God I love this track even more every time I listen to it

VEXATION

BACK TO HER [prod. TinyPalm]

Lyrics:
i could really give a fuck about anybody think of me
baby i could die you could put me on the centerpiece
maybe say goodbye cause im fading and youll never be
stoppin by my grave probably wont even remember me

i wont wake up, i could fuckin die
on my way up, you wont question why
know im messed up, but you know thats life
i confess sumn, you wont even cry

out by sixteen or dead on the scene, i got a razor sharpened cartridge if you know what i mean
im just so fuckin damn exhausted when i have to be me, i guess i gave up and i quit i never wanna be seen

remember me, im all alone tho
self esteem, its gettin low tho
never seen, im on my throne tho
you know me, i be low low

i fuckin swear i dont even wanna die, i just wanna be okay i just wanna be alright
you could tie to me a chair you could take my fuckin life, you could sell me for my parts to whoever pays the price

stop by my grave, wont remember my name
cause you all the same, but theres no one to blame

stopbymygrave

My account may get taken down, if you care to stay in touch when/if it does instgram - @not.a.fucking.hero
or discord link in bio

Lyrics:

Ive been walking paths i fucking hate that i still take
cause the grass is never greener
and the air asphyxiates 
i just need a way up out of here by car or fucking plane
id walk two hundred miles just to get out of my state

30 days in a month but it feels like fuckin 5
i'm not much for music theory 
studying 
i'd rather die
static flows and finding rhythms
changing words up on the fly
i wish i could do that perfectly
but im not gon waste my time
in a monotonish voice ill scream my thoughts out to the sky
itll send back waves and pulses common sense might just defy
and i'll hear em anyway cause im not earthly or alive
if life don't change up drastic 
i might snap with suicide

i can hear every key you sing thru microphone
even when its just ur screaming i breathe every note
i still feel the pain ur words that sear me take their toll
it hits me harder than anybody else could ever know

oh u cut ur fucking wrists
i don't fucking give a shit
i've tried to help you every night for fucking years now
so get attention dopamine from someone else now
if empathy is all u fuckin want from me
then ill block you everywhere 
n maybe i can rest in peace
im a fixer of your problems 
not a vent for minor things
and it pisses me right off that this is one way therapy

i think u know everything i would say
if i confronted you right now but i can't articulate
under pressure under influence but there's hella shit to say
but im sure u say those things yourself so this song goes out in vain

might get terminated, i'm going back to bed

9TAILS - creme soda

produced by neverforever

cty_gazing_ inspired by city gazing by hero

completely non profit 

lyrics

rain clouds above me
my souls fuckin ugly
everyone act so roughly
not like we playing rugby

so c'mon
u get a free throw
i'ma break ur ribs with my feet tho
u can keep those
knocking out some teeth like t bone
12 zero

switch just flipped 
so I drink and drink and drink
Molly got boys fucked 
why do I not feel a thing
sitting in a gutter 
feels like where I'm meant to be
lemme take a second 
i just need some time to think

sunrise
that's home time
well past dawn when I close eyes
my surprise 
pretty sure that i hate going outside
like oh my i can be a hypocrite ik
dont we all sometimes 
like don't lie
u don't see the grey sky

that's all i see
in u and me

all the bad all the hurt
i guess i just see the worst
fuck urself
fuck the world 
save it? nah it don't deserve
i been burnt
i have learnt
good intentions same as dirt
i been burnt
i have learnt
good intentions same as -

rain clouds above me
my souls fuckin ugly
everyone act so roughly
not like we playing rugby

fuck like
i really woke up?
fall asleep face up i wanna choke up
fully gave up
yeah
zoning out this bitch while smoking with the raindrops

this ain't life i'm stuck in my own self made hell
hate the world almost half i do myself
i just suck but u should know i'm something else
self aware i take the devil's side in hell

cough up sludge I force it back into my gut
taste just fine it's like a stronger form of bud
bought an h and in a week I'm out of bud
sleeves r stained, recycler bong that's full of muck

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well it gets lonely 
city gazing from the satellites
all alone here 
in this spaceship and the latern light 
well ive got oxygen 
enough to maybe make the night
but ive accepted that this place 
is where I'll come to die

the view ive got from in my coffin
well it's really nice
if I jumped what'd be the chance 
I'd land in powerlines
a mangled body's not the image 
that I'd hope ud find
a lump of coal that u can bury 
is worth the piece of mind

maybe best to turn this ship 
and gun for saturn's rings
I'd meet an alien 
and tell him how I really think
this world is ugly 
if u took the time to sink it in
people selfish and absorbed 
inside of useless shit

ive got a problem
ive forgotten how to let u in
my vision fades 
alarms are blaring, I hit jettison 
a fire show ignites
somewhere above the midnight sky
I hear just silence
void is pretty fond of eating life

city gazing, with my homies:
foreign parasites 
a formed allience 
between the dead and all this moldy life
I pull the plug on sos
command don't give a shite
I found ignition in the pain
that came from u and I

dmg_ctrl_/cty_gazing_ (neverforever)

Unearthing

main loop used is from a killedmyself drumpack

Its a little late for that don't you think?

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marykate

lyrics: https://genius.com/Softheart-like-it-now-lyrics

Like It Now

Waiting rooms (D&V Ptsd)

there is light in us

Last Nights Sunset Was Amazing

NÜ X NVR/MND -  She Didn't Stick Around

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Waiting rooms (D&V Ptsd)

Softheart

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