spring 2023 blahhh

Diana Gordon - Thank You (Lyrics).mp3

svnam - are you happy? (irby)

svnam - jawbreaker (jolst)

From 'Sports', available 4 November on Banquet Records.

Modern Baseball - The Weekend

ｉｆ　ｔｈｅ　ｔｒｕｔｈ　ｗｏｎ＇ｔ　ｓｅｌｌ，　ｋｅｅｐ　ｏｎ　ｂａｒｇａｉｎｉｎｇ

thank you so much for listening.

prod. farber x @jang0x
(additional piano implemented by me)

another day wasted, sitting in my room
i sleep through the dread
i skip through the news
i bet when i wake that nothing is new..
but i can dream, oh can't i?
what's wrong with the sky
it left me behind
now i don't go outside
why won't you ever ask why
the day is faster than the night
(let me go, the night, let me die)

i cannot leave when the ground has been holding me
weep and repeat, cause the cycle has grown on me
you'll brush it off, "oh he's spittin some poetry"
but really i'm trying my best so you'll notice me
i ain't been up on my luck in a minute
it must be my fault that my health has diminished
but i'll fight my way through this shit to the finish
cause i'm all i got, and it's all i was given
i wish they saw what i see on the daily
but i no longer desire a saving
i've learnt a lot, but i still fuck it over (i always fuck it up)
birds feeding out of my chest while i smolder

i watch them fly away
my intestines in their veins
i'm in an empty space
in a stagnant state

this moment's passing me by
but just whose fault is it this time?
with wings made of sludge
blue is more than just the color it's made out to be
what chilled lips to cave into the temptation of frost
if the truth won't sell, keep on bargaining.
having the upper-hand doesn't determine how many fingers it's broken
but you can assume a lot, right?..
RIGHT?
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another day wasted, sitting in my room
i sleep through the dread
i skip through the news
i bet when i wake that nothing is new..
but i can dream, oh can't i?
what's wrong with the sky
it left me behind
now i don't go outside
why won't you ever ask why
the day is faster than the night
(let me go, the night, let me die)

with wings to fly [prod. farber x jang0]

whats the problem?
prod. @imcaves
hope u enjoy <3

lyrics:
whats the problem
i try not to think ab it in the long run
say it louder to convince myself i’m awful
i see ur face n think i’ll never pass the autumn
ain’t it funny how that works
never knew how much it hurt
put a price atop my head i got a target
thought i need more attention now i’m starving
i knew myself a whole lot less than i regarded
now ur over me w him
i don’t know where to begin

u can tell me that theres more to life
but i just wish we were immortalized
i think im brave until im forced to fly
i’ll never catch up to the morning light

suffer, suture wounds
i crushed my future; tomb
i’d see the sun
if you’d just move a bit
puncture lungs removed
tell me what u do
when night hits
everything is new again

whats the problem
isnt this all that u wanted in the long run?
i could spend my days just waiting for a phone call
but if i did then i wouldnt be someone u want
aint it funny how that works
i’ll just lie down in the dirt
u can bend me how u wanna cuz i like that
i miss how you’d make me hurt i never fight back
i know that it didnt work but yet despite that
i’m a sucker for ur love
i thought it was kinda fun

u can tell me that theres more to life
but i just wish we were immortalized
i think im brave until im forced to fly
i’ll never catch up to the morning light
i'll never

brave bird [caves]

spotify, apple, etc.

produced by caves

it all goes wrong when your with me
you know that, your in two d
you know that, i love you babe, i love you more

it all wraps round my..
she cant calm down
my..
it all ends, ends now
cant help it im a tree in the ground

so selfish what i built for you now
do i exist without my pals
ill bandage ill wear it round
have it we're married in hell

it all wraps round my..
she cant calm down
my..
it all ends, ends now
cant help it im a tree in the ground

IT ALL WRAPS ROUND MY..
SHE CANT CALM DOWN
MY..
IT ALL ENDS, ENDS NOW
CANT HELP IT IM A TREE IN THE GROUND

it all went wrong you know that

married in hell

main loop used is from a killedmyself drumpack

Its a little late for that don't you think?

