softheart❤️

sad shit

this song was inspired/interpolated from a softheart type beat i found on youtube, please go give some love to w1nter/shy: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UChPhqiihr2QL0nMOr5FmlbQ

New Terrain

im in my bag of excuses for bad decisions i made  
bad actions stemming from trauma that doesnt justificate  
i look around and see all of this destruction and decay 
but i think the only difference is i didnt see what was right in my face 
at some point you have to face it
used to think fixing my problems was caving
i used to think that my problems were what made me special and that shit is dangerous
and i used to think that if i got better my art would suffer as a trade and
it got to the point where i thought that my mental well being aint even worth saving 
but honestly i was mistaken 
what the fuck was i on 
how could i be so wrong 
i was down for so long
i dug myself too far 
what the fuck was i on 
how could i be so wrong 
i made myself the problem 

i was a victim of temptation and my own temperament
i get too passionate i come off batshit and 
im just a magnet for tragic infatuation 
almost had it but i couldnt capture it 
dont wanna trap it  
dont know whats happenin
but when youre laughing
its great distraction 
i think we might just be moving to fast and 
keep your hands in at all times and belts fastened 
i dont know 
what the fuck i was on 
how could i be so wrong 
i was down for so long
i dug myself too far 
what the fuck was i on 
how could i be so wrong 
i made myself the problem 
and honestly i dont know
what the fuck i was on
how could i be so wrong 
i was down for so long
i dug myself too far 
what the fuck was i on 
how could i be so wrong 
i made myself the problem

my big bag of excuses for this hole I dug myself into

Rainclouds

lyrics:

im being tossed around losing all my worth
and i dont really know if i should tell you that it hurts
pill powder in my frown these dont even work
pick myself apart and i just wipe away the dirt

i knew it when we met that i would fall in love again
but no one ever told me loved ones tend to turn their back
now im all alone just scrolling through my phone in bed
tears are hard to cry when i dont have no water left

watch a pill breaking down in the water when i stir
did it all on my own
this is not your fault i swear
i just starve skin and bones
its ok ill eat the air
spend my work on a shirt
and a pair of nike airs

i get sick when i think of your lips on his face
cause i know the love he gives you couldnt be replaced
by my soul and my blood by my heart by my taste
and im so sick and tired of just lusting your embrace

im being tossed around losing all my worth
and i dont really know if i should tell you that it hurts
pill powder in my frown these dont even work
pick myself apart and i just wipe away the dirt

incompatible (prod. killedmyself)

produced by @idealismus

this song is completely non profit

lyrics:

sorry i was couch locked
i heard you knock but i couldnt get the door knob
that excuse applies to so many people this year
but its not my fault you in your feelings
on my riff raff shit
blueberry rocketship
your tonsils out your mouth
when i split your bottom lip

the flow just came to me
the belt has double g's
im facing bong rips and i blow em off the balcony

im feeling presidential
whole squad deep queen street in a rental
no one get inside my mental
but i could shutter island someone if i need to

the fear is colour and its bleeds through
fuck im only here to greet you
why you talking getting drinks like we should plan it
i didnt even wanna meet you

december christmas party
last year dont get me started
new year was so inviting
compared to the one before it

christmas party (prod. idealism)

a completely non-profit project

all youtube beats were free and used prior to being sold, if now sold.

mixed/mastered by 9TAILS & SCOTTYSPLASH

scottysplash: @scottysplash


production

idealism: @idealismus

25: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCms7nTRhJWPcwFtd4AYWzXg/featured

hateful: @hatefulbeats

nayz: @nayztheone

ʎpoqou: @anobodyreally

franky m: www.youtube.com/channel/UCUOfYgWexGPJnjqglHwKK9w

sarcastic sounds: @the-sarcastic-ashole

killedmyself: @killedmyself

killrichy: @killrichy

hidden oasis: www.youtube.com/channel/UCZ7zq6C2EqpEk4WekOHb2hQ

brokebwoy: @brokeassniiigga

floating away (prod. killedmyself)

leaves (prod. ʎpoqou)

better days (prod. hateful)

main guitar loop by Sorrow Bringer! @sorrow_bringer

Nosedive 2

maniac

art by denevikart

lyrics:

hey hey
i been pullin through
why wassup w you?
im unteachable
seated in stone
carcass past i reap and sew
golden caps i took 3 o those
brand new pack i breath in slow
so much smoke i couldnt see thru the door
theres closure 
ill never find and shit i dont need to know
uuurg
i light up this cape on me and burn
i got so much weight on me it burst
pictures of those days hit me in blurs
man back in the days i was the worst
i still remeber when i heard about when 
there was a village on the top of the mountain
i almost fell to the cold when i found it 
but you if you saw it trust me its astounding 
there was a tale of heartbreak and denial when 
there once was someone that he let close around him 
he closed himself off from fear of letdowns  
and thus closed off love he would have found then
they just dont see it though
why he always seem so low
its insatiable 
no signal up here im unreachable 
its nothing you need to know
noone even knows me yeah thats me you know
damn i used to think you didnt love me enough
how much you hurt me shit i beleive you now  
im unteachable
seated in stone
carcassed past i reap and sew
golden caps i took 3 o those
brand new pack i breath in slow
so much smoke i couldnt see thru the door
theres closure 
ill never find and shit i dont need to know
give me something doc say it straight
give me somethin i can work with
act like i did it on purpose 
like its all purpose 
and its all just context
no its not all words said
we just all want purpose 
we just all want purpose
we just all want purpose
its a gift and a curse idk which side id put first
i know ill be searching
till im in my hearse 
sometimes i feel like life plays out like its all rehearsed 

(chorus)

Little stone statue (prod. LR beats)

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just happy to be here

Rainclouds

Softheart