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PiHKAL
 June 17, 2017.
*LYRICS*

I lost a piece of myself
2012
I won't forget ya
Me see I never ned help 
Do this myself
Don't need assistance
Girl who depend on my wealth
Notchinmybelt
was fun but good riddance
Me and my baby do well
duet and duality
She's a pretty lil angel

I have no reason to cry
I got no reason to cry
I don't need u in my life
Ill have a wonderful time
Baby look me in my eyes
Pupils one helluva size
I can't attempt suicide
yet to have time of my life
I have no reason to cry 
I got no reason to cry aye

I found myself all alone
A year ago
I need a sunset
Ok, I get it, you know
life is a joke;
millennial fuckfest
I really thought I would blow
instead I do blow 
My only success
Suck it up, love me Im depressed
Up in her tummy das young $ex
idnc if you want me
want u to want me to undress

I have no reason to cry
Ill find a reason to cry
Tempt me and lead me to lie
I see a dream in her eyes 
Im gonna scheme on the prize 
U can just sleep in for life

Tell me, tell me, lie to me, lie to me
I get high of this irony
I decided that I should leave 
Not just you but society 
Do me one and just lie for me

You have no reason to cry
You'll find a reason to cry
Long.Live.MyDemons survive
Attached, I can't leave them behind
Even feel low when Im high
Oh what a wonderful life
I have no reason to cry
I have no reason to cry

Molly Melancholy  (prod. by KAY NIVE$ x DARKSKYPARADOX)

Art by me.


Up 2 nights on amphetamines
I draw lines to their heavenly
melodies
I felt fine but then fell asleep
questioning
everything
can deny who Im crediting for
taking me....
Things I didn't know
Thoughts we never thought of
Put darkness in my glow,
A chalk line made of stardust like
Softening the blow 
With salt all in my nostrils
8ball straight to my nose
put stones all on my tonsils like..
///
I AM THE COLDEST ONE
PHYSICALLY
MENTALLY
TOO MUCH TO SHOW U LOVE
I AM ALONE AGAIN
TOO CAUGHT UP AND ANGRY, TOO STUBBORN TO NOTICE IT
I CARE FOR NOTHING BUT
YOUR ENTERTAINMENT CAUSE FUCK MY UTOPIA
MY MAMA TOLD ME ONCE
JUST MAKE SURE YOURE OLD ENOUGH
///
Trapped in a city as black is my room
My captor left plenty,
'aye master, thank u'
Awful to be a new casualty
Offered to be a new (tragedy) soon
up two nights on amphetamines 
I draw lines to their heavenly
melodies,
Their melodies are settling 


THIS INSTRUMENTAL PRODUCED AND CURRENTLY OWNED BY: @whatsworse

AND AGAIN THE MASTERING OF MY VOCALS DONE BY @darkskyparadox

FELL ASLEEP (prod. WORSE X DARKSKYPARADOX)

the homie @guccihighwaters

lyrics

(gucci)
I build static
I go crazy
Can't put it out if it doesn't sound amazing
and life's too fast baby hold me till it's over
tell me that you love me maybe once when you're sober
Don't wanna die as a memory
I can't leave without my legacy
Leave love letters lying on my tombstone
death is only physical I'd like to have a new home

Anxiety make my body go numb now
I sleep early withdraw on the comedown 
when I was younger it left me in hunger
but now I'm older 
desire to be under x2

(softheart)
you dont even care like you used to 
you aint even there like you used to be
hard like the usual 
you just give me stares like you're used to me

anxious probably up late
tryna hide my face
tryna bring it back
i was thinking that
life is always moving so fast
before you knew it had passed
doing better still bad

i guess im just scared it wont come
true so i dont think it
i swear its so lonely when its snowing
in new england
thought you called me it was just a 
dream was just a figment
of back when you would hold me 
like the only thing you need is
me 
is me 
is me
hate me you hate me so bad
its over hard to stay sober 
as i get older just grow colder
weed make it okay so i stay stoned
just like a boulder

chorus

anxiety (feat. guccihighwaters)

feature: @guccihighwaters

lyrics:

(softheart)
why would i trust in anything
i dont feel the love it dont mean a thing
feels so good then it really sting
i dont really talk but i really sing 
she got me thinking like
oo she had me
cut me off so bad
leave me messed up in my head
only miss us when were bad
i be in my room smoking loud sitting silent
you should be adressed as your highness
i swear every time we touch just mitus
im just roaming through the ridges of your irus
violence got your eyelids looking violet
promise ill get rid of him ill leave him where i find him
i be with the blinds dimmed hidin
vibin

unimpressed and always bored
it aint here yet so i'll wait for it
im depressed and always stoned
im always stressed i can't control it 
uninterested always alone
fire in my chest and my heart cold
bedroom unkept ash all over my floor
i got kush in my breath merijuana my decor


