this song has the heaviest backstory to it imaginable lmao

Lyrics:

late night drive
but i swear somethings off
i heard things
of people i never should 

i see you met the janitor
who never found his way
he's been fucking suicidal since 3 years ago today
and you might know him 
from the potions that he lives on and creates
take one look at him
oh god 
do u think he deserved his fate
and this place has got some issues he just half the time gets paid
and he solves the others problems with no 'please' or fucking 'thanks'
he'll be stuck here cleaning messes    
from july to next years may
but he don't mind his problems weighty enough for theirs to let him wade
 
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these are not english words i 
can't think so 
a da da dee di
i'm stressed the fuck outta my mind
whole life broke down overnight
don't make the same mistake as me 
you must take sides they both fucking scream
i gave my answer through gritted teeth
i hope my words can bring us to peace oh
hope i can bring us to peace oh
 
hope i can bring us to peace oh
i know all that we could be oh
hope i can bring us to peace oh
i'd show all that we could be
i hope my words can bring us to peace oh

janitor

lyrics:

VERSE 1
i aint got no animosity i hope you great
hope you do all of the shit you said you gonna do someday
every time im kneeling down and i bow i my head to pray
throw your name into the mix hoping god’ll keep you safe

despite what you think, im always gon care
you can say what you want but im gon be right there
you can talk all your shit but im going nowhere
and you know where to reach me you ever get scared

think im a russian, sip moscow mule
keep it a hunnid, stay on the move
keep myself busy im going thru it
know you is too, we accustomed to it

they say “HK why you change your voice man?”
ion got no energy, like its not a choice man
i just lay in bed and im missing appointments
do my very best to not be disappointment

HOOK
seen that you good, seen your new man
seen that you happy with shit that you have
im rooting for you and i hope that you glad
keep it a buck im just chasin the bands

i aint got no hate im not tryna replace,
all the things that we shared and things been displaced,
and i dont wanna fight or erase my mistakes,
i just pray that you thrive and you smile every day

VERSE 2
i got so many things to say
i dont sleep, hoping youre okay
leaving my bed sheets in dismay
when i get up, and i start my day

know its so rough, but we movin through
i aint never rest, cause im feeling blue,
and i know that im trash now to your whole crew
but thats shits okay cause im stuck like glue

if they could just feel this pain
coursing through my blackened veins
know they wont think that theyre sane
drown myself outside in the rain

Tattoo

tattoo

Lyrics

Something changed and I don't know when
Left my heart on the floor again
Told my heart I'll be back again

Everything's strange and I don't know why
Left my home, left my whole damn life
Now I'm frozen in time, in time
Oh, should I go, go, go, go, go
Should I leave, leave, leave, leave, leave
Should I let go, go, go, go, yeah

Time was ticking so I close my eyes
Let the fire flicker for a while
Now I'm starving for another lifeline
Made a few mistakes on a line
Now I know how to leave it behind
Now I know how to live a life

Maybe when I stop to feel the sun,
My skin will feel the wind
My eyes will see the rain
And my heart will be mine
Forever and ever again
Oh, should I go, go, go, go, go
Should I leave, leave, leave, leave, leave
Should I let go, go, go, go, yeah

Maybe when I stop to feel the pain
My heart will open again
My life will feel sane again
My highs will be low again
Should I let go, go, go, go, yeah
Yeah

Production credit: https://youtu.be/mbSnd6Aqe0I?si=nJTP0gdTWm1LC6IV
Written and recorded by me

Go, Go, Go!

i've been sitting on this for a few months
i hope you guys fuck with it
thank you for every little bit of support
make sure you check out ricky's work too
@rickyhernandezz
<3

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lyrics:
genius.com/Oftheart-it-gets-better-young-existential-crisis-lyrics

It Gets Better (young existential crisis)

lyrics: https://genius.com/Softheart-blindfold-lyrics

additional guitar by @noahwalker
extra sample used by @killedmyself

Blindfold

[+] who knew a year later we would only see each other in our dreams.
* prod by @hxrxkiller * featuring @steadysuffer *
(artwork by @seejayxo)

IG: www.instagram.com/seejayxo
TW: www.twitter.com/seejayxo
DISCORD: discord.gg/VRcvcdf
LYRICS:

[intro:]
i write these stupid fucking songs for you
i right every single wrong you do
i keep tellin myself that you’ll change
but you know that you drive me insane

[verse:]
i got knives in my back
anxiety attacks
cause you dont love back
why you play me
bitch you wack
i cant even trust you
why the fuck i even gotta love you?

how you hold up in my chest so long?
lean back as i rip from the bong
remember nights we would listen to my songs
i dont know where we even went wrong

[hook 2x:]
i had cash and i spent on you
bad bitch ride around in the coupe
no drugs i was high off you
good sex baby yeah you know it too

[verse 2: @steadysuffer]
said she wanna get thru to you
you're already in your avenue
swallow all your fears, while you cry with no tears
now he's tryna get thru to you
he don't wanna be here all night long
oh dear, soft and clear oh-oh-oh

ya she got a style
that'll pick apart your mindset
so divine but a fights her assignment
finger on the trigger i can tell she wanna light it
buried under lies im feelin fine but im lyin
hey, don't run from me
was it all real oh was it all real
ring when you find me dear

follow hxrxkiller

high off you (feat. steadysuffer)

Lyrics:
the sun has just set and im looking at lights
on top of a hill while i sip on this vice
the darkness is closing in i say im fine
just give me some space while i pour up this wine

im sending this letter hope it finds you well
im not doing great that's if you couldnt tell
i know that you're fine so this is my farewell
was good while it lasted fell under your spell

you were right to leave, cause im a low down fiend
and im drowning in the meds girl you would not believe
and now im climbing into bed i wanna have that dream
where im happy only reason that i go to sleep

you were right to leave, cause im a low down fiend
and im drowning in the meds girl you would not believe
you used to say that you believe in all i could achieve
but now its nothing more than just a memory to be grieved

im a ghost now
im a ghost now
got no host now
i do the most now

and I remember used to talk about just cruisin to the coast
but you always hated water so we never took a boat
and im drowning in my feelings like the ocean i cant float
you could catch me at the bottom cause i sink just like a stone

i dont know, where to go, cause i drift, like the snow
now im out, in the cold, got no love, got no soul
got no heart, jus a flow, pay the bills, you dont know
how im dead, now you know, that im done, so ill go

you were right to leave, cause im a low down fiend
and im drowning in the meds girl you would not believe
and now im climbing into bed i wanna have that dream
where im happy only reason that i go to sleep

you were right to leave, cause im a low down fiend
and im drowning in the meds girl you would not believe
you used to say that you believe in all i could achieve
but now its nothing more than just a memory to be grieved

im a ghost now
im a ghost now
got no host now
i do the most now

Leaving

leaving

Tidalwave (live From Home)

maniac

some guitar n stems by cisco
@waitingoncisco

Cynic Little Cycles (with waitingoncisco)

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just happy to be here