour me, leave me with holes
Eat all my flaws away, rip from bones
Take what you want, just to leave me alone
If it’ll make you love me 

Pull me down 
Hold me underwater 
Leave me breathless
Let me drown
Leave my body in the ocean near some wreckage
To be found
When they pull me out you’ll say you never meant it 
I’m unidentifiable 
My body’s been fermented 

God, I’m restless 
You could take it easy now 
You’ve taken people that I love and you’ve left me with nowt 
So you can take the credit when I go to your house
This is not a joke
Please do not test me now

It must be funny walking round and everybody hates me
And I can’t shake that feeling, it’s how you made me
Is that amusing?
Is that your humour?
I find you stupid
I find you’re useless 
And when I see you
Oh if I ever do
And you compare me
To those infront of you
I’ll make it easy
Oh I’ll decide for you
When you can tell me 
What I was supposed to do

fermented

John 14

featuring @sewerperson
produced by heylog

lyrics:
(heylog)
everythings a joke all i hear is people lie
evil is right down the street, so i lock the doors inside
smoking they got black lungs but mine are getting ripe
just a buncha teens getting buzzed up while theyre high
i was just cold but now im getting hot
sweating down my back and i keep playing with my palms
im feeding off the air and i nibble at some crumbs
havent eaten all day i know thatd upset my mom

i was just freezing but now im sweating bad
could u spare ur body heat im running out real fast
i tried to phone death, but they would never answer
u know girl its bad, when ur boyfriend hid the cuts from her
i dont know how ur doin this
logan ur insane
crows talk
but i ignore the fact my old girl has changed
skinny kid eatin chicken
and nothing but eggs
now im finna burn it all off on the treadmill and shame

(sewerperson)
born in the snow
cant be hurt my soul has changed
it isnt fair
i got a body but i share the brain
i want the truth
could u give it to me
dont sugar coat it
i got the pockets on me stinky cause they filled with potent
uh, she just wanted my ok but that shit is horrible
walking inside this hostel what im doing dishonorable
i change out my human into something deplorable
i cannot breathe this air they gotchu huffing so casual
ah, take me in
i cannot do this by myself
i could be back tomorrow i just need a little help
im in a trance
off these pills
i might piss myself
im too skinny for these pants im slippin out my belt
eyes
i could feel her eyes on me
i gotta heart but i move like im a zombie
go
you should go now u dont want me
im a burden
without me u could be happy

(heylog)
everythings a joke all i hear is people lie
evil lives right down the street, so i lock the doors inside
smoking they got black lungs but mine are getting ripe
just a buncha teens getting buzzed up while theyre high
i was just cold but now im getting hot
sweating down my back and i keep playing with my palms
im feeding off the air and i nibble at some crumbs
havent eaten all day i know thatd upset my mom

playing with my hands and i keep tryna pop my knuckles
i did every finger i dont know why i keep tryna crack em
dont give me that look
i told her u should really stop that
eyes are bouncing back and forth and all i feel is anxious
i told u i get anxious when im in conversations
but i just nod and laugh im sorry i wasnt even listening
i can hear the chirp as the room is getting silent
now im getting awkward i think u should really try it

anxious ft. sewerperson

'Sin-Shi'

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