Softheart Full

Sept. 25th, 2Ø23

A Collection of Softheart Songs
Guest Starring: Truett, Participation Trophy, and SalemJournl [diary]

MONSTER w/ Spaceman Zack & Weepings (p. JOLLY WRLD x Weepings x Ice King!?)

Sooo Um (mix 2)

watch the leaves fall on my legs 
as i wait and let the time pass
seasons go my life's still a mess
why did i put my life in both ur hands?

fading away disappearing fast
all of ur love for me like a crash
why did this happen is this a test?
i hate u for making me hate myself

im cutting my wrists breaking my bones
stuck in my head, stuck in my home
laying awake all night long
lookin at u thru my phone
lonely everyday i do the same
sit on my chair and i rot away
while i keep dreamin bout u 
and the way u were dressed that day
im cutting my wrists breaking my bones
stuck in my head, stuck in my home
laying awake all night long
lookin at u thru my phone
lonely everyday i do the same
sit on my chair and i rot away
while i keep dreamin bout u 
and the way u were dressed that day

don't even bother callin my phone
i changed my number and im goin ghost
i hate the life and the way it goes
im well today but tomorrow nobody knows
different drinks, cigs and a bloody nose
that's the way the sad ones roll
losing track, of how many tracks, 
i pulled of doing song after song
song after song
tens in a row 
and im losing control
losing compusure 
destroying my soul
im just hopin that in peace i will go 
cuz~

im cutting my wrists breaking my bones
stuck in my head, stuck in my home
laying awake all night long
lookin at u thru my phone
lonely everyday i do the same
sit on my chair and i rot away
while i keep dreamin bout u 
and the way u were dressed that day

cutting my wrists, breaking my bones (young taylor)

and hey there 
can i sit here  
i noticed that you were all alone 
and reading jane eyre
and i can’t 
stay here 
i’ll die here 
and if it’s raining for the night
i’ll give you my coat at anytime, i 

like wait there
(wait there)
i’m scared 
(i’m scared)
that you think that i’m shady 
it’s not fair 
(it’s not fair) 
we’re an odd pair
i’ll stay here if you want me to i promise
if not we can rain check 

hey there

i think i recognise you; have you been here before? 

(oh, for real?) 

my bad, i guess not but- 
do you wanna go
we can smoke at mine
if you don’t smoke
i got some beers n we can pass time
i don’t give a fuck about what’s going on 
as long you’re here watching always sunny
til bout quarter past 5 

and hey there 
“hey u :)” 
im fucked up
turned blue 
yeah im too slumped
how bout u 
like oh god !!!!
you’re too cool 

dont walk out 
leave me 
im cut up 
bleeding 
so just stay
these sun rays 
they make me 
feel okay 

all of the things 
that i could now say to you
i don’t know whether to laugh or cry
do you even feel at least half of this?
or will you just sit with your friends and all laugh at this- 
FUCK

and hey there 
can i sit here  
i noticed that you were all alone 
and reading jane eyre
and i can’t 
stay here 
i’ll die here 
and if it’s raining for the night
i’ll give you my at coat anytime, i 

like wait there
(wait there)
i’m scared 
(i’m scared)
that you think that i’m shady 
it’s not fair 
(not fair) 
we’re an odd pair
but i’ll stay here
if you want me to i promise
if not we can rain check 

hey there

i think i recognise you; have you been here before?
oh, for real?

pale (pekarot x jolst)

produced by i'm geist
guitar @hiraethsry
engineered @tnvr555

last single off my album pity out next week
thank you for listening :)

// geist
so let it all dissipate
there’s a lot on my plate
but you’re not on the list love

wipe the smile off my face
you just come and you take
like you want to let me down

but come on now, you left
so leave me alone
i smell the blood
spilled fresh, cut to a bone
and it’s all so tempting
the scent
pheromones
you stare at me
and whisper words like a ghost

"you look like a ghoul
the way that you walk
your eyes glisten red,
are you hungry my love?"

no i'm just a fool,
and i shouldn't talk
i'll sow my mouth and i'll give this all up
yeah i'll give this all up
cause i'm never enough

// yokai dreams
guess u havent had enough yet
havent filled ur gut yet
leave me to the crows
dead on the road
sight will make ur gut wrench
where her heart was supposed to be is just a silhouette
cigarettes and empty threats
tell me, are you finished yet?

stealing a look in the moonlight
ur alive now
and the moods right
im a night owl
til noon light
imma lie down
til the times right
my lover loves to make me believe
that she keep the peace on those good nights
second i'm sleepin
she's barin her teeth and
she could bite
but i don't mind

guess that i'm not used to falling in love
everyone i used to know has move on
and i know you will too
nothing has improved
said we're gonna change, just not any time soon
guess that i'm not used to feeling this way
everything i used to feel has decayed
got the heart of a ghoul
selfish and cruel
thought this was love but i was just a tool

spotify

ghoul w/ yokai dreams

lyrics:
bitch get out my way, im busy gettin all this paper
stack it up till next week, i guess ill see you later
Ruger tucked my draws so when i roam its in my favor
jack and coke is my go to when i go hard, its no brainer

said i could give a fuck what you gonna do
i still spit my rhymes while im in the booth
say i gotta do what i gotta do
if i cut you off then you fuckin loose
aint got time for snakes so im finna move
bitch stay away while im in my groove
everything i am shoutout to Juice, shoutout to Peep
shoutout to you

