prod. by kssbeatz
Big thanks to @nokerbforever, appreciate it bro

Lyrics:
I haven't been on road up
I haven't been on road up
Where my friends at
I can't even fucking notice
Where my friends at
I ain't even know that

I haven't been on road up
I haven't been on road up
Where my friends at
I can't even fucking notice
Where my friends at
I ain't even know that

Most of all my time
I am losing my mind
Most of all your time
You don't wanna get back
I am gonna smack it
Killing me come up with
I don't care too much about myself and all your friends yeah
Yeah
I am walking alone
I don't tend to change myself with money
Where they gone at
People hate me at my source
Ima hopeless pitiful exhausted body

Tears drop on my floor
I don't have your heart
Tears drop on my floor
I don't have your heart

smetinotalive X COLDSYNK - Everything Might Be Fine(prod. jolst)

Check @nokerbforever

esrever ni gniklaw brekoN

Lyrics:

[smetinotalive]
i don't like your face
i'm feeling in the cut
scared to be myself
cuz everybody's in the mud
crawling on the tip your toes
guess you feeling fucking scared
i don't mind to be alone

i haven't touched my streets
since back about three weeks
i ain't have no conscious
to my comfort
and i can't afford my feels
every fucking level that you step
you have to die right now
every fucking level that you fail
you have to die right now

baby, tell me why the fuck i gotta hide
tell me everything you haven't said
i'll be just fine
maybe take your life to knife and gon' find out yourself
you don't bother any time, i am craving fucking help
you are walking in the shadows just hoping i see your face
i am stupid but i'm hoping i ain't going to degrade
NOKERB walking in reverse
i get all this shit and send me back into the hearse

i don't like your face
i'm feeling in the cut
scared to be myself
cuz everybody's in the mud
crawling on the tip your toes
guess you feeling fucking scared
nightmares and your dreamings
made me crying go to hell

[NOKERB]
walking in reverse
these pills make me see alot of things
pull me out my grave
you know all these scars i got r real
bitter person, u
fucking made me to what i real hate
when i see her face in the rain i get high again
cold body, in the night i get these shakes again
frustrated human being
all i do is fucking hate 
she thinks that im a good boy
but she dont know what i see
couldnt be the one 4 u
couldnt be the one 4 me
cold body, in the night i get these shakes again
frustrated human being
all i do is fucking hate 
she thinks that im a good boy
but she dont know what i see
couldnt be the one 4 u
couldnt be the one 4 me

smetinotalive x NOKERB - SCARS(prod. kubsy beats)

FOR PAIN EP

prod. by NVRMND

[Lyrics:]
I'm hiding in the dark
Let me spliff it all around
Let me fucking find my home
Let me find my love
Everywhere i go
I can't find the home 
I am bang out off my brain
But it's still the same
Same things
The same old me
I'm the same as I was
But why'd you say i am the most
I can't find my fucking home
But i'm still on the road
But i'm still on the road
And i feel that it's easy to be free
Could be free from the pain
But i'm digging my head into grave
And i get high
And i get lies
And i get all that you ever said to me
Have you wanted to set it free?
I'm breaking my chains
Beg you just gimme another chance
That just will put me into the trance
Implementing my bones
Waking in mud
I'm waking alone
And it's feeling so old
Grey snow like a buried body
It's fall but i'm so exhausted
It's cold but it feels so frozen
My heart and it's getting closer
Tears drop to my floor while i'm crying
You flow into your goddamn point
I'm glad that you are shitload
Of all fancy rings

FOR PAIN

Darkness(prod. NVRMND)

Lyrics:

And I
Beg you just give me another try
Beg me to stop hearing nother cry
I am making it outta my home
So you can listen my roam
Please stop telling me to drive
I am only trying to cry
I am screaming in the morning
Smoking fast on the evening
But i'm stressed and it doesn't help
But you're mess but i do care
Please just stop cursing me unfair
Please just stop bracing my faith

Of course you get it right
I lose my time but that's alright
But that's okay and you are fine

Just Try

Just Try(Prod. Cha Cha)

Lil shitty cover. Yeah, i know about poppy tears in this, but i don't fuck with their style in this particular song.

