but nothings for nothing. 

@waitingoncisco did some extra guit stems

lyrics: https://genius.com/Softheart-nothings-really-everlasting-lyrics

Nothings really everlasting

Gates and fences

im in my bag of excuses for bad decisions i made  
bad actions stemming from trauma that doesnt justificate  
i look around and see all of this destruction and decay 
but i think the only difference is i didnt see what was right in my face 
at some point you have to face it
used to think fixing my problems was caving
i used to think that my problems were what made me special and that shit is dangerous
and i used to think that if i got better my art would suffer as a trade and
it got to the point where i thought that my mental well being aint even worth saving 
but honestly i was mistaken 
what the fuck was i on 
how could i be so wrong 
i was down for so long
i dug myself too far 
what the fuck was i on 
how could i be so wrong 
i made myself the problem 

i was a victim of temptation and my own temperament
i get too passionate i come off batshit and 
im just a magnet for tragic infatuation 
almost had it but i couldnt capture it 
dont wanna trap it  
dont know whats happenin
but when youre laughing
its great distraction 
i think we might just be moving to fast and 
keep your hands in at all times and belts fastened 
i dont know 
what the fuck i was on 
how could i be so wrong 
i was down for so long
i dug myself too far 
what the fuck was i on 
how could i be so wrong 
i made myself the problem 
and honestly i dont know
what the fuck i was on
how could i be so wrong 
i was down for so long
i dug myself too far 
what the fuck was i on 
how could i be so wrong 
i made myself the problem

my big bag of excuses for this hole I dug myself into

Featuring @Sewerperson

ALL Platforms: 
https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/xelfiy/trend-chaser-feat-sewerperson-2

Lyrics:

Xelfiy:
quit doubting your self ur just making it worse ya
quit doubting your self baby i know that it hurts
ur just making it harder your thinking even more
just listen to ur gut baby its a war up here in my head
but lately i been trying so hard to get out of my bed 

fucked up! cuz i had ran out of my meds (my meds)
but its okay i just got them again (got them again)
i swear this is the reason i have no friends (no friends)
its prolly cuz im out getting the bag 
and they out chasing a trend (trend chaser)
we are not the same why you telling him were friends (fake friended)
im not the one to blame your the one playing pretend (play pretender) 
she left me for lame just cuz he had a benz (had a benz)
but thats okay we all know who gonna make it in the end 

fuck this and fuck that im so over it
she pulled the k over her shoulder an folded him
falling to the ground his tears hes holding in (holding in)
his heart hes still holding it (holding it)
praying he'll be forgiven for his sins (his sins)
hes worried now that he'll die here in the end (in the end)
all his favorite moment ina time lapse (time lapse)
now how lucky do you feel to have time left
your hearts not really broken its still deep in your chest (yaya)
its okay if ur depressed (yaya) we could all use some rest (yaya)

Sewerperson:
I could use that rest
I could use that rest
This the 5th time that i didn’t go
And I tried to call u and let u know
Now ive been tryna call all night
Hit me back as soon u see this lemme know u alright
Shit stained walls under the washroom lights
Puke green water on these dive bar nights
At least I know that it couldn’t hurt me twice

And I remember waiting in the snow too much
Feel like all December u had just gave up
But maybe u did care and really I like that thought
So that’s the one I've picked that ill remember until im gone

I cannot let go 
I cannot let go
Its a habit of mine
That i had formed on my own
the worst of the nights that I had lived back home
Couldn’t compare to the words u spoke
Last year
I thought I was being nice I swear
I guess not

But when the sun goes down
My heart repairs
But when the bottle runs out
It all comes back again
I guess all that we could be is just friends
I guess all that we could be is just friends

Trend Chaser (feat. Sewerperson) (Prod. Ross Gossage)

everyones an asshole 
my plug cuts his coke and my doctor pushes benzos 
my head smacked the floor when i tripped off my board
skating round the halls cause my parents aren't at home
today ive been bored
today i woke up at 4
needed stuff but got too high to drive to the store
at the checkout said "how are you?"
i said "not much"
on my way out i tripped and my thing of eggs crushed

dont be ashamed to be proud of yourself or slow down for a sec 
i say as i quietly critique parts of myself 
i guess i just keep helping so i wont need help
but regardless it helps

can you tell me we're good now?
you left me put down
bad is my good now
when i cry it's a good sound 

(hamilton)
cut it all out
take it all away
i dont wanna feel 
no not today 
numb to the pain numb to it all
hanging by a thread i might fall
i might slip 
lose my grip 
tryna find out where the time went
where it all goes
i dont know
i can only walk the path i chose 
build me up just to break my bones
crushing up drugs on my phone
tryna fix my heart but it got worse
every time i fall in love it hurts
every time i try to not think bout you it dont work
maybe im just meant to be alone with the dirt
but maybe its just meant to be 
i get so high i cant speak
walking round cant feel my feet
when i sleep i grit my teeth
when i sleep youre all i see
so every nights a bad dream 
i dont wanna wake up
just to feel nothing

when i cry it sounds good (with hamilton and sorrow bringer)

i needa go to work my girl if u hear me now 
i’ll be back at 6
make u food if u want it 
woke up in a good mood 
but shortly after lost it 
this table and this screen 
keep me in like a coffin 
at my 9-5 way too high to be conscious 
broke another streak
i feel bad for my sponsors
need to put this bottle down
head spinnin like a comet
2 litre sprite
pinewood then cherry drop it 