homie just do me a solid
count up my racks while im ballin
i still reach for the rope when im fallin
i still stay on the move cause im all in
i still freestyle this shit im cerebral
stuntin out here call me Evil Kenevil
i got my girl, man so fuck all these people
you could just call me Bruce Willis, im lethal

bitch get out my way, im busy gettin all this paper
stack it up till next week, i guess ill see you later
Ruger tucked my draws so when i roam its in my favor
jack and coke is my go to when i go hard, its no brainer

what you want me to stay?
what you want me to say?
i guess im gettin older, im gettin folded
but shit just goes this way
i aint aligned with all the fuck shit id rather sip champagne
dont kill my vibe, cause deep inside, im rotting in my brain

yall be like look like some clowns, uh
i just dont wanna be found, uh
stayin away when im down
hittin me up when im up off the ground

like "homie please send me some cash, swear im good for it"
like i give a fuck so i ignore it
i dignify that im dead inside, but i swear im fine and im here for it

bitch get out my way, im busy gettin all this paper
stack it up till next week, i guess ill see you later
Ruger tucked my draws so when i roam its in my favor
jack and coke is my go to when i go hard, its no brainer

bitch get out my way, im busy gettin all this paper
stack it up till next week, i guess ill see you later
Ruger tucked my draws so when i roam its in my favor
jack and coke is my go to when i go hard, its no brainer

See U Later

see u later

FREE DOWNLOAD

heartache

all i see is trouble
i dont see the love 
yeah i dont need to know
yeah i dont need the truth
i just stay alone between these four corners
i just stay alone making beats in my room
and i cant get back those days spent 
dazed and chasing around with you
and i cant no i wont pretend
every single day i would waist it again
i would waist it again

sometimes i wanna die
but i dont like to think about that
cause of fear for it
and sometimes i cant recognize 
the face thats looking back
in the mirror x3

wanna end the pain so bad 
but im scared and i dont wanna let all these people down
every time i come around smell the weed in the air 
yeah my lungs are full of loud
yeah
i just wanna know
baby i just wanna know
no wait i dont wanna know a thing

repeat

all i see is trouble

lyrics 4 the fan that asked for em shout out to you 

nightshade
and my Styrofoam in twos 
i change
and when i go home with you i'll stay

these nights in this waistland, ay
keep me right by your waistband, ay

ooo, leave me on my own too high
leave me make me start a new life
seen it far to much it aint right
too many times

nightshade (prod. truett)

the homie @guccihighwaters

lyrics

(gucci)
I build static
I go crazy
Can't put it out if it doesn't sound amazing
and life's too fast baby hold me till it's over
tell me that you love me maybe once when you're sober
Don't wanna die as a memory
I can't leave without my legacy
Leave love letters lying on my tombstone
death is only physical I'd like to have a new home

Anxiety make my body go numb now
I sleep early withdraw on the comedown 
when I was younger it left me in hunger
but now I'm older 
desire to be under x2

(softheart)
you dont even care like you used to 
you aint even there like you used to be
hard like the usual 
you just give me stares like you're used to me

anxious probably up late
tryna hide my face
tryna bring it back
i was thinking that
life is always moving so fast
before you knew it had passed
doing better still bad

i guess im just scared it wont come
true so i dont think it
i swear its so lonely when its snowing
in new england
thought you called me it was just a 
dream was just a figment
of back when you would hold me 
like the only thing you need is
me 
is me 
is me
hate me you hate me so bad
its over hard to stay sober 
as i get older just grow colder
weed make it okay so i stay stoned
just like a boulder

chorus

anxiety (feat. guccihighwaters)

MUSIC VIDEO:

https://youtu.be/sncR0BS40i0

jealous mess

nothing much

hide the tears

Music video:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ctOyErSZ4Wk

guitar by noah walker and chris p
bass by coleman
violin by mohini 
lyrics: 

I go ghost 
It's like myself haunt me I 
I, I let the snow fall on me 
Run from love it's like my heart harm me i
I 
Don't wanna hurt nobody
(repeat)

Don't really like what the truth is 
Better if we just pretend 
Looked in her face and I knew it
That's it she'll never be with me again
Somethings whispering to me
Said go where the road meets with the grass
There's nothing for me where streetlights shine on the highway 
Swear Nothing that feels good lasts

I just look up in the mirror thinking god damn how the hell did I get here 
Says she sincere but I look and can't see her
Wish I woulda back then now I see it so clear 
Ooo 
Walking with a hole in my heart
I know that im over my head
why I'm always upset  
If i told you know youd say you wanna help
But I look around and the only one i see is myself  
Oh well
I really don't understand anymore 
No I don't even really know who I am anymore 
Letting go and falling back 
If youre ever holding out your hand 
I Bet you could understand its just
So much easier to
Hate us just
Moving through the cold like it
Ain't nothing 

I go ghost 
It's like myself haunt me I 
I, I let the snow fall on me 
Run from love it's like my heart harm me i
I 
Don't wanna hurt nobody
(repeat)

Don't really like what the truth is 
Better if we just pretend 
Looked in her face and I knew it
That's it she'll never be with me again
Somethings whispering to me
Said go where the road meets with the grass
There's nothing for me where streetlights shine on the highway 
Swear Nothing that feels good lasts

MUSIC VIDEO

spooky! (video in desc.)

its fun to forget
✷ 
NOTHING MUCH FOREVER 
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Sooo Um (mix 2)

someplace