probably one of my fav album covers along w/ girl chasing butterfly

put this album on bandcamp pls I'm too poor for soundcloud, and this song heals my soul

in the end of january i was breaking down cause of something that happened that forever changed how i see things and this song helped me shake less that night thank you your music saves lives. <3

wash my eyes and scrub my dirty skin and decontaminate
hyperventilate, my words ventilate 
this texas sun will char your skin until it wears away 
push the hand away  
push the hand away 

to those going through it right now i know it hurts
dont let that distract you from the fact that you have worth 
fairytales are darker when you peek behind the curtain 
the world out here will hurt you just be careful with your words 

we were never welcome in this world its arms were closed 
 we were never welcome in this world so whats the use
trapped in flesh and bone only leave home in mask and cloak  
and anyone ive told the story has apologized for you 

break me down to my last molecule and make me new
i never had that much connection with this stranger in my room
drag this empty bag of flesh and blood into its tomb 
feed me to the maggots till my carcass is consumed 

wash my eyes and scrub my dirty skin and decontaminate
hyperventilate, my words ventilate 
this texas sun will char your skin until it wears away 
push the hand away  
push the hand away 
(repeat)

decontaminate

track 3 
n i’ve never felt as low as this
when u told me that u hate me
i died a bit 
now the sun feels so cold on my skin 
and nothing tastes the same, again, you win

 
yea and i cry every night when i go to sleep
i don’t wanna fight anymore please just bury me 
you’re the one i like
despite what u said to me 
i’m high as a kite 
off this mud
keep on tellin me 
that i should get help 
but u never been a friend 
so please don’t sit and cry
fake tears on my bed 
u the one that tried to help me til the end
why the fuck i need a therapist when i got u instead?

*inhale*
*exhale*
it’s as easy as that
*inhale*
*exhale*

just breathe it’s as easy at that 
as easy as that 
so i just breathe when this bitch get me mad
grayfox the king i be here til i’m dead 
had a slow year think my shit about to fall off
but i’m still here with this blood on my hands
shoutout to tropic, as easy as that
shoutout to loveless, as easy as that 
run thru the street when i’m off of my meds
but i’ll still be right here while these boys follow trends
3 playlists 1 week i’m scheming again 
people can hate but ain’t bled what i bled 
i’ve seen the fall when ur stood on the edge cus i’ve seen my own mum in a hospital bed
i’m way too high so go argue with them
got my whole life in the palm of my hands
make a no hook and then go right to bed
and u can sendflowrs when im laid to rest

just breathe, it’s as easy as that (mackk)

shoutout to everyone in this song ily all :) <3
prod. sorrow bringer (goat)
mix: epitome, kanashi, autumn, casperrr
master: epitome

EPITOME:

if you look into my blackened soul 
you’ll see i’ve begun to decompose 
and with nothing but a rope around my neck
i’ll hang in the gallows dead
hold back the tears you’ll shed
leave all the words unsaid
i was hanging on by a thread
it’s better off instead 
that i’m 6 feet deep beneath the surface
i’ve said this once i know i’m worthless
i fall short of being perfect 
can you show me that i’m worth it
am i worth saving?
my body’s decaying
my flesh is rotting 
i feel like a zombie
i think the ends approaching
i feel it upon me
now i know i’m not worth saving 
i’m trying but it doesn’t seem to be enough
no one gives a fuck
i don’t even know what i’ve become
(can you tell me what i’ve become i give in too easy oh the end has just begun)

KANASHI:

Ion even know what I’ve become 
shits got me so fucked up…
And pls don’t wake me 
I’m busy taking a break from life
Ion wanna be a part of this anymore 
One foot in and the other out the door 
Cuz nothing lasts forever 
So just toss me like a wrapper on the floor…

AUTUMN:

i can't tell tonight apart from all them in the past
i can speak, i can breathe, but my brain is gonna gache
if you feed off of me, hope you like consuming trash
waking up inside this bed 
is something i'd rather not have
i'm tearing at my skin
could it get much worse than this
that's the only thing i'd ask
besides when you'll text me back