been a minute

been a minute (prod hero)

please don’t step on my heart 
i’ve been over and over this
many times before 
please don’t get out my car 
the door opens and you leave 
and then we fall apart 

call my bluff, we play cards 
but she always has the ace 
hiding up her sleeve 
i can’t ever recall
not one moment that she ever 
simply smiled at me 

and those cold eyes make me panic
what do you want 
i can’t manage 
and those bright red lips 
make me vanish
what do you want with me 

stop the crying and the shouting, im sorry 
but maybe you’re better off
i’ll stop the crying if u tell me u want me
i’ll do anything no matter the cost

cus the rain my love hasn’t stopped coming
ever since you were the one i lost
i can’t be here without you, im dying
one kiss will finish me off 

please don’t step on my heart (stop the crying and the shouting i’m sorry)
i’ve been over and over this
many times before (but maybe you’re better off)
please don’t get out my car (i’ll stop the crying if u tell me u want me) 
the door opens and you leave 
and then we fall apart (i’ll do anything no matter the cost)

call my bluff, we play cards (cus the rain my love hasn’t stopped coming) 
but she always has the ace 
hiding up her sleeve (ever since you were the one i lost) 
i can’t ever recall (i can’t be here without you, im dying)
not one moment that she ever 
simply smiled at me (one kiss will finish me off)

banshee (wisssery)

just to see you alive 

prod: @jolst
master: @vito2300

please don’t push me aside 
i’ve given my life up 
just to see you alive 
it’s everything i want 
to be good in your eyes 

it doesn’t really get better 
that’s the lesson i learned 
now i wait for the day 
that i turn one with the earth 

i just love to sit and watch it burnout 
i’ve been sleeping with the bodies in the fallout 
i know i’ll die if i ever let my guard down 
there’s a creature waiting by 
to take my heart out 

please don’t push me aside 
i’ve given my life up 
just to see you alive 
it’s everything i want 
to be good in your eyes 
(i’ve given my life up 
just to see you alive 
it’s everything i want 
it’s everything i)

tell me is it wrong 
i just love it how it hurts 
darling is it wrong 
how i'm wishing for the worst 
baby in the end i’m just a body 
did you know 
that you’ve been sleeping with a zombie?

aside

aside (prod. jolst)

lyrics:

VERSE 1
i aint got no animosity i hope you great
hope you do all of the shit you said you gonna do someday
every time im kneeling down and i bow i my head to pray
throw your name into the mix hoping god’ll keep you safe

despite what you think, im always gon care
you can say what you want but im gon be right there
you can talk all your shit but im going nowhere
and you know where to reach me you ever get scared

think im a russian, sip moscow mule
keep it a hunnid, stay on the move
keep myself busy im going thru it
know you is too, we accustomed to it

they say “HK why you change your voice man?”
ion got no energy, like its not a choice man
i just lay in bed and im missing appointments
do my very best to not be disappointment

HOOK
seen that you good, seen your new man
seen that you happy with shit that you have
im rooting for you and i hope that you glad
keep it a buck im just chasin the bands

i aint got no hate im not tryna replace,
all the things that we shared and things been displaced,
and i dont wanna fight or erase my mistakes,
i just pray that you thrive and you smile every day

VERSE 2
i got so many things to say
i dont sleep, hoping youre okay
leaving my bed sheets in dismay
when i get up, and i start my day

know its so rough, but we movin through
i aint never rest, cause im feeling blue,
and i know that im trash now to your whole crew
but thats shits okay cause im stuck like glue

if they could just feel this pain
coursing through my blackened veins
know they wont think that theyre sane
drown myself outside in the rain

Tattoo

tattoo

Lyrics:
ion wanna listen
ion wanna listen
girl turn that shit off while we chillin
la la la, u cant make me listen

hyperpop jus remind me of her
so i jus never listen, guess thats what i deserve
man id rather get poisoned and kicked to the curb
till my teeth falling out guess i just never learn

deftones jus reminds me of us
when that shit start up playing i get stabbed in the gut
so i tell em to skip it, say im trippin, "whats up?"
"man the homie cant hang cause he way too fucked up"

flashbacks on your bedroom floor
was like a second home, i dont come thru anymore
i guess thats just how life goes, im running low for sure
i should really just stop bitching yeah but life is such a chore

all i really do is bitch and moan and then i cry
then gotta keep pretend that im tough when im outside
cause you cant be let em know when they see pain up in your eyes
cause then you weak and you a target and you wont put up a fight

like, "fuck it all, he dont care about his life
so, take it all" i wont argue with a knife
and, then i fall, and they leave me out of spite
now im picking up the pieces of my already broken life

and i think you know its something i cannot keep shoving down
living with a mask it got me lookin like a fucking clown
ima just be honest, aint have much but i got nothing now
gripping on this bottle just to keep myself from shutting down

hyperpop jus remind me of her
so i jus never listen, guess thats what i deserve
man id rather get poisoned and kicked to the curb
till my teeth falling out guess i just never learn

deftones jus reminds me of us
when that shit start up playing i get stabbed in the gut
so i tell em to skip it, say im trippin, "whats up?"
"man the homie cant hang cause he way too fucked up"

ion wanna listen
ion wanna listen
girl turn that shit off while we chillin
la la la, u cant make me listen

deftones jus reminds me of us
when that shit start up playing i get stabbed in the gut
so i tell em to skip it, say im trippin, "whats up?"
"man the homie cant hang cause he way too fucked up"

spring 2023 blahhh

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