this song has the heaviest backstory to it imaginable lmao

Lyrics:

late night drive
but i swear somethings off
i heard things
of people i never should 

i see you met the janitor
who never found his way
he's been fucking suicidal since 3 years ago today
and you might know him 
from the potions that he lives on and creates
take one look at him
oh god 
do u think he deserved his fate
and this place has got some issues he just half the time gets paid
and he solves the others problems with no 'please' or fucking 'thanks'
he'll be stuck here cleaning messes    
from july to next years may
but he don't mind his problems weighty enough for theirs to let him wade
 
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these are not english words i 
can't think so 
a da da dee di
i'm stressed the fuck outta my mind
whole life broke down overnight
don't make the same mistake as me 
you must take sides they both fucking scream
i gave my answer through gritted teeth
i hope my words can bring us to peace oh
hope i can bring us to peace oh
 
hope i can bring us to peace oh
i know all that we could be oh
hope i can bring us to peace oh
i'd show all that we could be
i hope my words can bring us to peace oh

janitor

prod. clear purple x maybe
@clearpurple

fuck on my lip wit a blunt
and baby u roll when i cut 
like why do you think im luv
shit is rough
muddy cup fillin sludge
fuckers call me they brother
barely know you that much

know i come off codependent 
i just want love and let in
break this soul i’d let you dead it
said home is where ur headed
i feel like i’ve never met it
still slitting paths of velvet
picture frame with shattered lessons
got me second guessing everybody, patterns second
after life come death, well i dont think that i accept it
just a coward little bastard, fearing countless changes 
with how im climbing them you’d think my mind is fucking everest
and even if i kill myself im sorry honest
shizu never wanted problems, but my songs adore it
so this leaking heart can bleed throughout the art its forming
take a breath, to telling everyone ur living for it
have mercy on me

fuck on my lip wit a blunt
and baby u roll when i cut 
like why do you think im luv
shit is rough
muddy cup fillin sludge
fuckers call me they brother
barely know you that much

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sludge (clear purple)

Silently all night
Write notes app paragraphs
To get the words right I gotta make a draft
And I get afraid of accidentally pressing send
I would rather do it here and copy paste it in
I don't care at all if they hate
I don't care, it all feels the same
I act like I'm strong when I'm not
I keep on pretending I'm okay
And I'm miles away
Running from the thought
I just don't have much that I can say
And I don't wanna try anymore
It's just such a long ways away

Tie me like an anchor to the floor
Or you can drag me all around like a bad dog owner
I don't wanna live like this no more
I'm just standing too high at the store
Yeah
I stay still and as I walk the ground moves under mе
This package hit my lungs like UPS trucks as I cross the street
And baby I'm your doll
I swеar that I'm just your dummy
Swear the way you love me, hurts so much it's funny
Tapped and always dumb and I'm so beautifully ugly
Throw me on my back, make me feel my body numbing
495 ways to tell me that I'm in over my head
I'm in over my head
How could I do something else with myself
If it's all decided and its not in my hands?
I don't know, I just wish I'd calm down
And be someone else that doesn't like just always fucking hiding
Got nowhere to go
I'm just camping out by myself
Some place I can find that
Lets me feel like I'm there 

Im a wasteaway
Watch me waste away next to you
Just a waist away

I don't care at all if they hate
I don't care, it all feels the same
I act like I'm strong when I'm not
I keep on pretending I'm okay
And I'm miles away
Running from the thought
I just don't have much that I can say
And I don't wanna try anymore
It's just such a long ways away

we made a heart farm o* + notes app drafts  .o*

i rly thought i was dead for a minute there lol

9TAILS - the game (prod. scottysplash)

Void

@ed
prod @2006astral

Letra 

Yeah, yeah
Woah, woah
Yeah, yeah, yeah

Yo sé que tú me vai’ a extrañar
Pero donde sea que estés
No te vas a olvidar
Yo sé que tú estás mal (estás mal)
Y no puedo hacer na’
Esa wea me frustra
Y no te quiero olvidar

Miro al tiempo para atrás
Y te extraño de verdad
Encerrado en mi casa, solo deseándote ver
No tenerte provoca estrés
Aunque sé que ya no quieres
Solo quisiera verte bien

ed - IMISSYOU prod astral

i've been sitting on this for a few months
i hope you guys fuck with it
thank you for every little bit of support
make sure you check out ricky's work too
@rickyhernandezz
<3

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music video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LTM_nrwUi_k

lyrics: https://genius.com/Softheart-as-i-am-lyrics

As I Am (music video in desc)

silhouette at the end of the hallway

Lyrics:
the sun has just set and im looking at lights
on top of a hill while i sip on this vice
the darkness is closing in i say im fine
just give me some space while i pour up this wine

im sending this letter hope it finds you well
im not doing great that's if you couldnt tell
i know that you're fine so this is my farewell
was good while it lasted fell under your spell

you were right to leave, cause im a low down fiend
and im drowning in the meds girl you would not believe
and now im climbing into bed i wanna have that dream
where im happy only reason that i go to sleep

you were right to leave, cause im a low down fiend
and im drowning in the meds girl you would not believe
you used to say that you believe in all i could achieve
but now its nothing more than just a memory to be grieved

im a ghost now
im a ghost now
got no host now
i do the most now

and I remember used to talk about just cruisin to the coast
but you always hated water so we never took a boat
and im drowning in my feelings like the ocean i cant float
you could catch me at the bottom cause i sink just like a stone

i dont know, where to go, cause i drift, like the snow
now im out, in the cold, got no love, got no soul
got no heart, jus a flow, pay the bills, you dont know
how im dead, now you know, that im done, so ill go

you were right to leave, cause im a low down fiend
and im drowning in the meds girl you would not believe
and now im climbing into bed i wanna have that dream
where im happy only reason that i go to sleep

you were right to leave, cause im a low down fiend
and im drowning in the meds girl you would not believe
you used to say that you believe in all i could achieve
but now its nothing more than just a memory to be grieved

im a ghost now
im a ghost now
got no host now
i do the most now

Leaving

leaving

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just happy to be here