Featuring @sendflowrs
Produced by @hellahaunted & @sainttomorrow
Mixed & mastered by @horoshamusic
Logo by Dead & Detached

i been smoking too much like every day

who would'a thought that these drugs don't really numb all the pain

my eyes stay shut but i still see your face
i'm still so miserable

still feel unfulfilled


and ive been smoking too much like every day
since fifteen think it's rotting my brain

i got my windows closed but i still hear the rain

i don't like myself anymore

think i've changed

and while you sit there drunk on the side of the pave

do you ever think about those times in the cage

with your friends in the sun oh those times they have changed

now i'm sitting on my own thinking of life on a stage


thinkin of life on a stage

these days i'm alone 

take 3 blunts to the face

spend my days blazed just thinking of life in the states

shoutout jj
i'm tryna record everyday


i think i'm going straight to hell for those two years

if you didnt know im sad you must be new here

cliche dyed hair
i'm a loser

forever screaming on my own at a computer


i'm a loser and I know it
got it tatted on my sleeve just to show how much i own it
stay glued to my computer
writing sad songs and playing first-person shooters


watch me self-destruct

catch me yelling "nerf this"
while i'm rolling up another blunt


i used to do this for fun

now i do this on account of all of my bad luck

i been smoking too much like every day

who would'a thought that these drugs don't really numb all the pain

my eyes stay shut but i still see your face
i'm still so miserable

still feel unfulfilled


i'm still so miserable

still feel unfulfilled

i don't even know what i'm fighting for



Listen on Spotify!

Loser w/ sendflowrs (Prod. caves & Saint Tomorrow)

extra stems came from an interpolated sorrow bringer beat! go give him a follow :) @sorrow_bringer

Sonder

@kennedysucks
@killmesumday
@sewerperson
@user-551713846

witch hotel & sewerperson - sirens w/ kennedyxoxo & killmesumday (prod. noahmadethiss x jolst)

lyrics:
girl ill be right here drowning in my pain
hope you fucking feel it when you hear my name
yeah but whyd you have to go make me feel insane
all this fucking mental anguish all thats in my brain

i dont give a fuck you can blame me
ima push my luck with this codeine
hope im never waking up so i stay sleep
if you wanna keep me here gotta make me

frosted windows, give way to the light
of mornings so cold think ill curl up and die
ill go back to sleep cause i dont wanna fight
another day living this cycle of life

im never alright, im not coming home
ill stay out all night, puke blood on the floor
ill damage myself, and ill rot to the core
im breaking inside dont want to anymore

Make Me

make me

lyrics:

we sang this song in the shower too many months back
a memory and an hour ill never get back
pour me up in this cup cause thats a quick hack
for erasing these flashes my brain will still track

told you if it didnt work, youd be all my songs
told you im obsessed you didnt see it you were dead wrong
now im in this room just sipping steady so im headstrong
its my medication and its cheap id rather be gone

cause he’s touching your hair, got his hand on your hips
and he looks in your eyes, got your taste on his lips
so now im trying to sleep, but this is all i can see
im tryna get so fucked up, somebody hand me the bleach

im tryna bury myself, im tryna burn through my mind
i wanna black out the vision of you in bed every night
like is he better than me, and does he do what i dont
im sure youre glad as can be, while i just lay here and smoke

i just lay here and smoke
i just lay here and smoke

bacardi on the floor always spill some
soak it with my skin just to feel sumn
my night aint even started its a killer one
im faded out my mind and im not even done

i wanted to end it, i wanted to go back
i wanted to do it all over the way that it was when i knew that
nothing was changing, we all stay the same please
dont forget me forget it its okay im drunk on the daily

cause he’s touching your hair, got his hand on your hips
and he looks in your eyes, got your taste on his lips
so now im trying to sleep, but this is all i can see
im tryna get so fucked up, somebody hand me the bleach

im tryna bury myself, im tryna burn through my mind
i wanna black out the vision of you in bed every night
like is he better than me, and does he do what i dont
im sure youre glad as can be, while i just throw up the most

ive ever seen
now im seeing green
now its turning to black
ill just lay on my back

Obsessed

obsessed

FAREWELL

I definitely think this song has a nice vibe to it and works pretty well. However, after not listening to it for a while and hearing it again I noticed that some of the mixing needs work. Unfortunately, it isn't as good overall as some of the previous songs but I guess that is a part of making music and the creative process. Maybe some listeners can still enjoy it and find something positive in the work. I'll have another listen, delve back into the mix later, to hopefully improve the overall balance and make it better. 

everywhere i look

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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VTjOt3IGA30

just a lil' somethin' to hold you guys over for what's in store in these next following weeks. i love you guys so much. thank you for everything. be sure to show hk some love as well.

s/o to valarice for the inspiration

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danny phantom (prod. by hkfiftyone)

license plate (early2019)

main sample taken from this youtube video: 
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fXU_Q_i3-So&t=819s

Crying Wolf

I drove all the way here for this? (prod. homesick)

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just happy to be here

Sonder

Softheart