Featuring @sendflowrs
Produced by @hellahaunted & @sainttomorrow
Mixed & mastered by @horoshamusic
Logo by Dead & Detached

i been smoking too much like every day

who would'a thought that these drugs don't really numb all the pain

my eyes stay shut but i still see your face
i'm still so miserable

still feel unfulfilled


and ive been smoking too much like every day
since fifteen think it's rotting my brain

i got my windows closed but i still hear the rain

i don't like myself anymore

think i've changed

and while you sit there drunk on the side of the pave

do you ever think about those times in the cage

with your friends in the sun oh those times they have changed

now i'm sitting on my own thinking of life on a stage


thinkin of life on a stage

these days i'm alone 

take 3 blunts to the face

spend my days blazed just thinking of life in the states

shoutout jj
i'm tryna record everyday


i think i'm going straight to hell for those two years

if you didnt know im sad you must be new here

cliche dyed hair
i'm a loser

forever screaming on my own at a computer


i'm a loser and I know it
got it tatted on my sleeve just to show how much i own it
stay glued to my computer
writing sad songs and playing first-person shooters


watch me self-destruct

catch me yelling "nerf this"
while i'm rolling up another blunt


i used to do this for fun

now i do this on account of all of my bad luck

i been smoking too much like every day

who would'a thought that these drugs don't really numb all the pain

my eyes stay shut but i still see your face
i'm still so miserable

still feel unfulfilled


i'm still so miserable

still feel unfulfilled

i don't even know what i'm fighting for



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Loser w/ sendflowrs (Prod. caves & Saint Tomorrow)

lyrics:

this is me sending a letter
jot down your name and the sender
i hope that you get this you better
the signals been fucked like forever

shout through the void if you hear this
im dodging my demons i near missed
count myself lucky im fearless
dont care anymore bout the sheer jist

of everything thats really going on
im only alright when my phone is on
the way that im thinking i know is wrong
i wish i was dead but im going strong

i hope you is too, i stare at the moon
i think bout the time by the river in june
the sound of your laugh always brighten a room
alright now you get it ill shut up real soon

hello out there, im still fine
talk in present, like youre still mine
like where are you, i cant see straight
and youre far too, and im too late

ill hold it in, cause im tough these days
i cannot sin, if theres no price to pay
im cold within, soon my mind will break
im falling in, save me from my fate

i promise im trying but i give up
it takes all my spirit just to get up
and you will not find me where ive been stuck
it will not define me it still got me fucked

hello out there, im still fine
talk in present, like youre still mine
like where are you, i cant see straight
and youre far too, and im too late

Hello Out There

hello out there

outside ghost . heart farm

willow

fuck i didnt produce this im finding the producer my bad lollll

did it again

barbed wire - single

barbed wire - softheart

it sits in the heart. the heart is where it sits. it sits in the heart. the heart is where it sits

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[Intro]
(Beam me up Scotty)

[Chorus]
Ayy, changes you made to me
Yeah, that's irreversible
No, why you afraid of me
Yeah, I think you're beautiful
Ooh, chaining the celery
Yeah, that's irreversible
No, why you afraid of me (Why)
Yeah, I'm not that powerful
Ayy, changes you made to me
Yeah, that's irreversible
No, why you afraid of me
Yeah, I think you're beautiful
Ooh, chaining the celery
Yeah, that's irreversible
No, why you afraid of me (Why)
Yeah, I’m not that powerful

[Verse 1]
Woah
Energy release
It’s purely emotional, you made it physical
Never talk sheep, never talk scheme, never talk we
Never talk ‘bout me
It’s all about you
All about who fucking who
And a lot of our time
Really your time
Talkin’ bout blue
Look at my life boo hoo
Well I been lookin’ at it
Look at your life again
'Cause I'm in there too
You just gotta get past you
Gotta look deep, gotta go through
All the DM and the voicemail
So you could see me right here in front of your vision, it’s cool
I’m easy to miss, so I’m told, yeah
I’m easy to block out of view, ayy
Easy to block, uh
Red lips with the peach taste
Black jeans with the shoelace belt (Ayy)
Rubbin’ on ‘em got ‘em red face (No)
No waste for the love he felt
Pick love for the G string well
Chose wrong now it hurt deep down
Heartbreak gonna curve his health
No waste for the love he felt, cold ass hell

