Scatterbrain

[+] I don't want you anymore bc you ruined it
*produced by @ *

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LYRICS:

[hook/verse: @seejayxo]
I walk in, I'm blacked out
Spent a K on a bag now
Look we just tryna trap out
Baby don't get too attached now (2x)

I'm just with my gang and we coolin'
Baby I know that you want it, you aint foolin this
Pop out with the newest bitch
I don't want you anymore bc you ruined it
I be off all kinds of drugs but I got used to it
Pull up on your block, make your heart drop
I got 30 in the Glock, I don't wanna lay you out
But I feel it off the xanny bar, I'm itching hard
Had to pull up in a foreign car, Im swerving off

[verse 2: @lilskeleskrrt]
blacked out, sedatives make me pass out
drop a couple k on a bag now 
u don’t feel the same, i could die now 
you won’t shed a tear, eat your heart out
black out n i’m hitting the function 
i’m not the one for discussion 
blood on my jeans, hit em once with the beam 
n seejay jus pouring the tussin
i know better than to get attached now 
this could never last now

blacked out

blacked out (feat. skele) *music vid in desc*

w/ @sleepywater <3
prod @afterlife66 🖤

~~lyrics~~

easy to target
swear i’ve been honest
i’m still tryna rejuvenate
from the memories last august
ink drip from the ceiling
familiar feelings
to take time is to realize
what it really means to be healing

knees go numb when i reach for the shelf
there’s an old song that speaks of myself
but i’ve lost it; my subconscious 
won’t take away this blockage
it’s irritating; the way i hate it
all you are is full of nonsense

how you gonna say ur not into me
everytime you’re my enemy
i feel out of body
everytime im getting the…
drugs from my doctor
off a sedative, i forgot her
i feel like i deserve my happy ever after
i don't like it here, i like raptures
enrapture me for a disaster
i got wounds on me so where’s my plaster
in a room with me, i feel like casper
she don't touch me; i shatter
she dont trust me, i’m in tatters
i’m forever climbing up this
unforgiving ladder

i’m unfair & i know it
frustration; i bestow it
i’m shaking baby, yeah i’m aching,
maybe this is punishment for the broken
the sight that i see through my eye 
isn’t blind
a sigh of relief comforted by a lie
i can’t really take it, 
the pace that i’m making is 
turning me into the me i despise

fuck, i'll turn my back on ur ass & won't
 give it a thought or the time of the day
it doesn't matter, the wounds & the plaster are begging me
“autumn, you just gotta change”
if i go any faster, my body will splatter
 yet i'll be alive, put me outta the pain 
i pick up the fragments of me that just happen
to still be in tact, even after the rain

everything i spew out
i tell the same story
bout how you don't want me
never ever want me
how comes ur all up on me
i pull u, you don’t pull me
im stressed out, can't relax
another pill, i might relapse

i just don’t get it how this life
taught revenge and left me behind
no time to cry…
cause in the end you’ll be fine

how you gonna say ur not into me
everytime you’re my enemy
i feel out of body
everytime im getting the…
drugs from my doctor
off a sedative, i forgot her
i feel like i deserve my happy ever after
i don't like it here, i like raptures
enrapture me for a disaster
i got wounds on me so where’s my plaster
in a room with me, i feel like casper
she don't touch me; i shatter
she dont trust me, i’m in tatters
i’m forever climbing up this
unforgiving ladder

wounds & plaster w/ sleepwater [prod. afterlife]

I'll Take that as a No. Lyrics

I've been stuck in my bed;
You've been stuck in my head.
I would rather be dead than to be left on read
~
Yes your lies have hypnotized me now I'm all alone
No one calls my phone
My heart turned to stone
Nothing left, was victimized. Girl you're all I've known
Left me broken boned;
Had to pack a cone
So I just hit her up late in the night and I ask her if she feels the same;
I'll take that as a no
Burn all the letters you wrote
Tears falling down as I stare at the smoke
Used to talk every night, now you a ghost
I'm stuck by myself, mental health going toast
Head staying afloat with every new note
I'm high off the music, without it I'd choke
~
Can't you hear me?
The air is thin in here I'm barely breathing
Smoke fill up my lungs, I start dreaming
I'm so numb inside got no feeling.

