the first single off my new album 'dearly departing', coming out 9/9!

fully produced and mastered by @jolst
album art by @/ashleydhe on instagram

so much time and effort has been put into this project and i truly hope u enjoy <3

lyrics:
i cant really see it here and now
and the lights behind my back are turning down
every sailor knows his in and outs
but i struggle every now and then with life so hear me out

i might die today
i could throw my life away
every time i surface i cant see
i think my mind’s away
they say im bad luck
thats why the bad stuck
and follows me everywhere

seeing aint always believing
the ocean was never forgiving
we need to drop anchor

and i stand and wait as cold air breaks the sail before us all
our fatal fate has taken everything that we once loved
so fuck it all
if i go down i’ll be swinging
a rope tied to songs i’ve been singing
the weight is enough for a fixing
so i tighten the knot and im ready for war
war
i still need more (from life, inside my mind)
more

i cant really see it here and now
so i contemplate the ways in which i drown
every time i’m lost im never found
i just suffer all the consequences, end up on the ground

i might die today
i could throw my life away
every time i surface i cant see
i think my mind’s away
they say im bad luck
thats why the bad stuck
and follows me everywhere 

seeing aint always believing
the ocean was never forgiving
we need to drop anchor

im leading a life not worth living
and seemingly so, unforgiving
its time i let out this anger

dearly departing

anchor [jolst]

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V. anchor [jolst]

no shelter for the storm

switching signals w/ halfhearted

prod. kazba w/ additional percussion by me

Text never sent I get It
You dont wanna talk at all
I dont really blame you tho
Its the reason you always go
Yeah my heads still a mess
Found our playlist again
While youre out there with someone instead
Like a phantom your love for me is in the shadows
Wonder what the deal is when you chose to let go
I hope they do it for you now
Kinda wish I knew what the fuck I was talking about

Like a phantom you only want me from the shadows
Evil or not, you’re still watching me from your castle
But to know me is just too much of a hassle?
I’ll go ahead and pass on the tassel

I just hope youre doin alright
Maybe we can talk at another time
Maybe we can finally lay sumn down
Still tryna take you out to game night
Its a huge bummer that ill never get to
Take you to the spot out in west pines
the window was open for only a moment
Ran til I collapsed, missed the deadline
A buck short
Little too late
Never had a chance in the first place
Now dont get me wrong ill be okay
But still I feel the sting to this day
you said you fell in love with my voice and that there could never be another
I should’ve known not to trust you when you told me to say your name as if it was a number
You was undercover
In my eyes youre Jen
I know you want Alex
But im simply Wes
and im doin my best
We cant go back to the past
What id give just to hear you say my name in that way again
Kinda fucked up we had no conversation
The sword that I yield is now masked as a pen
Ill take the blame though you might disagree
it’s alright. No need to understand

Like a phantom you only want me from the shadows
Evil or not, you’re still watching me from your castle
But to know me is just too much of a hassle?
I’ll go ahead and pass on the tassel
Like a phantom your love for me is in the shadows
Wonder what the deal is when you chose to let go
I hope they do it for you now
Kinda wish I knew what the fuck I was talking about

phantom (prod. kazba x skrwd)

when the night tears

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when the night tears feat. AVXiD (prod. yunnygoldz & woahsxda)

lyrics: 

lost all my hope 
lost all my hope 
down the same road 
"fix up" but I cant
look at my bones
look at my bones
sailing on fear
the thin ice is breaking 

hate on my soul 
hate on my soul
wither then perish 
its dark, but I hope
I waste into dust 
powder; my heart 
I longed paradise 
but I tripped from the start 

oh how did I get here? 
how did I get here? 
blood on my palms 
from etching the scars 
my breath is so shallow
I'm falling apart 
I'm falling apart 
let me corrode away 
loosen your grip I'm fine 
loosen your grip

fix up [prod king theta]

thank you for liking strangers again, here’s part 2…

thank you evergarden 


my heads a wreck i think i miss you
even after everything we went through
this takes a lot for me to say
but i wish that i stayed with you

your face is in my dreams
i need you to help me sleep
do you still remember how to fall in love with me?
i keep every photograph 
because i like looking back

though our love was a tragedy

we both had broken minds
can we leave it all behind
the time we've spent apart has consumed my mind
all the toxicity
that wasn't meant to be
what was it like to fall out of love with me 

you'd say often i think too much
overthinking, what can't be undone
do it to myself and it takes everything

i need closure
it's been in the way
guess the picture painted
doesn't always fit the frame
complicated
doesn't feel the same
and the time i wasted
won't be getting back again

would it hurt you so much just to try
fell in love with the sparkle of your eyes

guess it's time i make a change
all for nothing 
such a shame

back to strangers just like that 

we both had broken minds
can we leave it all behind
the time we've spent apart has consumed my mind
all the toxicity
that wasn't meant to be
what was it like to fall out of love with me

back to strangers (ft. evergarden) (acey)

tear it down

art cover, track mixed + mastered by me
(www.youtube.com/channel/ilyzayko)
(www.instagram.com/ilyzayko)
song produced by zaytoven + devoninco
(https://soundcloud.com/zaytovenbeatz)
(www.instagram.com/zaytovenbeatz)
(https://soundcloud.com/deemadethis-beat)
(www.instagram.com/1devoninco/)

right now prod zaytoven devoninco

follow> https://soundcloud.com/lilsulphur & https://soundcloud.com/tothegood

lyrics:
you always took it too far,
like I’m sorry we drifted apart.
you were bangin on my heart,
sorry not sorry your feelings hurt.

sulphur:
sorry not sorry I popped a percocet 
sorry not sorry I’m not what u expect 

down bad on my ass
im a fool I thought it’d last
hide my pain drugs my mask
don’t lie to me I know your sad 

I’m kinda glad that ur not in the picture 
oxycontin with the xanax that’s the mixture 
im really broke but im also getting richer 
on the comedown now I realize that I missed her

hurt w/sulphur

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hurt w/sulphur (prod.tothegood)

produced by: @yunnygoldz
artwork, vocals, mixing, crying by: @sendflowrs

lyrics:

and would you stay?
would you tell me if you really wanted me?
yeah, baby would you stay?
yeah, baby would you stay?
would you lie for me?
would you die for me?
ive been running
for her love,
I try to intercept her, 
but no luck,
yeah ive been calling,
her bluff
but her heart ice cold,
she don't show no love

I watch it vanish, from my hands,
if I close my eyes, maybe you'll come back yeah
then I start to panic and I grab my notepad,
and I write another song about the bad days,
always bout the BAD DAYS,
BAD DAYS,
think about the BAD DAYS, 
I just cant get over you, ill sleep forever gladly,
everytime you're sober you cant even fucking stand me,
I said baby thats not love she smiled at me, said "exactly"

so get the fuck out my head, im falling again, where are you?
don't hit my friends, 
I wanted you dead, but are you?
pressure again, I cannot pretend ill call you, 
the money you spend has changed you my love, you're not you 

(the money you’ve spent has changed you my love, you're not you)
x2

and would you stay?
would you tell me if you really wanted me?
yeah, baby would you stay?
yeah, baby would you stay?
would you lie for me?
would you die for me?
ive been running
for her love,
I try to intercept her, 
but no luck,
yeah ive been calling,
her bluff
but her heart ice cold,
she don't show no love

no love
my hands 
come back
note pad 
bad days

m my hands 
c come back
n note pad
bad days

phantom (prod. kazba x skrwd)

skrwd

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