ly caspy <33

lyrics:

waking up the same as u left me
pillies to the brain, i got plenty
tell me run away in the bentley
take away the pain that u fed me

im in the function
n i cannot function 
lung combusting
repercussion
u on sum fuck shit
playing me, percussion
~death wish~
blood gon drip my neck like issa necklace
name on top my wrist, look like a setlist
wake up, bake the bowl, this shit not even breakfast
eating breakfast
i be on my dread shit
blood gon drip my neck like issa necklace
name on top my wrist, look like my setlist

{casperrr}
i tried to run
but i an't fast
tried to fight 
but i knew i wouldn't last
these feelings
kicked my ass
but there's no way
i am ever going back 
wake up
drag myself outta bed again
face up
tryna face my oldest fucking friend
sadness
i think this is the end
timeless
im afraid i have no time left 

putting all my songs on her playlist
goth bitch
stare me in me eyes and
she looks flawless
falling 
deep into a faucet
i ain't notice
wore my heart on my sleeve
until you came and u broke it

{shizukesa + casperrr}
waking up the same as u left me
pillies to the brain, i got plenty
tell me run away in the bentley
take away the pain that u fed me

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death_wish w/ casperrr (yung rospo)

shoutout to everyone in this song ily all :) <3
prod. sorrow bringer (goat)
mix: epitome, kanashi, autumn, casperrr
master: epitome

EPITOME:

if you look into my blackened soul 
you’ll see i’ve begun to decompose 
and with nothing but a rope around my neck
i’ll hang in the gallows dead
hold back the tears you’ll shed
leave all the words unsaid
i was hanging on by a thread
it’s better off instead 
that i’m 6 feet deep beneath the surface
i’ve said this once i know i’m worthless
i fall short of being perfect 
can you show me that i’m worth it
am i worth saving?
my body’s decaying
my flesh is rotting 
i feel like a zombie
i think the ends approaching
i feel it upon me
now i know i’m not worth saving 
i’m trying but it doesn’t seem to be enough
no one gives a fuck
i don’t even know what i’ve become
(can you tell me what i’ve become i give in too easy oh the end has just begun)

KANASHI:

Ion even know what I’ve become 
shits got me so fucked up…
And pls don’t wake me 
I’m busy taking a break from life
Ion wanna be a part of this anymore 
One foot in and the other out the door 
Cuz nothing lasts forever 
So just toss me like a wrapper on the floor…

AUTUMN:

i can't tell tonight apart from all them in the past
i can speak, i can breathe, but my brain is gonna gache
if you feed off of me, hope you like consuming trash
waking up inside this bed 
is something i'd rather not have
i'm tearing at my skin
could it get much worse than this
that's the only thing i'd ask
besides when you'll text me back

CASPERRR:

don't you text me back 
please i don't wanna relapse
feel this agonizing pressure on my chest
i can't breathe,i can't eat i can't get no rest  

fucked up, over what u told me
u left and now i'm lonely 
got 5gs and smoked that whole shit, holy-moly
u really said i was ur only
that guy was just a homie 
and now im dyin slowly, lonely

epitomeoffailure x kanashi x autumndropsdead x casperrr - blackened soul (sorrow bringer)

~2300~

Produced by myself and Ezra Martin 

Lyrics:
[HOOK]
It don't get much worse than this uh huh 
One more turn I missed uh huh
Frostbite on my lips uh huh
It’s not like I’ll forget uh huh
Scars still on my wrist uh huh
Show you where I’ve been uh huh
The hearts I’ve broken since uh huh
Some things I can’t fix uh huh
It’s alright just let go
A fading lie just an echo
The state of mind that I fled to
When all the love for me left you
I fell apart in that bedroom
And I’m seeing all that we’ve been through 
There’s so much you need that I can’t do 
But now thankfully I don’t have to

[VERSE 1]
Shield myself from
The outside I don’t feel welcome
At this time I hate what I’ve become 
But you rely on me for a reason
And I’ve grown so numb as of recent 
But I feel my lungs when I’m breathing 
Know I fill my cup full of demons
So I don’t feel lost when I’m leaving 
I’m a collection of faces
I hide in familiar places
I’ve seen the karma get wasted
I don’t acknowledge that I’m vacant 
For every promise that I’m breaking
I blame it all on my impatience
I’m selling out for a paycheck
‘Cause I told myself I’d never make it

[HOOK REPEAT]

*character limit lol*

Echo

mindless little conversations
i can see you hiding what youre thinking about 
im sick of you staring at me
like youre tryna figure something out 
i fucking hate grocery shopping
sometimes i cant tell if they wanna kill or fuck me
i left my keys at your apartment
and i think i forgot to pay for the parking
i feel so much its impossible
cant describe without sounding obnoxious 

but the world looks different from outside of the love
outside its rough
all scars and flaws
my heart shaped glasses they distract enough 
i saw the glow the light shines in dark 

they said someones gonna rip ur heart out if ur not careful
either if its someone else or it just gets dull
never cared that much about all of that pessimism
rather get the flood now then see how long the dam holds
lets go make ourselves whole
see how long we can hold
lets make something special 
keep it just for us two
i hate people so much
but i fuckin love u
because i just do

porcelain mask

i dont wanna hesitate
wanna go with what i feel
and i look at both my hands
just to make sure im still here
and i check my pulse heartbeat
just to make sure i can hear it 
and i find the closest mirror
just to make sure im still real 
so i force myself outside
and i crawl out from my cave 
and i hear whoosh of tires
and i feel wind on my face
and i zone out for a sec
cause i was thinkin of you
i was in this nice daydream
it was only just us two
and everything was so good 
and we lived a simple life
in a little house in the woods
with the birds and butterflies

cautious and delicate 
only if its right
only if its right
let me know if

if you wanna hang sometime
on the roof of your old house
we can sit and watch the sky
n find pictures in the clouds 
when im bored i think about
how wed sit and talk for hours
but it doesnt feel that long
wasnt even keeping count 
and we held our bodies close
and you said that i was warm
and i think about it sometimes
and how i want it more
and everything is so good
and everything feels just right
like ill wake up from this dream
and its only just one night

cautious and delicate

forever and after

cover art is by aztrosis !!!!!!!!

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