Polarity is a  story that begins with someone falling in love. However, their expression of love has a sea of red flags. It starts to grow into an unhealthy obsession. Before long the main character begins to change their image to reflect the person they admire most, causing a distorted sense of self-image. There is momentary bliss during the time spent with their lover, until they notice the toxic behavior for themselves. The main character becomes over-obsessive, territorial, and bursts in episodes of inappropriate anger. However, their skewed perception of love makes them blind to the actual harm they’re doing to their relationship. They try to control their intense emotions, becoming passive aggressive and bitter. They feel as if the love they’ve given is not being reciprocated, when in reality they’re having a hard time navigating around the thought of personal space and boundaries. Soon the main character experiences depression after their fit of displaced anger. They find something else to obsess over now that their significant other has left them. Unfortunately, the alternative they chose had been substance abuse, landing them in a dark place. While emotions keep oscillating, so do thoughts of suicide and self harm. They feel ultimately worthless and have gone from putting their former lover on the highest pedestal to completely devaluing them. Thinking them out to be a bad person and trying hard to forget who they were. The main character is faced with confrontation after rehabilitating. With a clear head and help from others, they begin to recognize their self destructive patterns and toxicity. In a grand effort, they work on becoming a better person. 

The end of this story is meant to be bittersweet. Although they cannot have the person they want, loving them taught the main character how to manage their emotions and sympathize with the feelings of others. They recount memories of their love for their former partner in a more realistic and healthy way.

DEAR VAMPIRA

Night we lost it all
Fading from ya
Wait until the call
Night we lost it all
Fading from ya
Wait until the call
Night we lost it all
Fading from ya
Wait until the call
Night we lost it all
Fading from ya
Wait until the call

As I fade away
Tell me that I'm nothing
Wanna stay away
Please tell me that I am for you
Stay away
Tell me that I'm nothing
Wanna stay away
Please tell me I am something to you

Stay away
Stay away
Stay away
Stay away
Stay away
Stay away
Stay away
Stay away

Night we lost it all
Fading from ya
Wait until the call
Night we lost it all
Fading from ya
Wait until the call
Night we lost it all
Fading from ya
Wait until the call
Night we lost it all
Fading from ya
Wait until the call

Stay Away (prod. greyrock & akkiru1 elseen)

Okay
Now I’m telling everybody that I’m
Okay
I am feeling like I’m slowly gonna-
Okay
I will numb it till I say that I am
Okay
Every night it crashes but I say I’m

Okay,Okay,Okay,Okay

Okay
Now I’m telling everybody that I’m
Okay
I am feeling like I’m slowly gonna-
Okay
I will numb it till I say that I am
Okay
Every night it crashes but I say I’m
Okay
Now I’m telling everybody that I’m
Okay
I am feeling like I’m slowly gonna-
Okay
I will numb it till I say that I am
Okay
Every night it crashes on me but I’m

Okay
Tell me what you want now
Oh wait
Am I just your slave now?
No way
I just let you in without-
Too late
Now the voices yelling stay out
Wait please
Is too late to
Save me
Tell me why you
Hate me
When all I want is
Safety

Okay,Okay,Okay,Okay

Okay
Now I’m telling everybody that I’m
Okay
I am feeling like I’m slowly gonna-
Okay
I will numb it till I say that I am
Okay
Every night it crashes but I say I’m
Okay
Now I’m telling everybody that I’m
Okay
I am feeling like I’m slowly gonna-
Okay
I will numb it till I say that I am
Okay
Every night it crashes on me but I’m
Okay

OK :3 (prod. nightiger)

My clothes still smell like you 
I know that I fxcked up too

Maybe if you find another
I’d be fine fading from you
Maybe it’s a sign my lover
Think it’s time that you hate me too

But the notes they’re in my face
I don’t wanna bother so hey
Knowing I won’t fight so I will stay
Lose it all but it’s okay 

I know there’s no one like you
I know there’s no one like you
I lost it all, without you
I lost it all, without you

Maybe if you find another
I’d be fine fading from you
Maybe it’s a sign my lover
Think it’s time that you hate me too

But the notes they’re in my face
I don’t wanna bother so hey
Knowing I won’t fight so I will stay
Lose it all but it’s okay

Cloudy (prod. karasuma)

Break
They can tell me it's a rumor
Fake
Put it down so I can think about the
Pain
Can't cope that I will lose her
Wait
I am overwhelmed I think I'm gonna

Ay
Tell me it's a rumor
Woulda stayed away from you if I've known it sooner
Ay
Wishin now I knew what you were
Back when I first met you yea I thought you were a user
Oh
Now it don't feel right
Sticking by your side
Loving you tonight
Oh
Stay here by my side
Cause if I never met you I could have died

Oh again
Say oh again
Oh again
Say oh again

I cannot decide
If I should fight
Stay with me tonight
We'll make it right
Want you in my life
Oh girl I tried
Yea I need you in my life
I'd never lie to you

Break
They can tell me it's a rumor
Fake
Put it down so I can think about the
Pain
Can't cope that I will lose her
Wait
I am overwhelmed I think I'm gonna

RUMOR ft. DaKidChris (prod. gxdrays x Northeast Lights)

Luck be there to anyone
Anyone to find your seed

Wake up, tell me what you really wanna be
Fade out, luck is running tell me what you see
Faced up, looking at the mirrors never free
Throw my heart, throw my heart in the sea

You're the missing forth leaf clover
Now I'm wishing I was sober
Told you how I felt in the middle of October
You're the missing forth leaf clover
And I still remember every kiss that you gave me
So let me lock all my feelings away in a cave cause I don't want to be here
You're the missing forth leaf clover

Missing 4th leaf clover
Tell me was would you really wanna look
Tell me was I ever even love
Lose my luck, lose my clover, it was over

Wake up, tell me what you really wanna be
Fade out, luck is running tell me what you see
Faced up, looking at the mirrors never free
Throw my heart, throw my heart in the sea

Wake up, tell me what you really wanna be
Fade out, luck is running tell me what you see
Faced up, looking at the mirrors never free
Throw my heart in the amidst of the sea

You're the missing forth leaf clover
Now I'm wishing I was sober
Told you how I felt in the middle of October
You're the missing forth leaf clover
And I still remember every kiss that you gave me
So let me lock all my feelings away in a cave cause I don't want to be here
You're the missing forth leaf clover

Dedamin x Arisukaru - Luck Be A Lady (prod. Fantom)

Ripples (demo)

Something Somewhere (demo)

I think we can all relate to feeling lost at some point in our lives. It’s a strange sensation, being caught in the turmoil of transition where change seems to drown out everything. There’s a heaviness that comes with silence, as if the very act of being muted robs us of our true selves. 

My voice might not resonate the way it once did, and trying to articulate these feelings feels like grasping at shadows. I won't pretend to have clear answers or a roadmap to guide our way; sometimes, it’s just about embracing the ambiguity. 

I’m choosing to remain vague for now. These words may be the last for a while, but here’s what I want to share: I exist as a voice, amidst the silence and the noise that surrounds me. It might feel different, but I remind myself—I am not alone. 

As I navigate these swirling changes, I find an understanding of what sound means to me. It’s not about fading away; it’s about being a collection of pitches and buttons, ready for exploration, much like the chaos and challenges that have shaped my world. I’m no longer frightened; I’m simply aware of what I’ve already lost, a part of me that feels like it’s slipping away. 

But even as my vocal sound begins to shift, I choose to embrace this journey. Thank you for sharing this moment with me.

Full Moon

Explain

All u gotta do is call back 🫡

Prod by Klein

DEAR VAMPIRA

Vampira (@vampiramusic)