Basketcase - Softheart

everyones an asshole 
my plug cuts his coke and my doctor pushes benzos 
my head smacked the floor when i tripped off my board
skating round the halls cause my parents aren't at home
today ive been bored
today i woke up at 4
needed stuff but got too high to drive to the store
at the checkout said "how are you?"
i said "not much"
on my way out i tripped and my thing of eggs crushed

dont be ashamed to be proud of yourself or slow down for a sec 
i say as i quietly critique parts of myself 
i guess i just keep helping so i wont need help
but regardless it helps

can you tell me we're good now?
you left me put down
bad is my good now
when i cry it's a good sound 

(hamilton)
cut it all out
take it all away
i dont wanna feel 
no not today 
numb to the pain numb to it all
hanging by a thread i might fall
i might slip 
lose my grip 
tryna find out where the time went
where it all goes
i dont know
i can only walk the path i chose 
build me up just to break my bones
crushing up drugs on my phone
tryna fix my heart but it got worse
every time i fall in love it hurts
every time i try to not think bout you it dont work
maybe im just meant to be alone with the dirt
but maybe its just meant to be 
i get so high i cant speak
walking round cant feel my feet
when i sleep i grit my teeth
when i sleep youre all i see
so every nights a bad dream 
i dont wanna wake up
just to feel nothing

when i cry it sounds good (with hamilton and sorrow bringer)

chapter i

produced by ztope
completely non profit

lyrics

filtered beams of moonlight 
passing thru the ice above
i cannot bear to take my eyes 
off of my drowning love
why she had to follow me
why she had to jump
shes drowning in this lake
man cold water makes u numb

makes u numb
hit my head on rocks below
blood
blood fills the water oh my god
god cannot save us
oh we're fucked
fucked
sleeping on this bed of rocks
shadows of the trees
they dance on ice thats 3, 4 inches thick
is that lantern light
i ask her body what the fuck she thinks
this our savior 
and i hope he drags us up or else we'll sink
please just save her
i do not care if im on the brink

filtered beams of moonlight 
passing thru the ice above
i cannot bear to take my eyes
off of my drowning love
why she had to follow me
why she had to jump
shes drowning in this lake
man cold water makes u numb

it makes u drown

drowning at the bottom of a frozen lake (ztope)

i was picking something off the vine 
working with what i got if you get it 
bouncing off the walls im in my mind
i can be too much i admit it  
didnt know what to type when i read it
so into the void i let it 
i dont ever wanna stop trying
i dont care if i dont im gon regret it
i been on my own since a lil kid
havent felt at home since a lil kid
everything i wanted i been living it
why the fuck is none of it fulfilling 
i been tryna chase this feeling
all this time and space that its stealing
my life its like if i let you inside 
know it meant the most that you were in it
i was picking something off the vine 
working what i got if you get it 
bouncing off the walls im in my mind
i can be too much i admit it  
didnt know what to type when i read it
so into the void i let it 
i dont ever wanna stop trying
i dont care if i dont im gon regret 
i been on my own since a lil kid
havent felt at home since a lil kid
everything i wanted i been living it
why the fuck is none of it fulfilling

Grapevine (prod. sorrow bringer)

𝐢𝐥𝐲 𝐛𝐫𝐲𝐬𝐨𝐧<3

𝚜𝚑𝚒𝚣𝚞𝚔𝚎𝚜𝚊.
come around
ik im a fuck up jus a let down
but we could run away my love, from this town<3
gaze inside her eyes been filled w/ hate now
need 2 stay down
really need sum backup
u know ur the only one i want luv
cant fkn take this aching make my chest numb
you the one i want luv

𝚛𝚎𝚜𝚒𝚍𝚎𝚗𝚝𝚒𝚊𝚕.
cant even snap back 2 this snapchat
got 80 ounce in this backpack
making lame shit on this old mac
while my friends out in their pontiac
how are you so contagious
holding back on my anguish
'cardi rocks when im anxious
blood n mud on these pages
she dont talk but her eyes flirt
louis v n that black skirt
pulling up in that chrysler
bloody shirt n my chest hurts