(gucci)
oh
i’m all alone my phone dead
i got thoughts of the end 
and my eyes sell a forfeit
thoughts of brain matter
stain my mattress
thoughts you drown me
like a baptist

girl im sorry
oh yeah im sorry
im not the one you love
i’d be the one to fuck you 
then ignore you
for a month

girl im sorry
oh yeah im sorry
im not the one you love
i’d be the one to fuck you 
then ignore you
for a month

(softheart)
yeah and im just an outcast 
only fit in with the skyline 
cause im always lighting up
never really gets me numb enough
sorry i wasnt the one you loved

(gucci&softheart)
girl im sorry
oh yeah im sorry
im not the one you love
i’d be the one to fuck you 
then ignore you
for a month

i'm not the one you love (feat. guccihighwaters)

instagram - fatherfuneral

art by me
-----------------------------------------

BROWN EYES, PALE FACE
I KNOW HELL WAITS
IN THE DARK
I SEE STARS

PRIZE OF THE SHOWCASE 
IM COMING HOME LATE
I'VE BEEN GONE
WAY TOO LONG

GOD TRIED TALKING TO ME
I'M HIGH NOT LISTENING
SHINE BRIGHT, IM GLISTENING 
FINE LINES DEFINE ANYTHING 
 </3

PROD.  @prblm

MM. @darkskyparadox
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6vvju_2NXs8&t=103s

IN THE DARK (PROD. PRBLM x DARKSKYPARADOX)

drugs.

stream: https://spoti.fi/2FT8LZs

lyrics: https://genius.com/Softheart-right-back-to-the-beginning-lyrics

piano loop used by dusthill

Right Back To The Beginning

lyrics: https://genius.com/Softheart-and-guccihighwaters-when-it-runs-up-lyrics

produced by @guccihighwaters and softheart
guitar by @cisco-kid-music

When It Runs Up (feat. guccihighwaters)

Heart Full of Rage

Novacane

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VFE7yVvHdxo

LYRICS BELOW+++

BEAT PRODUCED BY @imissutelo

MIX AND MASTERED @darkskyparadox

I stay by your picture when I'm stoned
12 oz, punch liquor on the drive home
Shadows in the flicker of the light bulbs
Will anyone remember me when I go?
Lie low
Lie low
I've been suicidal
Neck hangs with my eyes closed
Don't matter where I go
This decision is final..
Never look behind you 
Might see what you don't like to 
I don't talk to God 
but sometimes wish I could find you
I look in her eyes
I see dreams, I see vitals
and I been seeing signs in the things I was blind to...

CALL ME A NAME,
CAN YOU MAKE ME CONFESS
ALL OF THE THINGS THAT YOU HATE I SUPPRESS ?
WHEN IT STAYS IN MY BRAIN AND IT MAKES ME A MESS !
STAYING DEPRESSED IS SOMETHING STRANGER THAN DEATH..

Song about a drug... 
You can see it in my eye, 
Something about your love gets me really fucking high
and
Through my mind you run from problems that you're hiding
I've been coming undone, put me in a cycle. 

CALL ME A NAME,
CAN YOU MAKE ME CONFESS
ALL OF THE THINGS THAT YOU HATE I SUPPRESS ?
WHEN IT STAYS IN MY BRAIN AND IT MAKES ME A MESS !
STAYING DEPRESSED IS SOMETHING STRANGER THAN DEATH..

MAKE ME FORGET (prod. IMISSUTELO x DARKSKYPARADOX)

Music Video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ExM4-D9dUqE
Beat produced by @paczki
Song Mixed and Mastered by @darkskyparadox

AND IM FALLING
IN A PIT,
I ADMIT THAT IM SORRY :(
I DONT GET THROWING FITS WHEN YOU CALL ME.. 
OFF THE SHITS, MAYBE ITS ME WITHDRAWING..?
ME WITHDRAWING..
THINK I LOVE YOU !
I FEAR GOD IN THE ROOM WHEN I FUCK YOU..
AND ITS ODD, I ASSUME YOU'RE ENOUGH TO
FILL THE FOG AND THE GLOOM WHEN ITS SUBTLE..
NEVER SUBTLE, I KNOW..

