ever since the plane lifted its wings i kept this one song on repeat
smoking funny papers
laughing rolling out of my seat
i took a minute was out of reach 
now im as close as i can get without stepping in the same feet
i was slept but i cut my sheets into pieces and sewed this fleece
im sleek bud i tell no statements no affidavit or pleas
i was slumped out with buckles knees
i was strung on a puppets string
now i dont even wanna sing
i dont even wanna sing
looked out the window to below and i imagined falling down
and if thered be any way to save myself
i pictured in that last moment as im falling my way through the clouds
maybe id find time to do a front flip or spin around
and the years are going by they feel like minutes now
and the second i felt the high i was like im living now
the lemon sour i make faces and i spit it out
ill spend it now cause i only know im here for now
hear the sounds piercing howl oh how its fierce and loud 
hold the wheel i think im gonna let somebody else steer for now
at deaths doors but i dont fear it now
i dont even know what the fuck im feeling now
hold your tears im with the spirits now
i used to never drink and now im right up at the bottom of these spirits now
they didnt fuck with me im weird as hell 
and im smoking stank thatll get you so high you can hear the smell
open up the curtains and im peering out 
at the function i barely make an appearance now
i know its bad but it feel good so its pure as hell
bruh ill give you 50 dollars for that purel 
im outside fuckin flexing to the squirrels
and imma burn this fuckin fire till the world melts
(let it all burn down) 
berrrch

plane ride high on the redeye

who tf r u

Lyrics:

[Yokai Dreams]

something's been eating me up as of lately
i'm never enough and i feel like they hate me
can't blame anyone but myself
i don't have no one else
i don't take no ones help
i won't take yours
after it all i am still just the same me

weak
maybe i'm an asshole
i'm scared but i won't let that show
no king
sick of this castle
i'd leave but it's too much hassle

got a tortured mind and a broken heart
i barely recognize me
u wouldn't understand a thing
mind over matter but both mine are weak

[hero]

if it's really what you wanted then there's nothing to forgive (AAAA)
trapped in cells of condemnation my mind is gonna give
depression comes in cycles
2nd guessing come in sweeps
what my friends are spouting
you'd have to torture outta me

everything
i think
i say
and all i said
i meant
i'm not jus gonna skim right past it
go get fuckin bent
"you wouldn't understand it"
bitch it's happening to me
"mind over matter"
but both of mine are weak

mind over matter w/ yokai dreams (prod. vowl x brothel)

honored to have @foreignforest on this
hkfiftyone:
i feel so messed up, like im never right
swear im drained just from putting up a fight
i wont sleep but im tired, so i might
want to be up in the sky

if im real, i just want to stay alive
if i wake up in the morning, i survived
keep it pushing even if i dont know why
know there's something more to life

foreign forest:
my chest
feels like it's full of rocks sometimes
yes
i've been working on my mind
tests
all i ever seem to find is
stress
i don't wanna lose my mind yet

i'm so tired of living in the future
thinking i'll be good
but for now im just a loser
this is not "it"
lost my "present" in the sewer
gotta get it
but i don't know what i'm doing

what if i
have a different story i could
tell in time
though i didn't get it on the
very first try
at least i can say i tried

hkfiftyone:
i feel so messed up, like im never right
swear im drained just from putting up a fight
i wont sleep but im tired, so i might
want to be up in the sky

if im real, i just want to stay alive
if i wake up in the morning, i survived
keep it pushing even if i dont know why
know there's something more to life

im tryna get back up, i swear i try my best
but every time i fall, i feel it in my chest
and then my brain gets numb, so then i make a mess
its like i cant think straight, but you probably get it

hold on
i swear it's gonna be okay
been too long, but swear it wont stay
youre not alone, i know its lonely
youre all in my prayers

Sample from Julia's Message of Hope
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5rvhgvmABL0

"It's ok to be afraid, but I don't want you to give up. Because the thing about depression, is it lies. You know, you gotta fight to be here. Because it does get better, and all of these lies will eventually go away. You just have to hold on, 'cause it doesn't get to win. It doesn't get to take you. Because you're stronger than that, and you're worth more than that.
And it's possible."

Stay Pt 2 w/ Foreign Forest

daydreams (savedmessage)

Deep Blue Sea

lil skele - i don't care (ft. nicoteen ninyo) [prod. undaground]

Waterleaf

ad a verse to the blank spots!! 

studio ghibli on da pic ya fuckin herd

where'd u go

prod. by me

big big thanks to @softhert for jumping on this track

eyes low (ft. Softheart)

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just happy to be here