Produced by Reske & Weepings
Mixed by Weepings
Mastered by Weepings
Cover art by Jack Cox & Weepings

I'll Take that as a No.

produced by taurs

and it’s cold here
so grab your coat 
don’t say i love you
i know you don’t 
and it’s awkward
cus you’re too nice
and im obsessed 
with those blue eyes 

and i’m besotted 
with your new guy 
it made my heart crack
just like new ice 
how could you do this
i was a fool, i 
just never knew that
you were the cruel type.. 

and my head spins
when we are together 
you never show me love, 
despite that, you’re so special to me 
got ugly eyes, im not the guy you fell for
but i could try my best 
if you give me a chance and don’t leave 

callin, callin callin again
why the fuck are you still stalling?
those texts you left unread 
i can’t avoid the hole, i fall in
fall in to the abyss 
my chest caves in when you call me 
the one that you regret 
i’m so tired of ur shit

and it’s cold here
so bring your coat 
don’t say i love you
i know you don’t 
and it’s awkward
cus you’re too nice
and im obsessed 
with those blue eyes 

and i’m besotted 
with your new guy 
it made my heart crack
just like new ice 
how could you do this
i was a fool, i 
just never knew that
you were the cruel type.. 

you were the cruel type
i know you hate me you didn’t have to say it two times ): 
i can’t stay here anymore
my veins are blue, i
guess i’ll just lay here in the snow and watch the moon rise

ugly eyes (taurs)

lyrics ⬇️ 

every thing you told me was a lie
you can’t even look me in my eyes no more
once everything I wanted but now I been floor
i been dying from the torch 
i been flying thru the door

miss what we had
everything was perfect 
every night we would laugh
I don’t wanna burn it
cuz I’m honestly attached
god gave me a purpose
and you stabbed me in the back
why’d you do that

brand new mission oh I can't wait to get loaded in
ten more minutes til I'm out there counting dividends
yea
watch me mix it in tell me that there's more to this
before I forfeit, I don't need no more of this
I went to Florida with my family then I told them that
I don't feel much more like family when you give me crap
let me sit up by myself when I'm feeling sad
promise that ill come back i don't mean to make you mad

but never once did you ask me if I’m fine
i been smokin blunts so that I could ease My mind
every night it’s the same
I cant ever go to sleep
all the time try to change
but I never wanna leave

(casperrr)
going dummy at the function  
just so i can fuck shit
nah i can't fuckin function 
with the way u changed so quick
really thought you loved me
but i guess i was mistaken 
they way u kept pushing me back
hiding mthe fact u were taken

used to look up at people
and now most are at my level
all i have left is a house 
that's filled with air and our shadows
you left a hole inside my heart
turned from special to mental
like chaging howl for hollow 
i know it was not accidental

at this point i don't know what family is?
people stop caring about u when u stop being a kid 
i've been alone ever since i was 14 
left to deal with a bunch a shit, i don't know what i did
idk how i made it out
idk what it is
maybe i had more to do
maybe i was born for this
i just hope so cuz otherwise imma quit
life in general cause without music life is boring as shit

forfeit w/ casperrr (tiedforsilver)

I Didn't See It Coming (with sorrow bringer)

In Darkness (with harvest)

sometimes i wonder why i cant get inspired but its all about the things that you surround yourself with, watch that movie that you know you'll like a lot but haven't gotten around to watching for no reason in particular, re-read a book from elementary school, or just take a second to chill out and think about things without all the pressure and rushing around. yu feel. theres nothing wrong with enjoying yourself, its what you were made for.

mayday (with homesick)

prod. by me

big big thanks to @softhert for jumping on this track

eyes low (ft. Softheart)

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just happy to be here