PARDON ME
I CAN SEE 
U & ME
IN HARMONY 
STARTING THINGS
OUT WEST.
OUT WEST, OUT WEST, OUT WEST.. yeah. (x2)
--
FUCK ME !
TRY TO MAKE ME FEEL SOMETHING 
SOMETIMES MY THOUGHTS GET UGLY.
SOMETIMES YOUR THOUGHTS ARE OF ME.
ARE OF ME
I KNOW SOMETHING
SOMETHING THAT LIES ABOVE ME
I TRIED TO DIE, IM SUFFERING
IM OUT MY MIND, IM UNCLEAN (DIRTY? IDK)
IM OUT MY MIND !

GOD IN THE ROOM (PROD. PACZKI x DARKSKYPARADOX)

lyrics: https://genius.com/Softheart-today-lyrics

wow i cant believe i got truett to do a feature verse without any credit  what a good guy

Today

stream/buy

ULTRA

Think Of You prod. Tunna Beatz

shinigami - zombie! [prod. hozay beats]

if it's the last day of my life, i'd come back to you

-Produced by River Beats
-Written and Performed by 30
-Mixed by 30
-Mastered by Dacota

follow 30 on socials @iam30music

last day of my life

SPOTIFY

merch<3

my brodie crashed the honda </3 (prod. aidan han x yugen)

i did im just being a brat about it though

i never cared about you

OUT OF MY MIND

King Tap (prod. Yung Skrrt x Umru)

red_door (prod. orchid)

shinigami - nice cock freestyle (LEAKK)

@whereisnomu very lovely song
kind of a cover of @limeboiler small version
prod @limeboiler
lol 
<3

nomu - dress (limeboiler)

texting u ily from the back of a cop car (prod. rinne)

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written, produced, mixed, and mastered by me!

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NEGATIVE NANCY

pouring up i'm sippin, flippin through the photographs
ponder my position in this life it's moving fast
I don't wanna walk alone down this wretched path
with you baby feel at home
but will feelings last?
~
rose decay away, I got toxins in my head in class
colors fade to grey, I'm laying in my bed, the past
lingers up inside my head till i'm dead might
take it all away today one more snake bite

take it all away today one more snake bite
got the venom in my veins, on a rain night
walking streets all on my own I'm deranged right
I cannot just pin point the pain in my brain, ight?
digging in my skin with the fangs, that don't sit right
potion just to help with the angst, no I won't fight
messaged you the last seven days but you won't write
back to me baby, can't sleep with no "goodnight"

yeah I've been lost in my head
travel the maze without you, golden thread
no she don't understand that's why I dread
still love her forever, but fearing an end
thats why I hold you so tightly and spend
days overthinking and I just pretend
everythings right in my mind but instead
I'm overtaken by thoughts once again

pouring up i'm sippin, flippin through the photographs
ponder my position in this life it's moving fast
I don't wanna walk alone down this wretched path
with you baby feel at home
but will feelings last?
~
rose decay away, I got toxins in my head in class
colors fade to grey, I'm laying in my bed, the past
lingers up inside my head till i'm dead might
take it all away today one more snake bite

snakebite [prod. useless]

I can't escape this hell that i put myself into

lyrics:

don't
ask me when the fuck i'm coming down
i've been awake
so long
yeah you can see it when i frown
i can't escape this hell that i put myself into
so don't relate to me
i'll surely disappoint you

wake
up
in the middle of the day
get up
never really wanna stay
what are
you doing
all alone in your home
no one knew you
but you still needed them them to remember
they were missed, they were loved
we ain't here forever,
i
just
waste
all my time
and now i cant even sleep
without this
coming to mind
okay

so sick, you cant even think straight,
all the words in the world cant even relate
to the hopeless,
bruised,
and forgotten,
you fell for a lie, your love started rotting
in the middle of the night, wake up, find out whats wrong
and then try to bring it to peace in another attempt at a song
just turn your music on
you never knew what to do you just sang along
until the,
song, 
came to an end
you'd just been making false promises
to yourself, the ones that just wanted to help you
so lost in a dream, now there is nowhere else
but just

don't
ask me when the fuck i'm coming down
i've been awake
so long
yeah you can see it when i frown
i can't escape this hell that i put myself into
so don't relate to me
i'll surely disappoint you

Lost in a Dream is almost Finished, thank you to all of those that have stuck with me this far<3

Escape (prod. sorrow bringer)

Pray For Me I'm Busy

prayformeimbusy

Stay By Me

just one of the infinite advantages of studying the art of the blade

Ain't It Funny How It Goes

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just happy to be here