@cay2o snapped, follow this man

lyrics:

do you remember when I would tell you everything that I felt?
I put my feelings all over your shelf
I felt alive and I came out my shell
but now, I dont know what got into me
pressure from pressure I was stuck and you were pissed at me
but right now thats history

starin at the ceilin
babe where are you?
I want you in my arms
but ig ill call you

like yeah, I been fucked up for almost a year
this life aint shit but I’m here for you
stumblin off track cause I fear the truth
that I’m only here to prove myself

I dont wanna be that
I know that i'm lyin when i tell myself that I need that
you care for me a lot it's not really hard to see that
baby you the best and im sorry that I just cant be like you
im gettin why you tell me what to do
cus we never really talk things thru
we both know thats not like you

like damn
why the fuck you look at me damn
I be doing what I want cause I can
I do what I want cause I'm me
I don't care if you hate you can leave

the ceiling

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the ceiling (prod. cay2o)

Lyrics:
so what am i left to do, when bridges fall apart
we did not need burn 'em, they were doomed right from the start
and it left a void of blackness deep within my heart
i hope that i see you again when i walk into the dark

and now i got questions, like "when can i end this?"
like "is it a sin to keep wanting to die and not mend it?"
like why im not stable, please if youre able
just give me a bottle sedate me, pay under the table

i just lay in bed all summer like im mortified
stare at the ceiling, if i close em i just see your eyes
these sleepless nights and waking terrors got me mesmerized
im making friends with all my demons for a better time

like im mortified
im so mortified

i see the shore, and the moon, they wont be the same
memories stay and rot deep within my brain
summer scents, a cup of rosé, and a side of pain
blackened ink, plus a needle, and your name

the tick of my watch is all that i hear while i waste away
its like purgatory, repetitive story at the end of day 
i cannot smoke and i cannot sleep all the pain away
i wanna lay flat, stay warm in my casket while i start to fade

i just lay in bed all summer like im mortified
stare at the ceiling, if i close em i just see your eyes
these sleepless nights and waking terrors got me mesmerized
im making friends with all my demons for a better time

but im so mortified
all thats in my mind
whats on the other side
of the fading light

Mortified

Sourface

guitar and drums done by noah walker @mr_innervue

Stranger.demo (2021 version)

i reach, for air
i'd scream, but the sound's not there
i wait for a wake
right around when i jump from the brink

draining all the joy out
seem always annoyed now
constantly devoid, how the moment pales my skin
had it sorted out,
now my soul's just sore, ouch
they say i'm a solider,
i just never peek my head out of these trenches

nothing's really here for me
it hurts to laugh
it hurts to speak
there's nowhere else i'd rather be,
than put at rest with nobody
if time should wind a single hand,
then who am i to reprimand
the data flow that leads my stand
of former thoughts and severance

met with bloody stares
spirit broke the mirror
tumbled-down eyes glare
"it always could be better"

the toad in my throat drowning notes 'till they're gone
if they crash, should they float to return to this pond?

if i'm stood a stance of lax
consider that form of attack
procrastination ticks away until delay becomes a gift
given all i am is shit
sat distraught over some bricks
counting melodies won't counter how i feel when nothing sticks

i reach, for air
i'd scream but the sound's not there
i wait for a wake
right around when i jump from the brink

draining all the joy out
seem always annoyed now
constantly devoid, how the moment pales my skin
had it sorted out,
now my soul's just sore, ouch
they say i'm a solider,
i just never peek my head out of these trenches

trenches

on the ceiling im dancing with your silhouette

GAME SËVEN7- {prod.Mecuzynot]

Nerves (prod. UNIQVILE)

Heartbeat

Running In Circles

Disappearing Act

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just happy to be here

Disappearing Act

Softheart