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𝚏𝚒𝚕𝚝𝚎𝚛𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚕𝚒𝚐𝚑𝚝 𝚒𝚗𝚝𝚘 𝚠𝚘𝚛𝚍𝚜 𝚘𝚟𝚎𝚛𝚕𝚘𝚘𝚔𝚎𝚍

prod by. @domesticsoul

'tiedyed' ep
10/27

thank you for being here. 
take care

(it's way too damn bright out)
i know
it's always i don't know
idk, idk, i don't..

i feel the worst
reheat the burns
shoot down the birds
show me you hurt
care bout me less
don't feel distressed
don't recollect, proclaim me as dead
i'm recondite in all of their eyes
believe me, i've tried
the fuck would i lie
line after line, tongue's getting dry
water to hydrate
my subconscious, it migrates
fluttered past in the writing
eating less carbohydrates
sleeping less got me dying
note and pens all that i see
in a cold sweat from the sights seen
sights seen..
i don't wanna do no sightseeing, no..

every day means less than the last
always puttin off, task after task
just to grasp, 'cause i've heard enough
trash from the last pass back, i'm the burden
i've felt wrong for so long
can't get a word in

rain check;
she told me we should make a reign check
bellow out my frustrations
etching out these elations
now i'm fine, 'till i break, yeah
now i've calmed, feel it in my palms now
a couple scorn clouds
cry a storm out, with no warning
it's important;
you seem to know them 'till you stay foreign
(stay foreign)

so i guess i'll put my trust in the darkness
we talk a lot, bustin' chops over toxins
i hear my thoughts pushing me to be heartless
missin' my shots, wouldn't think i'm a marksman
fuck love, i'm misunderstood
filtering light into words overlooked
i disapprove and rebuke how they're crooked
i just went weak in the knees, now i'm puking

one sunset at a time
another day a new vice
show me you care without dragging your hair
through grease trails and the lice
it must be my mind that's gotten so distant
plenty surround but they always low pitch
or don't get the picture; fragile demeanor
prone to be withered, but never stay with

laugh it off like you always do
no surface shit, up the magnitude
let the ground crack 'till you fall back
from the forecast, as the magma spews
got hot veins and a cold brain
as i fuck up my stability
you can't drown out what's already sunken
i don't want there to be room for me

here we go again
meet another end
reinvent your head like second nature
lose it to a friend, who wasn't quite your friend
people only plead when it's on paper
well how about that
dirty mousepads
unaware of how i got here
did i steer clear, or was i pulled back?

every day means less than the last
always puttin off, task after task
just to grasp, 'cause i've heard enough
trash from the last pass back, i'm the burden
i've felt wrong for so long
can't get a word in

downcast (p. domesticsoul)

caving in (hurt for something)

It was a pleasure to work with cray on this, love this song.
(prod. sadface)

**lyrics**
(me)
You can hate me
You can hate me
You can hate me all you want, I'll still give you my heart

I gave you all that I had
Been like 6 months but im grieving the past
I know where you're going, you know where i'm at
Pretend I don't see it, I can't face the facts

Now every song just been sounding the same
They're all about you or describing the pain
Sifting through letters & needless to say, I'm mentally prone to these kinds of mistakes

Looking into all my thoughts & my actions
Hella reminiscent i've been living in the past tense
Well at least I had my fun while it lasted
Screaming in the mirror, pick out everything i'm lacking 

Back then you remember we were laughing?
Every time I gotta mess it up its automatic
Tragic, I witnessed everything that happened
Hate the way I cope 'cause its been getting problematic

(yungcray)
Girl I don't like this, woke up in my room I'm the highest
I said I'm so weak but bro I'm trying
everyday's the same but you don't mind it
i don't like this though

lets take a step back can we go back to what we was
lets let the time pass, think about all the things we could
i cant help but cry when I'm stuck up in this dark maze
you were the drug, now here comes all the heartache

(me)
I gave you all that I had
Been like 6 months but im grieving the past
I know where you're going, you know where i'm at
Pretend I don't see it, I can't face the facts

Now every song just been sounding the same
They're all about you or describing the pain
Sifting through letters & needless to say, I'm mentally prone to these kinds of mistakes

all that i had w/ yungcray

delete everything and disappear (prod. bonjr)

Huge thanks to notahero for killing this. Like, Repost, and Comment if yall rocking with this one <3
Produced by The Sound Clown (a haze collective producer btw) and tiedforsilver!

**lyrics**

(You only hit my phone when you don’t feel alright, 
I’m at your beck & call, but I’m still some other guy)

I think it’s time I packed a bag and ran away 
In case you even cared, I still feel the same 
You tell me that you’re here and it’ll be okay
I’m breaking like the leaves in this winter rain 

You tell me those three words, I can’t trust that
Brand new silver Benz, feelings on the dash yeah
I might just hit 100, never going back
I’m feeling presidential when I count my stacks 

You just wanna break my bones and that’s fine, 
Were those tears even real I saw when you cried?
It was already hard to trust now it’s worse by 10 times 
You left me with no choice, I’m leaving tonight

I’ve been in this race and it’s making me exhausted
shawty filled with hate, and we losing all our progress
Ain’t got the time to waste but you’ll bury me in August, yuh, in August, yuh, in August

Saw it in her eyes, she like messing with my conscience
Wishing I could change, I don’t know if I can solve it
Moving to the day that I’ll be inside a coffin
A coffin, yuh, a coffin

I think it’s time I packed a bag and ran away 
In case you even cared, I still feel the same 
You tell me that you’re here and it’ll be okay
I’m breaking like the leaves in this winter rain 

You tell me those three words, I can’t trust that
Brand new silver Benz, feelings on the dash yeah
I might just hit 100, never going back
I’m feeling presidential when I count my stacks

(notahero)
i’m starting to feel like i’m a junkie but i’m not ready to be done yet
i fear i’m falling into the void come grab my outstretched hand
so high i’m seeing into the future, but i don’t know where imma land

we got the whole weekend, baby what’s the point in getting mad?
tommy jacket on me, cuz it’s way too cold for july
got something special in my cup i think my brain might get fried

and would u cry baby if tonight’s the night that i died?
but i could never let u go baby ur way too special
a new shirt after i smoke to be respectful
a new number i’ve never seen on top the dashboard

i might just pack my things and go, i don’t want to stop when i’m home
cuz this winter rain outside so wet and cold

and i’m too fucking drunk to see straight, baby i feel nauseous
a different type of dumb in your head to say i ain’t popping
it’s blue it’s not a green thumb cuz i’m counting hundreds
i shake it into a tornado like a fucking mosh pit

Girl I’m loving you cuz everything you do is flawless,
You could stop it but i don’t wanna stop it
(No I don’t wanna)

bury me in august w/ notahero (Prod. The Sound Clown & tiedforsilver)

it sits in the heart. the heart is where it sits. it sits in the heart. the heart is where it sits

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deadhead (prod. bustajb)

daydreams (savedmessage)

Id Rather Just Not Be A Problem

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deadhead (prod. bustajb)

Softheart