wrote this about looking into the mirror and seeing somebody so different its a literal monster

you monster
undercover
you’re so weak
you just can’t stop

these waters
i’m going under
before me
you stand too tall

im six feet down
about to sink deeper
i’m gonna drown

im Under the surface
Wondering if this is worth it
Try to swim from the danger
But somebody threw the anchor

and i’m sinking
deeper than deep ends

this feeling
it’s too familiar
it’s empty
but it’s my friend

a sweet thing
but it’s bitter
you’re the beast
inside my head

ten feet down
about to sink deeper
you’re gonna drown
me you creature

im Under the surface
Wondering if this is worth it
Try to swim from the danger
But somebody threw the anchor

i See my reflection
When i look your direction
find you’re not just a stranger
it’s me, i threw the anchor

and im sinking

this dagger
between my fingers
will shatter
this very mirror

and this dagger
will kill you creature
i’ll end you
right now and right here

if you don’t drown
my only ounce of hope
cause now i know

you are me
and im you
and we are one thing
but i dont wanna be you

See my reflection
When i look your direction
try to swim out this chamber
but somebody threw the anchor

i threw the anchor
we threw the anchor
you threw the anchor
and now i’m sinking

the anchor

Rose

the night is ours
and the bonfire too
and it’s burning through

the space between
our eyes and shoes
and it’s new

as my sirens sounding
as my hope is drowning
you just do you
you just do

and if you took away college
the fear of making no profit
it’s just you

kiss me, man
kiss me, man
you’re quicksand
you’re quicksand
come close, babe
closer, babe
don’t wait
please don’t wait

cause my sirens sounding
and my thoughts are crowded
with you
just you

and if you took away music
the fear of staying this useless
it’s just you
just you

kiss me, man
kiss me, man
you’re quicksand
you’re quicksand
come close, babe
closer, babe
don’t wait
please don’t wait

don't wait

i don’t really know why
my biggest fear was working a 9 to 5
when our love was gasping for air
i dont really know why
i’m standing here on my birthday night
and you’re standing over there

i gotta take time
put in the work
and i don’t really know if it’s sposed to hurt
but i hope you’ll love me still

i waste time
trying to feel
the love and all the wounds i’m trying to heal
but i know you’ll love me still

and love you i will
i’ll still love you still

i don’t really know why
my biggest fear was running out of time
when our love was dying in my arms
i dont really know why
it’s torture forcing myself to watch you cry
knowing i did the harm

and babe there’s no amount of “sorry”
to fix the wreck i made
and there’s no amount of apologizing
oh, i gotta take

take time
put in the work
and i don’t really know if it’s s’posed to hurt
but i hope you’ll love me still

i waste time
trying to feel
the love and all the wounds i’m trying to heal
but i know you’ll love me still

and love you i will
i’ll still love you still

i waste time
trying to feel
the love and all the wounds i’m trying to heal
but i know you’ll still love me still

lets still love us still (demo)

i probably stole these melodies from somewhere

tell me you’re listening
i keep you in foremost front parts of my mind
last night was different
you should promise the first time was the last time

you do things in the moment
when you don’t know if you mean them
when i let down my defenses
pull you out of the deep end
the breaking starts

down at the skatepark
kickflippin under over my heart
kickflippin under over twisting turning burning breaking my heart
that’s where it starts

sat on memorial benches in homestead
you joke that you’ll leave one for us when we’re both dead
and gone, ashes in homes
the spark on the fuse grew alongside your nose

and i know that’s impossible
so i'll be responsible and
take half the blame, i'll play your game
if you take back your bench, i’ll try not to miss

comfortable silence
the biggest smiles after a kiss
kickflippin sleeping over kissing learning hurting like little kids
i’ll try not to miss

oh why’d you do things in the moment
when you had what you called perfect
now i don’t know if you meant it
now i’m the one in the deep end
you broke my heart

down at the skatepark
kickflippin under over my heart
kickflippin under over twisting turning burning breaking my heart
can’t we restart

skatepark kickflippin except ive been sick for a week and almost lost my voice

me & you

make it clear

I do 
Love you
I do

I do
Need you

Those eyes we need are miles away
to clumsy to see
it slowly slip away
even if we stay 

but I do I do, I do love you
and I hope you know it’s true
I do I do, I do need you

but the ghosts will laugh
knowing all the things
I have yet to learn 
in the hardest way

perfecting no expression no expression
perfecting no expression

I’m weighing down the air we breath
I’m weighing down the air we  need
I’m wayving down the air you need
I’m weighing down the air I need

But your just another stranger to me
another strange in the house with me
But for what it’s worth
your my favorite stranger

I Do V.2

Pretty Baby

well the west flew to mid-ohio
skater boys from new york have followed
and i wonder if they think of me when their egos die down

what a rude thing to say about them
they’re probably facing the hell of parents
who will sigh and fund their everything to keep them moved out
i know cause another one moved in now

i see him kickflip out the window
he could really make a name for himself though
i see him kickflip out the window
we could really make out if we lay low

you know the way to my heart
is a skateboard and living nextdoor
so, when do we start?

(when do we start?
can we start right now?
lets start right now)

been a month and you know my dogs name
i lurk the place where you work on thursdays
and i wonder if you think of me when you wanna get out
i know, i gotta move on, but i look out

and see you kickflip out the window
you could really make a name for yourself though
i see you look up at the window
i could play it off well if i lay low

you know the way to my heart
is a skateboard and living nextdoor
so, when do we start? 

can you heal the way that i feel?
can you heal how i feel?
can you heal the way that i feel?
come and heal the way that i feel
come and heal how i feel
come and heal me

you know the way to my heart
is a skateboard and living nextdoor
so, when do we start?

don't wait

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