stockholm (prod. sorrow bringer)

'87 Benz
I just sit back, I hit the gas
Ride through the wasteland broken down buildings and piles of trash
I moved as far away as I could to get away from the past
I'm just a scavenger looking for copper and metal to scrap
And I don't wanna be that, but I don't wanna be that
Pack up my bags like don't worry I'ma be back
Can't find no home I can't find anywhere that I wanna be at
Home's where the heart is but I'm fucking heartless so that don't mean jack
Kill my throat from all this nicotine and vapor I inhale
I never used to but this stress got me not doing well
Work so much but this self motivation it can be hell
I roll my mary and I just put myself up in a spell
My weak brittle bones, I need phosphorus
I just need some love but I can't foster it
And i do what I love but I just lost the bliss
They only show the love when it’s posthumous
Tell me it means
Tell me it means
Tell me your train of thought when you shut yourself off from me
Save it please don't talk to me
Please don't talk to me
I don't know what it was but something's been off with me
And I don't wanna be that, but I don't wanna be that
Pack up my bags like don't worry I'ma be back
Can't find no home I can't find anywhere that I wanna be at
Home's where the heart is but I'm fucking heartless so that don't mean jack

phosphorus (with brody)

next episode...

Sourface

let me set the scene
its 2am this thick black veil is over everything 
theres nothing here except the wind and faint sounds of the creek
this light glows when i spark it 
i spend life fighting this darkness
i might come back a little scratched but life is never easy 
i found this me then watched myself split into seperate things
scattered all around the fields to go collect again
im almost all together now except some little cracks 
aint shit change im still out back 
ashing joints on back door steps
got some love but will it last 
i can only really guess 
my landlord is garbage 
fuck this house u can ash on the carpet
my brain skips and short circuts 
this life is one big circus  

by the highway we watch shadows pass
and the light bends round your silloette
imma smoke till i cant breath any air
sometimes i dont wanna be anywhere
but i wont leave just please do not turn off the show
this is my favorite episode
lets just close these curtains slow 
   
i just get so scared that youll go 
i cant help its how i cope 
i got habits i cant fix    
i just cant help but self destroy 
i had friends i could have helped  
so i let new ones in my life 
take advantage of me now
and it all looks so clear now
seeing it from this vantage point 

ill be out soon 
im in deep but im making big strides 
i took more than 2
like whats gonna happen this time 
by the highway we watch shadows pass
and the light bends round your silloette
imma smoke till i cant breath any air
sometimes i dont wanna be anywhere
but i wont leave just please do not turn off the show
this is my favorite episode
lets just close all these curtains slow 
stuck in a never ending game
im lost in the bits and code 
someones in my computer screen
and she calls to me i know

rip myself into a million different little pieces (prod. danbarry)

[Intro]
Nothing new I do is really new to me (Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)
See shit fucking coming so preemptively (Pussy, now I ride)
Marijuana got me thinking heavily (You fucked just for, ayy)
I'm the only one a step ahead of me

[Verse]
Pussy, now I ride (Ride, ride)
We get fucked up just for fun (Just for fun)
I forget the feeling of the sun (Of the sun)
Excess dopamine is on my veins, feeling pain
If I think it in reality, I'm numb (I'm numb)
I know you got bare mans, but I'm the one (I'm the one)
You know I hate the childish shit, it's never fun (Shit is not)
I'm the boy, I'm the kid, I'm the one (I'm the one)
Try to take the throne and you get shunned (You get shunned)
Double-stuffed blunt, get me buzzed
Keep feeling the feeling of my limbs all being fuzz (Fuzz)
Holding something potent, I can't take it on the bus (Bus)
You think we McDonald's, how we carrying the nugs
Brain splat, face black, tell me where my place at
Someone else was driving, though he doesn't know the way back
Drop top, Maybach
Girly throw her waist back
Whole zip, face that, I'm not one to waste that

[Chorus]
Nothing new I do is really new to me (New to me)
See shit fucking coming so preemptively
Marijuana got me thinking heavily (Heavily)
I'm the only one a step ahead of me (Skrrt)

[Open Verse]

[Outro]
Nothing new I do is really new to me
See shit fucking coming so preemptively
Marijuana got me thinking heavily
I'm the only one a step ahead of me

9TAILS - one (prod. pilgrim)

hurts 4

open5eason (killedmyself)

Phantom Alley

VINE

produced by: malith 
everything else by: me 
this may be the most mid song of 2020

lyrics:

and fuck everything that I wrote down,
all these dark clouds, cant go back to you now
and I feel a lil sad so I ball out
and this hole I'm in's too deep yeah, I cant crawl out
x2

and you make me feel so alive
maybe one day ill get to call you mine
x2

(and I guess its just my turn,
like everybody else had one,
I guess ill never learn,
ill never learn to hold my tongue, 
im not what you deserve,
I won't put myself first,
ive gotta kick you to the curb,
then my heart it gets sewed back on

and fuck everything that I wrote down,
all these dark clouds, cant go back to you now
and I feel a lil sad so I ball out
and this hole I'm in's too deep yeah, I cant crawl out
x2

morning coffee (malith)

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just happy to be here

rip myself into a million different little pieces (prod. danbarry)

Softheart