like run your diagnostics 
on my friends 
anythin u want girl
i’ll buy it 
can’t afford a prada bag
so i rolled this 10 
will u hold me down when i get indicted
pass the gas to my homie only smoke fire
hold the knife in my hand and i get excited 
pass the gas to my baby yea she light it
she put flowers on the grave that i’m inside inside in

and it’s like lately
idk, i can’t explain 
i been - 
ugh

i mean, like lately,
i been low once again 
i feel like things are starting to fall into place
then they slip and i drop them 
they smash like a vase
always just a fuck up 
yea i cannot explain
why do i always think people want me this way
then they cut and they stitch n they try change my shape
i pop pills n im lazy 
the fuck can i say
either take me 
or leave me 
stop playing this game 
i’m a person i deserve to be loved and- 

tf am i sayin 
just pass me a 30 n get out my way 
i’ve gone cold through these years that you’ve shredded my brain 
what’s a life without fighting 
feel fuckin insane
did you see how he fell when i hit him again 
i got blood on my hands wash it off in the rain
i can’t make a fist or hold my phone a few days 
but i promise that pussy won’t try it again
all i need in this life is some weed and a pen

i’ll be back at six (nevrfall)

people keep telling me i'm a guardin clone, so here's this in spite to start off 2024 :)

Lyrics:

like where did all my friends go?
where'd the passion all go
writing private in my bed hoe
rip a verse out of my chest woah
i ain't feelin the best so
i subdue all the stress
left behind and i can't cope
make a new scene all on my own
all on my own

like where did all my friends go?
where'd the passion all go
writing private in my bed hoe
rip a verse out of my chest woah
i ain't feelin the best so
i subdue all the stress
left behind and i can't cope
make a new scene all on my own
all on my own

she could read minds in the first place
she could read minds in the worst way
that means she should know that i can't stay :(
that means she should know this ain't my day
spent my whole life chasing first place
somehow i'm 5th wheeling on my birthday
taco bell 3am on a thursday
wish i could share it with you come to my place
ay
double stack chicken wrap yuh
ay
babygirl where you at love :(
crush up 9 grams gurl i'm terrified
still i'm feeling alright this deep in your eyes 

like where did all my friends go
where'd the passion all go
writing private in my bed hoe
rip a verse out of my chest woah
i ain't feelin the best so
i subdue all the stress
left behind and i can't cope- 

YUH

like where did all my friends go
where'd the passion all go
writing private in my bed hoe
rip a verse out of my chest woah
i ain't feelin the best so
i subdue all the stress
left behind and i can't cope
make a new scene all on my own
all on my own

solitary (dash)

Where Do We Go

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i'm still just a kid and i'm trying my best

lyrics:

{Hook}
I tell Scott "Send it through"
I'm about to make a heater
Beam me up, rollin' zoot
Pouring dirty by the liter
In a whip and it's blue
Had to park it like it's Peter
Got some heat in the booth
Turn these goofies to believers

Make her "Ay" then she "Ouh"
Tell me just a little higher
I came back out the blue
Fuck the 9, I'm droppin' fire
Take a seat by the booth
I got bottles and a driver
But I got Backwoods and a lighter
Say I'm good but I'm a liar

{Verse 1}
Baby what'chu want
Fuckin' til I see the sun
I'm a fill it up
Tell your boy it's fisticuffs
Since you somethin' special
Scoop you in a rental
Swear her teeth like dental
I got sex all on my mental

Let me lay it down
We smoke by the pound
I got some much layin' 'round
Take a quarter ounce
Fuck it, half a pound
I don't wanna see a new moon
Feel like Lil Tracy I been sellin' lil' whore

Take five, take four
I've just gotta take a break
I've been thrustin' like hour
Need some water, goodness sake
Rollin' leaves like I'm a rake
Frontwoods, Bear Kush
Girl you lucky you got me
Straight up, real talk

{Hook}
I tell Scott "Send it through"
I'm about to make a heater
Beam me up, rollin' zoot
Pouring dirty by the liter
In a whip and it's blue
Had to park it like it's Peter
Got some heat in the booth
Turn these goofies to believers

Make her "Ay" then she "Ouh"
Tell me just a little higher
I came back out the blue
Fuck the 9, I'm droppin' fire
Take a seat by the booth
I got bottles and a driver
But I got Backwoods and a lighter
Say I'm good but I'm a liar

{Verse 2}
Spy spaceship to high need a grip
Mad lips, big spliff, no we buy by the zip
Maybe one drink of Goose and some rum now I'm drunk
Try to move look at me
I'm lookin' like a fool
Play me, make me sad 'cause I'm a tool
Got me fallin'
Got me textin' back I'm all in
See you stallin'
I know that your man callin'
Blond hair, big lips, man I want it
Juicy wide hips, let you flaunt it

And I can't go out
Start thinkin' what I'm 'bout
Half of these bitches just want clout I say
I just Migos these bitches and ballout

{Hook}
I tell Scott "Send it through"
I'm about to make a heater
Beam me up, rollin' zoot
Pouring dirty by the liter
In a whip and it's blue
Had to park it like it's Peter
Got some heat in the booth
Turn these goofies to believers

Make her "Ay" then she "Ouh"
Tell me just a little higher
I came back out the blue
Fuck the 9, I'm droppin' fire
Take a seat by the booth
I got bottles and a driver
But I got Backwoods and a lighter
Say I'm good but I'm a liar

okkkk (scottysplash)

i dont feel right ft. sewerperson (prod mochila)

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just happy to be here