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pillow pit

Lyrics:

[Yokai Dreams]

something's been eating me up as of lately
i'm never enough and i feel like they hate me
can't blame anyone but myself
i don't have no one else
i don't take no ones help
i won't take yours
after it all i am still just the same me

weak
maybe i'm an asshole
i'm scared but i won't let that show
no king
sick of this castle
i'd leave but it's too much hassle

got a tortured mind and a broken heart
i barely recognize me
u wouldn't understand a thing
mind over matter but both mine are weak

[hero]

if it's really what you wanted then there's nothing to forgive (AAAA)
trapped in cells of condemnation my mind is gonna give
depression comes in cycles
2nd guessing come in sweeps
what my friends are spouting
you'd have to torture outta me

everything
i think
i say
and all i said
i meant
i'm not jus gonna skim right past it
go get fuckin bent
"you wouldn't understand it"
bitch it's happening to me
"mind over matter"
but both of mine are weak

mind over matter w/ yokai dreams (prod. vowl x brothel)

let me set the scene
its 2am this thick black veil is over everything 
theres nothing here except the wind and faint sounds of the creek
this light glows when i spark it 
i spend life fighting this darkness
i might come back a little scratched but life is never easy 
i found this me then watched myself split into seperate things
scattered all around the fields to go collect again
im almost all together now except some little cracks 
aint shit change im still out back 
ashing joints on back door steps
got some love but will it last 
i can only really guess 
my landlord is garbage 
fuck this house u can ash on the carpet
my brain skips and short circuts 
this life is one big circus  

by the highway we watch shadows pass
and the light bends round your silloette
imma smoke till i cant breath any air
sometimes i dont wanna be anywhere
but i wont leave just please do not turn off the show
this is my favorite episode
lets just close these curtains slow 
   
i just get so scared that youll go 
i cant help its how i cope 
i got habits i cant fix    
i just cant help but self destroy 
i had friends i could have helped  
so i let new ones in my life 
take advantage of me now
and it all looks so clear now
seeing it from this vantage point 

ill be out soon 
im in deep but im making big strides 
i took more than 2
like whats gonna happen this time 
by the highway we watch shadows pass
and the light bends round your silloette
imma smoke till i cant breath any air
sometimes i dont wanna be anywhere
but i wont leave just please do not turn off the show
this is my favorite episode
lets just close all these curtains slow 
stuck in a never ending game
im lost in the bits and code 
someones in my computer screen
and she calls to me i know

rip myself into a million different little pieces (prod. danbarry)

[Intro]
Nothing new I do is really new to me (Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)
See shit fucking coming so preemptively (Pussy, now I ride)
Marijuana got me thinking heavily (You fucked just for, ayy)
I'm the only one a step ahead of me

[Verse]
Pussy, now I ride (Ride, ride)
We get fucked up just for fun (Just for fun)
I forget the feeling of the sun (Of the sun)
Excess dopamine is on my veins, feeling pain
If I think it in reality, I'm numb (I'm numb)
I know you got bare mans, but I'm the one (I'm the one)
You know I hate the childish shit, it's never fun (Shit is not)
I'm the boy, I'm the kid, I'm the one (I'm the one)
Try to take the throne and you get shunned (You get shunned)
Double-stuffed blunt, get me buzzed
Keep feeling the feeling of my limbs all being fuzz (Fuzz)
Holding something potent, I can't take it on the bus (Bus)
You think we McDonald's, how we carrying the nugs
Brain splat, face black, tell me where my place at
Someone else was driving, though he doesn't know the way back
Drop top, Maybach
Girly throw her waist back
Whole zip, face that, I'm not one to waste that

[Chorus]
Nothing new I do is really new to me (New to me)
See shit fucking coming so preemptively
Marijuana got me thinking heavily (Heavily)
I'm the only one a step ahead of me (Skrrt)

[Open Verse]

[Outro]
Nothing new I do is really new to me
See shit fucking coming so preemptively
Marijuana got me thinking heavily
I'm the only one a step ahead of me

9TAILS - one (prod. pilgrim)

Got to see what this prevails
Sure I'm gonna talk about it even if I fail
Pour my fucking heart in this shit
I don't follow trails
Never gonna walk without this crutch until I'm pale
Deep inside the forest, take a tour
I'll see you there
Empty bottle snoring, rain be pouring
You'll forget that
Only course of action is to step beyond the tree lines
These pines hold
The might to unmold

You're just a fraction of perception
Everything you know deception
Ego craving that intention
Overthinking that inflection
Loving every each obsession
But it's all in your mind
Nothing really fucking matters
I'm not lagging behind
Spending every waking second
Ask me how could I pass judgement on another
If I stare up in the mirror
Scared. Don't suffer
Crazy but it's all in your head
Project your fucking consciousness to where you will head

Stay afloat
Thoughts flow down stream quick
Choosing what you focus on
Let decay the other songs
Too much get you sea sick
Throwing up Hennessy; quick
Tomorrow got work at three; quit
Learning nothing with my time
I'm tired of trying to fit in line
Scared of not succeeding
Must learn to walk all on my own
Fear sets I faulter
Mask my tone
We all living on this planet till we're cold like stone
Better learn to love yourself
Conscious melts off the cone
Everything is fake, there's no meaning to it
You're your own god, best believe it
Cause we look back to the past

Try to grasp, running fast
You are leaving from the place you once knew
Now the sky isn't blue
And you cry every night wishing that you had knew
Things forever changing
Always temporary
Look past all the pain
It's only memory

The Forest (bonus track)

9TAILS - disgraced (prod. beatz era)

For those who know the pains of anxiety, and bulimia. Welcome to my haven. You are not alone. I am like you. This song is for you

Disembodied

Or At Least Thats What I Tell Myself

just one of the infinite advantages of studying the art of the blade

Ain't It Funny How It Goes

main guitar loop by Sorrow Bringer! @sorrow_bringer

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