Goals (Feat. Bandaii x) (Prod.Mort1s1)

fall.

BASTARD (PROD. LUCIID)

held you for too long and then you burned me like a cigarette </3

NICOTINE + HEARTBREAK (PROD. CITYBOY)

Gami Beat battle

MURAKAMI

ignore him (prod. THERSX)

Polarity is a  story that begins with someone falling in love. However, their expression of love has a sea of red flags. It starts to grow into an unhealthy obsession. Before long the main character begins to change their image to reflect the person they admire most, causing a distorted sense of self-image. There is momentary bliss during the time spent with their lover, until they notice the toxic behavior for themselves. The main character becomes over-obsessive, territorial, and bursts in episodes of inappropriate anger. However, their skewed perception of love makes them blind to the actual harm they’re doing to their relationship. They try to control their intense emotions, becoming passive aggressive and bitter. They feel as if the love they’ve given is not being reciprocated, when in reality they’re having a hard time navigating around the thought of personal space and boundaries. Soon the main character experiences depression after their fit of displaced anger. They find something else to obsess over now that their significant other has left them. Unfortunately, the alternative they chose had been substance abuse, landing them in a dark place. While emotions keep oscillating, so do thoughts of suicide and self harm. They feel ultimately worthless and have gone from putting their former lover on the highest pedestal to completely devaluing them. Thinking them out to be a bad person and trying hard to forget who they were. The main character is faced with confrontation after rehabilitating. With a clear head and help from others, they begin to recognize their self destructive patterns and toxicity. In a grand effort, they work on becoming a better person. 

The end of this story is meant to be bittersweet. Although they cannot have the person they want, loving them taught the main character how to manage their emotions and sympathize with the feelings of others. They recount memories of their love for their former partner in a more realistic and healthy way.

HEARTBEAT feat. TommyPapi

Vampira (@vampiramusic)