I'll delete it soon probably

9tails - Sink cover(Prod. CapsCtrl)

Prod. by TaylorJ

https://open.spotify.com/track/5kwQtIXe2sYp8FveGcwDwM?si=2f1e499ca63f4ccb

Lyrics:

Tell me what you thinking
I ain't gonna do that
Lying all around
I am always acting stupid
Waterfall and it feels like it's a fall down
Losing purpose not on purpose
Wanna blow up
Scarecrow i'm scaring crows out
For no reason keeping me alive
Where is my phone at

Cowardly, i am crawling thru the mud
My brain splat, it is outside
Taking too much
Drinking too much
Feeling throw up
I am so loud
Every time i'm trying stay alive
Every word i say has gotta retire
When i die
What you gonna do then
Will you cry
Will you hate me
When i quit quick
No words for the past life
No words for the true side

Hate me
Blame me
What a shame that i'm being so worthless
What a shame that you're being so ruthless
4am i'm feeling so clueless
Blood drips down
I'm so high
I can't even see the light
See the red slights
I can't even see my mind
Seeing red dust
I can't even see my mind

Fall to the floor
Breaking bones
What you gonna do then
It's too late
What you wanna say to me
I said but before and before

What you wanna say to me
I heard it all in past
Would you wanna be with me
Until we all die
Till we all dead
I smoked too much
Everything is so dead
Am i not right?

Taking too much
Drinking too much
Feeling throw up
I am so loud
Every time i'm trying stay alive
Every word i say has gotta retire
When i die
What you gonna do then
Will you cry
Will you hate me
When i quit quick
No words for the past life
No words for the true side

I heard it all

I Heard It All(Prod. TaylorJ)

prod. by Collins

Cover art by https://www.instagram.com/kayllakfc/
I really do appreciate it

https://open.spotify.com/track/3TT7VrtXYfL4wdEBJg0fSS

Lyrics:
He don't deserve anything in this life
Breaking purpose off a meaning
Crisp bars and some cups
Let him do whatever you reel
But does it sense the feelings off
Of the way how you feel
Dim lights flashing out, you woke up
When it comes throughout your life
Would you get it to cut
Tell them everything you want, you are buried alive
Deep bites and stains upon your chest you really alive
Keep the pain under pressure
Cuz they fucking don't care
Keep your stare under yellow sight
You're doing your best
Does it matter how you're doing your best?
Anything and every way make you losing your friends

Doesn't matter how you feel
Whatever you do is so exhausting
Tasting the taste is surreal
What are you doing it's so disgusting
World is so far surreal
Didn't you notice how it's crashing?(notice how it's crashing)
Didn't you notice how it's crashing?(how it's crashing)

World is so far surreal, didn't you notice how it's crashing?
You are alive

Surreal but Alive

Surreal but Alive(prod. Collins)

Parts Apart

smetinotalive X Ally - Parts Apart(prod. NL Beats X Itsshxde)

*****
spend my time to help but gonna go to hell now
*****

Was supposed to be a part of EP

-coticker-
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCQISBTN9ySJ1cbRWqjbkVOA

Lyrics:
Oh my god i'm so high
I'm peaking
Swear i fall before i die
I don't wanna change the pace
They swearing all i'd never come thru
I don't wanna save me
Spend my time to help
But i am gonna go to hell now
I would spend my money
But i've never had these
Wanna buy some drugs
But i know they never save me
They would only play it
I would only pay for it
Everybody in this room already know you'll pay off

Oh my god i'm getting higher
With the blood when drips down
I think i am hiding like vampire
In the streets light
Night is cold down
I don't think i'm gonna crazy
Spending life on work
But i've never put the effort
Have you ever seen what's under mask
I think it is a demon
People love to hide themselves
They think it is the feelings
But it's never easy when you're rolling off the hills now
But it's never easy when you try to keep the hold on
When you try to see things
I'm seeing only blue roads
I will keep on roam
It is easier to live like
Like you try to hide the pain but always gotta get out
I would leave this town
Show the way of getting out of
Way of getting out of
I should change the flow
Cuz i would never get it out of
In my borders i'm alone
But it's okay
I am getting closer to the edge
You know i gotta say it

Oh my god i'm so high
I'm peaking
Swear i fall before i die
I don't wanna change the pace
They swearing all i'd never come thru
I don't wanna save me
Spend my time to help
But i am gonna go to hell now
I would spend my money
But i've never had these
Wanna buy some drugs
But i know they never save me
They would only play it
I would only pay for it
Everybody in this room already know you'll pay off

save me

Save Me (prod. Coticker)

Something forgotten, but pretty much new(February 11th), for those who keep listening my crappy songs.

I remembered why i didn't finish when i opened the project, my autotunes were broken, and it sounded kinda messy, muddy when it came to the tune of my layers. Tried to fix but nothing as you can hear.

I plan on releasing another one unfinished song that was fire at first, but i'm too dumb, weak and unskilled for finishing the song

Stutter(prod. LordZuko)

Bewitching upload by safehaven:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VHWy_QobV-U&ab_channel=safehaven.

