the moon hates clouds and they fight sometimes

wash my eyes and scrub my dirty skin and decontaminate
hyperventilate, my words ventilate 
this texas sun will char your skin until it wears away 
push the hand away  
push the hand away 

to those going through it right now i know it hurts
dont let that distract you from the fact that you have worth 
fairytales are darker when you peek behind the curtain 
the world out here will hurt you just be careful with your words 

we were never welcome in this world its arms were closed 
 we were never welcome in this world so whats the use
trapped in flesh and bone only leave home in mask and cloak  
and anyone ive told the story has apologized for you 

break me down to my last molecule and make me new
i never had that much connection with this stranger in my room
drag this empty bag of flesh and blood into its tomb 
feed me to the maggots till my carcass is consumed 

wash my eyes and scrub my dirty skin and decontaminate
hyperventilate, my words ventilate 
this texas sun will char your skin until it wears away 
push the hand away  
push the hand away 
(repeat)

decontaminate

produced by hero

completely non profit

lyrics

when her life is done n the credits roll on this movie screen
I was only ever credited as victim number 3
when the lights turn on n they all rush to take their leave
but I'm still here laying dead in this cinema seat
in truth I've been dead since 17
none of my feelings r free
they're kept under lock n key
no one needs to know about the pain I hold
heaven knows I've tried but I can't let this go

the lump I feel inside my chest when I'm all alone
tell me why u still the only thing that feels like fucking home
my eyes grow heavy as my heartbeat slows
I was promised death but still my soul refuse to go
oh no
just count it
take my brain n slut it out
take my drink n pour it out
take my dart n snuff it out
make me someone u won't doubt
that shit don't work I'm fucking out
what are plans they just fall out
n what r friends? just tell me now

what is love I think I've figured out
it's just a tool that she gon use for clout
she's an angel with a filthy mouth
and I'm a sinner with a Gucci pouch 
inside my pocket gotta quarter ounce
I got a smoke screen blowing out my house
so fuck me up and leave me to the hounds
I'm just a sinner with a Gucci pouch

I coughed up both lungs up on out of my chest
I've been here before so I'm not scared of my death
fell for the devil's whore n I can taste his breath
so what u try me for, when I've got nothing left?
but I have read these books
and I have read these texts
I've seen it all before
I know what happens next
I watch her lock that door
her lips run down his neck
u could've waited more
I guess that I digress 

n what is love I think I figured out
it's just a tool that she gon use for clout
she's an angel with a filthy mouth
n I'm a sinner with a Gucci pouch
inside my pocket got a quarter ounce 
I got a smoke screen blowing out my house
so fuck me up and leave me to the hounds
I'm just a sinner with a Gucci pouch


digress, i guess (hero)

prod. boyfifty x hero

i thought it was funny how many songs were about pointing out stars from the earth, so i thought the alternate pov would be cool to write about :)

Lyrics:

my friend jus pour out ur heart
u’ll see nothing for it
i don't feel like getting personal
when its unimportant
just dig ur heart right out the fire
i hope u find the courage
who'm i hanging with
when all of my guys r happy corpses
it took a while 
but i accustomed well to the voices
they speak of times i hate to hear 
while they divert my choices
they give me company 
while humans plot to destroy us
they fill my heart 
while this woman feasts on vital organs

it gets lonely citywatching from the satellites
i wish that u were here to join me cause it's really nice
our planet's pretty 
clothed in foliage and powerlines
i'd rather not touch back to ground n experience life
come to my place
please i'll clear the driveway
she said 
"fuck the high way, bitch i'll do it my way"
she's a mind eater 
don't confuse her with a soul reader
but ur so beautiful i'd love to lose my mind tonight 

my friend jus pour out ur heart
u’ll see nothing for it
i don't feel like getting personal
when its unimportant
just dig ur heart right out the fire
i hope u find the courage
who'm i hanging with
when all of my guys r happy corpses

come to my place
please i'll clear the driveway
she said 
"fuck the high way, bitch i'll do it my way"
she's a mind eater 
don't confuse her with a soul reader
but ur so beautiful i'd love to lose my mind tonight

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come to my place
please i'll clear the driveway
she said 
"fuck the high way, bitch i'll do it my way"
she's a mind eater 
don't confuse her with a soul reader
but ur so beautiful i'd love to lose my mind tonight

lose my mind 2nite (x8)

citygazing

pillow pit

Outside like the plants and trees
I'm outside with the steel in links
I'm outside walking by myself
Like there's nobody out for me
Looking in the endless foggy water finding things
Tossed the piece and parts into the cauldron and the steam
It doesn't eat in objects more-so small internal things
Most delicious parts of it are parts you cannot see

I stay up
It's such a late hour when i stay up
Until I hear the birds chirping and I get all depressed
Then I guilt myself about it
Then rush myself to bed
Think I missed you once again
And I heard the callin I just hope that I can find it
In the faint and silent signals of the universe
And i dont wanna act so ignorant and come off callous
So I ask for nothing in return

Outside like the plants and trees
I'm outside with the steel in links
I'm outside walking by myself
Like there's nobody out for me
Looking in the endless foggy water finding things
Tossed the piece and parts into the cauldron and the steam
It doesn't eat in objects more-so small internal things
Most delicious parts of it are parts you cannot see

Yeah, i tripped on myself oh jeez
I hope i know you when im 70
I just get scared when everythings ok
I don't mean to attention seek

it went over me and stuck to my heart like a curse

maybe ill leave, take a trip out of state for a while

"Vas Apertum" est vas animae in quo lux et umbra miscentur. Per harmonias occultas, secreta doloris et spei revelantur. Hic vox peregrini auditur, veritatem inter astra quaerens. Qui audit testis fit aeterni mysterii

Rise again

Violet Skies

It Was Nice Seeing You

lyrics: https://genius.com/Softheart-shhh-rockband-lyrics

prod and mix by me

Shhh! (rockband)

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just happy to be here