CASPERRR:

don't you text me back 
please i don't wanna relapse
feel this agonizing pressure on my chest
i can't breathe,i can't eat i can't get no rest  

fucked up, over what u told me
u left and now i'm lonely 
got 5gs and smoked that whole shit, holy-moly
u really said i was ur only
that guy was just a homie 
and now im dyin slowly, lonely

epitomeoffailure x kanashi x autumndropsdead x casperrr - blackened soul (sorrow bringer)

I've been meeting myself every day
Now I'm seeing all these new shapes
I've been finding all these loose tapes
Building up a whole story to say
Build a little world and escape
We can take our time in a new game
New shape
Filled a little bit out of the outline
I don't have much stuff to say
Woke up in a new place less grey 
With a new face and a new name
Yeah but I'm so not two-faced
Tremor made me feel goosebumps
I've been playing waiting room games

And I still remember how I felt then
It's still in me
If you see something else, well, what does it mean?
I don't need any help anymore
I'm not- not incomplete
Colors are still in me
Happy and interweaved
But you say it 
I don't think that it's much different when I'm not sad
I don't miss it, it's my own bad
I don't miss it, it's my own bad
I don't miss

u sleep in an antique shop
and i keep losing my thoughts staring at the walls
you put one of your records on 
and i thought it was so cool that we get along
it is a really cool record collection
you told me it was pretty expensive 
not to brag or to sound impressive
but just like, it was really extensive

top floor window

Lyrics:

[Yokai Dreams]

something's been eating me up as of lately
i'm never enough and i feel like they hate me
can't blame anyone but myself
i don't have no one else
i don't take no ones help
i won't take yours
after it all i am still just the same me

weak
maybe i'm an asshole
i'm scared but i won't let that show
no king
sick of this castle
i'd leave but it's too much hassle

got a tortured mind and a broken heart
i barely recognize me
u wouldn't understand a thing
mind over matter but both mine are weak

[hero]

if it's really what you wanted then there's nothing to forgive (AAAA)
trapped in cells of condemnation my mind is gonna give
depression comes in cycles
2nd guessing come in sweeps
what my friends are spouting
you'd have to torture outta me

everything
i think
i say
and all i said
i meant
i'm not jus gonna skim right past it
go get fuckin bent
"you wouldn't understand it"
bitch it's happening to me
"mind over matter"
but both of mine are weak

mind over matter w/ yokai dreams (prod. vowl x brothel)

daydreams (savedmessage)

Produced by @ De Couture
Mixed & Mastered by @Suspecktt
Cover Art by @Suspecktt

**LYRICS**

She's like an angel
She's just like an angel, she's like an angel, she's like a, angel

Baby you need to stop using that white powder
I'm not talking no makeup, I'm talking the gasoline
I can't have you dying cause I don't want no other
You're an angel especially when it's my name you scream

Just like an angel you scream my name, scream scream my name
Scream scream my name, scream scream scream my name

Yeah without your love I cannot feel
Baby girl you know it's real
Come back baby our love is the real deal
Wishing you'd come back to me but I know how, how you feel
Only thing I've ever been good at is pop, pop, pop, popping all these pills

And just like the pills, her love gets me so high
Yeah it makes me feel like an angel in the sky

She's just like an angel, she's like an angel, she's like an angel
She's just like an angel, she's like an angel, she's like a, angel

Some soft talk, red pills, and a mattress
Touch you slowly, you are my princess
I'm dying slowly so just let me rest
When I try to be numb I try my best

Like An Angel

ALL PLATFORMS +VISUALS

4Luv (jaechii x curios1ty )

lil skele - i don't care (ft. nicoteen ninyo) [prod. undaground]

Waterleaf

prod. by me

big big thanks to @softhert for jumping on this track

eyes low (ft. Softheart)

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decontaminate

Softheart

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