𝚜𝚑𝚒𝚣𝚞𝚔𝚎𝚜𝚊. 𝚡 𝚛𝚎𝚜𝚒𝚍𝚎𝚗𝚝𝚒𝚊𝚕.
come around
ik im a fuck up jus a let down
but we could run away my love, from this town<3
gaze inside her eyes been filled w/ hate now
need 2 stay down
really need sum backup
u know ur the only one i want luv
cant fkn take this aching make my chest numb
you the one i want luv

ep w/ bry soon also~ if you've read this far then thank you all sm for all of the support this past year, and just in general if you listen to any of my stuff. it genuinely means the whole world. ily all sm<3

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let_down w/ residential. (ushanka boy)

[Intro]
(Yeah, yeah)
Yeah

[Chorus]
Heads down
Pop it off (Pop, pop)
Face melt
Got the drip like milk (Drip, drip)
Behave, black sheep transition, I'm great so far (So far)
It's great, destroy anyone in my way, wo (Destroy)

[Verse 1]
I don't need nothing, everybody get fu—fucked
Yeah, I claim buff like a crew
But you cross the mug like, woah
I'ma play show, get hoes in a backstage place and they don't like clothes, like new
Down to the toe, stroke ego, it's a free world
But the first ain't free though
Gasoline make you gag, like throw up
Beef get smacked, eyes puff like Cheeto (Woah)
I set the mood
I walk into the function with blood on my shoes
I hear the bitchin' and whinin' (They whine)
I brought to the scene, and now nobody like me
It's cool, fuck you too
I don't need approval to do what I do
Bust my bro when I bust you too
Try my girl and I'll swipe yours up
I don't even gotta ask her, she eat my food

[Bridge]
Ayy, uh
Fucking tired of this shit bro
Yeah, yeah, yeah (Yeah)
Yeah
(It's saying, I'm fucking—)
No one control this shit like
(It's saying, I'm fucking writer or some [?])
You think your relation matters?
(Ayy, ayy)
This shit
Fuck you

[Verse 2]
Wow, you don't want to get too close, yeah
Reach out, turn down, I don't know ya
Damn, I'm really never that nice
And it won't be again, I'ma ghost ya
Careless with the money like OSAP
Everybody dead, I'm pourin' out cognac (Wow)
Bat lip, talk shit about 9TAILS
Makes sense that you talk shit 'cause you eat ass

[Chorus]
Heads down, pop it off
Face melt (Melt)
Got the drip like milk
Behave, black sheep transition
I'm great so far, it's great (It's great)
Destroy anyone in my way (Destroy)
Destroy all I built in a day (Built)
Destroy my relations like fuck it all
Still on my shit either way (I'm on it)

[Outro]
Yeah
I'm still on my shit either way
Fuck it all
Still on my shit either way
Destroy my relations like fuck it all
I'm still on my shit either way

9TAILS - black sheep (prod. 9TAILS)

https://li.sten.to/mindsoldier

wallet so full that i cant fold it
hold it, how can i stop feeling fucking worthless
purpose, i stay tryna find it but its far
watch me from afar, soon ill be a fucking star
do it for the art, really dont care bout the fame
want me there? man it’s a shame cuz i cant hang around no lames
try n correct mistakes, but its no use, cant turn back time
used to talk like all the time, but now ur gone, i dont feel fine

i was made to do this, it was really by design
they keep talking on my name but i dont pay no mind
by myself like everyday, im really left behind
war inside my brain, i know that we cant reconcile
get treated like shit, even though im really kind
get treated like shit, even though i fucking tried
fight myself, mind soldier, im with noone by my side
mind soldier, i keep my feelings inside

your function dead man its a corpse party
ima keep it going u cant ever fucking stop me
my bro posted up with blicks like he in the army
sick n tired of these bitches always tryna mock me
i do it my own way, then the others copy
i write full songs, i dont punch like rocky
stay hidden, i rock undercover, takahashi
and i be posted in the mall, yeah im fucking balling

i was made to do this, it was really by design
they keep talking on my name but i dont pay no mind
by myself like everyday, im really left behind
war inside my brain, i know that we cant reconcile
get treated like shit, even though im really kind
get treated like shit, even though i fucking tried
fight myself, mind soldier, im with noone by my side
mind soldier, i keep my feelings inside

mind soldier

Or At Least Thats What I Tell Myself

ego death

Sleepyhead (with waitingoncisco)

prod. by me

big big thanks to @softhert for jumping on this track

eyes low (ft. Softheart)

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just happy to be here