-nightshift-
https://www.youtube.com/@prodlilnightshift


The song on Spotify
https://open.spotify.com/track/03m2CVaVNQKOU8cKUBiBAQ

Lyrics:
Dead cells in my brain
I don't wanna die
Standing by the river
All i feel is death inside
I could fly
I could catch up on my life
Have no power left
The monster that lives inside
How long you can keep me like that
How hard you can treat me like your god says
Alcohol keep drowning me with taxes
Toxic city, they hate me but with the right place

You left me so hard dead
Leaving with no letter
But i feel like it's okay
You tend to fall down quick
Quitting saying love you
Speaking truth but you don't trust me
For how long i've been tortured like you say
Always keeping my place
For how long i've been flying away
Always warding my space 

My cells eating me so fast
Filling up with red
I'm feeling like dead inside
I am quitting so fast
But you hitting my head so hard

Every night i am dreaming
See the night light
You are standing right with me
Imagine up the cry place
I regret that i'm crying so hard
It's just gonna crash you

dead cells

dead cells(prod. lil nightshift)

Produced by @itslimbobitch & @rjpasin

Lyrics:

Ashes down on the floor
You can't notice nothing more
Watch me bleed, from my mind
I can't stand, no, i can't heal
I can't hear, my ears are sore
Got infected from my pulse
Pulse will rise, but head will fall
Will this ever happen more
Hear the pain from day before
Tingle brain i take one more
Cut the breath, i touch my wrist
Feel so fine, i go to sleep

It's been off days, i ain't never sleeping
Got a one way more, you cannot save me
I tried so hard, but you ain't never bout believe me
I wanna leave you soon, i wanna leave you

Look into your eyes
And now they bleeding
I'd rather die
Than be feeling like defeated
I got a one way more
But i'm too weak
Passing out on these days, barely crawling on the week end
I hate my reflections, so i don't look at them
Don't look at my face, it is so disgusting
Completely exhausted from fighting demons
I'm dropped to the searching for any meaning
Completely abandoned, it feels relentless
It is the bad idea created from the loneliness
Would you give me any bit of hope to feels
Any hope to feels

Ashes down on the floor
You can't notice nothing more
Watch me bleed, from my mind
I can't stand, no, i can't heal
I can't hear, my ears are sore
Got infected from my pulse
Pulse will rise, but head will fall
Will this ever happen more

It's been off days, i ain't never sleeping
Got a one way more, you cannot save me
I tried so hard, but you ain't never bout believe me
I wanna leave you soon, i wanna leave you

Remnants

Remnants (prod. LIMBO x RJ Pasin)

Produced by @yung-anakinn check him out, his songs damn good

I mean... Enjoy the vibe lol. It's gonna be on Spotify and Co somewhen too, thanks to the producer

Lyrics:

Isolated tonight
Look at the sunset
Look at the mountain
Look at your head bro
It's full of problems
Turning up the volume
And it gets me so dead
I've been at it from like sixteen
Gotta check 
My head
My death
Seeing dying
Myself
Locked up in my room
I'm going off
I'm going crazy
Lazy
That's why
Isolating tonight
Gotta keep it up
Gonna cut another side
Have some ashes on the floor now
Get some cuts before i fold now
Heart pumps, blood rush
I am gonna crash now
I am gonna crash now

Sixteen

Sixteen(prod. LordZuko)

idfk man i'm deleting this in two days

lyrics:
I've been at it from the age of sixteen
Gotta check my head
Cuz i always hear the whisper
Whisper in my head i swear that i won't sleep but
Now i'm falling down through the stars but it's a dream now

I cut my wrists then i go to sleep
My eyes make tears but i'm dried out
I cause this pain but it's alright now
I don't care about my life don't save me i won't wake up

call me smeti(prod. LIMBO)

Sorry for the last part, it was recorded like 5 months later. I was stuck and nothing was coming out of me, every verse was shitty shit as well as in this final version.

Lyrics:
I'm always in the dark
I'm hiding like you're hiding spliff in your mom's house
I cannot feel no love, no joy
And everywhere i go
It's still the same as everything i know
Fuck your love and fuck your hoe and fuck your house, i'm not gon' around
It's like i feel the pain around
Gon' around
I'm in the place, i'm filling space
I'm not gon' around
I'm in the dark and i'm still hiding 
Like i'm talking up
Talk it up and let the feeling
What was then and now it's nothing
Bury body with your demons

I'm breaking up my chains like it's happened years ago
I just wanna crash, going 90 on the road
Living life like i don't have anything on the roam 
Pack my baggage, left abandoned, feels so frozen on the go

Grey snow like a buried body
It's fall but i'm so exhausted
It's cold but it feels so frozen
My heart and it's getting closer
To yours, while i'm treading in emotions

To yours, while i'm treading in emotions

Catching up on this life
I don't know what i'm waiting for
Am i alive?
Don't tell me that's what i've been living for
I can't come up with anything that i've been working on
I've never seen your eyes but that's been what i have been looking for

Darkness P2 (Prod. Luz1)

i don't even remember who was the producer sorry lol

Ally X SmetiNotAlive - Maybach[reupload]

Tried to help but they didn't ask for help

s̶m̶e̶t̶i̶nota̶l̶i̶v̶e̶

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