[Chorus]
Ayy, changes you made to me
Yeah, that's irreversible
No, why you afraid of me
Yeah, I think you're beautiful
Ooh, chaining the celery
Yeah, that's irreversible
No, why you afraid of me (Why)
Yeah, I’m not that powerful
Ayy, changes you made to me
Yeah, that's irreversible
No, why you afraid of me
Yeah, I think you're beautiful
Ooh, chaining the celery
Yeah, that's irreversible
No, why you afraid of me (Why)
Yeah, I’m not that powerful

[Verse 2]
Hey
Time is up, ayy
Give it up
Triple coffee cup
I’m throwing up (Burp)
Truly boot cut
Polo pony stuck in mud
Ashy from the bud
Spongey spitting out my blood
Man, I'm more than just the suds
Down the blue to power up
Blowing powder off the dash
OG said it just to dust
If you smelling lines, I’ll be asking you to cut
No more snow that man is geeked
All my boys prefer that run
Remember when you joined me
Remember when you used to crack it slowly (Crack)
Remember you would out smoke me
3 grams in the blunt, no kobe (Shoot)

[Bridge]
(Woah, woah, woah, woah)
3 grams in the blunt, no kobe (No kobe)
Now you don’t even know me (Ayy)
(Now you don’t even know me, yeah)

[Chorus]
Ayy, changes you made to me
Yeah, that's irreversible
No, why you afraid of me
Yeah, I think you're beautiful
Ooh, chaining the celery
Yeah, that's irreversible
No, why you afraid of me (Why)
Yeah, I’m not that powerful
Ayy, changes you made to me
Yeah, that's irreversible
No, why you afraid of me
Yeah, I think you're beautiful
Ooh, chaining the celery
Yeah, that's irreversible
No, why you afraid of me (Why)
Yeah, I’m not that powerful

9TAILS - irreversible (prod. scottysplash)

[Chorus]
(Woah)
Take your time
I didn't plan this life
Take your time, honey
I didn't plan this life, honey

[Verse 1]
Up dosage sevenfold
Keeping the centerfold paper
Bag it and save it for later, baby
You don't got get me back later, baby
Lump in my throat (Oh)
The last time they leave on the [?] gotta go
Keep looking over my soul
Protect me, don't leave me alone
Requested to leave you alone
Buzzes inside of my phone make me look at the screen before all of the words from before hit me straight from my brain to my bones
I'm all alone

[Verse 2]
You don't gotta waste your time on me
Close to being fully empty
Just look over me
Eat my heart, take hold of me (Eat all my heart)
Tasting the pain
I feel no shame when I'm supposed to feel shame
I feel no lust when you call out my name
I can't think of your body no more, get away
I bathe in the gray, sleep in the gray
You got a colorful soul, I see graves
Look at my face, picking my brain
Suck out my thoughts from my vessels and veins
Dark parking lots where we sit in the rain
Not much to say when you've said all there is to say
Already said everything
Dump out emotions and they wash away in the drain
Mix with the sewage
Therapy, sympathy felt in the music
Scarily carefully flow, but it's fluid
Married and salary over six digits
I knew you could do it

[Chorus]
Take your time (Take your time)
I didn't plan this life
Ayy, take your time, honey
I didn't plan this life, honey

[Outro]
Oh, woah
Oh, woah
Oh, woah
Oh, woah

9TAILS - take ur time (prod. jurrivh)

9TAILS - genesis (prod. scottysplash)

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just happy to be here

did it again

Softheart