everyones an asshole 
my plug cuts his coke and my doctor pushes benzos 
my head smacked the floor when i tripped off my board
skating round the halls cause my parents aren't at home
today ive been bored
today i woke up at 4
needed stuff but got too high to drive to the store
at the checkout said "how are you?"
i said "not much"
on my way out i tripped and my thing of eggs crushed

dont be ashamed to be proud of yourself or slow down for a sec 
i say as i quietly critique parts of myself 
i guess i just keep helping so i wont need help
but regardless it helps

can you tell me we're good now?
you left me put down
bad is my good now
when i cry it's a good sound 

(hamilton)
cut it all out
take it all away
i dont wanna feel 
no not today 
numb to the pain numb to it all
hanging by a thread i might fall
i might slip 
lose my grip 
tryna find out where the time went
where it all goes
i dont know
i can only walk the path i chose 
build me up just to break my bones
crushing up drugs on my phone
tryna fix my heart but it got worse
every time i fall in love it hurts
every time i try to not think bout you it dont work
maybe im just meant to be alone with the dirt
but maybe its just meant to be 
i get so high i cant speak
walking round cant feel my feet
when i sleep i grit my teeth
when i sleep youre all i see
so every nights a bad dream 
i dont wanna wake up
just to feel nothing

when i cry it sounds good (with hamilton and sorrow bringer)

its ur mess
figure it out

produced by neverforever 

completely non profit

lyrics

I been tryna live life wrong 
I can feel it now
tell me when I write my songs
what u feelin' out?
lemme rip apart my soul
let me deal it out
I just live inside my head
I won't let me out

walk around like an apartment complex
scenes of loss n abandoned objects
mental blocks feel like shallow tar pits
I got the keys but forgot where the car is
here's a song for the truly sharded
fucked around n got broken hearted
itchy arms when asked where the scar is
who u r is not at all important

I been tryna live life wrong 
I can feel it now
tell me when I write my songs
what u feelin' out?
lemme rip apart my soul
let me deal it out
I ain't really got much else
so I'ma give it out

even when I'm down count on me I got it
lemme write this down then tomorrow drop it
name another coming up that can match
I'll top it
I get on the beat n watch the heads start boppin 
I don't wanna sing on the same old topic
while I'm on the flow lemme shoutout tropic 
running low on time so it's hard to lock in
I go to work in the morning exhausted

still the cold air of the mountain somehow always catches up to me
I could feel the past go up in flames as smoke rolls over me
I will never get that back, yet still, has such a hold on me
there's nothing, I'm just fucked n u can't save me from my -

I been tryna live life wrong 
I can feel it now
tell me when I write my songs
what u feelin' out?
lemme rip apart my soul
let me deal it out
why u listen to me whine
u should kick me out



mountain dweller (neverforever)

Cover of the song: 9TAILS - Gap Hats
The original beat was by Frander, nevrfall made an exclusive for not home. using the same sample

9TAILS - Gap Hats *cover* (nevrfall)

The SoundCloud Files

Shmokies

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[Intro]
I been—

[Chorus]
I been dead inside and I just wanna feel alive (I just wanna feel alive)
Tracing out your thighs with my finger by your side
Feelings I confide into the mind of yours are mine
I won't find another human like you in my life, yeah (In my life)

[Verse 1]
Catching photos, where'd the time go? (Where'd it go?)
Facebook memories from the last snow (Last snow)
Strive for times where I won't answer to employers (No employers)
Work and music keep me busy, I don't know her (I don't know her)
Baby, get to know me, I wish we'd get closer (Get closer)
Gain connection then start breaking down the borders (Breaking down the borders)
Way back, way, way back (Way back)
I forgot the loving and I never got it back (Never got it back)
Playlist, crybaby face tat
Knew that you were something special
When you told me that it slap (R.I.P.)
I keep tasting shit when I breathe (Tasting shit)
Pull it nice with the bong, need it to be clean
Gold ring on my nose, gold ring on my finger (Ring on my finger)
Ballin' up in the Northface, loud hit the coat and it linger (Linger)
She said she wouldn't call me a singer
But all my shit fucking slaps
Baby, call me whatever
Fuck the neutron, I gotta blast

[Chorus]
I been dead inside and I just wanna feel alive (Ooh)
Tracing out your thighs with my finger by your side (Ayy, woah)
Feelings I confide into the mind of yours are mine (Yeah, yeah, ayy)
I won’t find another human like you in my life, yeah

[Verse 2]
What would you call me (What would you call me?)
Smoking on palm tree (Palm tree)
Hair look like shiitake (Mushroom)
Bars icy like hockey

[Open Verse]

9TAILS - connect (prod. yusei)

9tails - your head ft tddy bear

maybe ill leave, take a trip out of state for a while (with harvest)

how can you be this ass and go 0/15 on osamason features 😂😂😂
prod nurse + xaviersoass

osamason - uncomfy (no xavier)

some guitar n stems by cisco
@waitingoncisco

Cynic Little Cycles (with waitingoncisco)

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Softheart