sad but we’re chillin

Gut wrenching acoustic playlist

prod by xona(: 

-lyrics-
I still wonder if you watch me 
i sit alone and hoping things that could’ve have helped me 
and I know these things won’t change 
and you don’t care and I’m in my last day

and everything I do it’s so violent! 
everything you do is...
everything I do is- violent! 
but I still love you even if you make me cry..
cause I don’t care at all like why..?
should I try to hide from your eyes?
cause I don’t want no one besides.

(no one, no one oh...
no one, no one---)

everything you do is
everything I-

violent

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produced by xona 

@heylog

-lyrics-
I wanna run but I can’t deny
feelin dread to our trust and I cry
and I would get everything for you
she loves him but I’m just that fool
I wanted us back, you didn’t want that
I’m pleading with this pain I held
and now I fall back
all on my prozac’s
and I just hope that I get your help

and now I’m washed up all alone
the little essence that you left long ago
the flowers wilt down to my floor
push me down like I’m nothing more

and I don’t wish the best for you
you wanted healing but I was see through
you wanted blood, now you got it on view
many voices telling me on what I knew
there’s reflections that portray all of us 
you’re sick of me and the things that I love 
I won’t forget what it meant for us
these 6 letters that stuck like a drug

stab me again i won't feel a thing
hold me down this some sentencing
taking my bliss, more apologies
i don't like this, just don't talk to me
wasting away i'm never calling you back
i'm stuck with memories i won't forget
with all this weight i carry on my back
you did this to me and i will never forgive

you
oh
i hate 
you
with
every little gut in my body

WALKING UP TO HEAVEN I CANNOT BELIEVE I'M HERE
BUT WHY AM I STILL RUNNING FROM THIS NEVER ENDING FEAR
I'M SHIFTING THROUGH LANES WHILE UR STILL STUCK IN 2ND GEAR
SURPRISING EVERYONE LIKE 2 HEADLIGHTS ON A DEER
WASTING AWAY I'M NEVER CALLING YOU BACK
I'M STUCK WITH MEMORIES I WON'T FORGET
(forget)
WITH ALL THIS WEIGHT I CARRY ON MY BACK 
YOU DID THIS TO ME AND I HATE YOU FOR THAT

you
oh
i hate you
with
every little gut in my body

i wont forget

i won't forget w/ heylog

guitar by @pekarot

feel the shakes in my body 
and i wish you'd call me
my friends say they're sorry 
as my eyes leak out softly
don't worry at all 
i'll wait for a message 
a paper in a bottle 
a pill that's hard to swallow 

you're getting really good at that part
the one where you hurt me 
the one where you're leaving
all i ever had was my heart
and now it's in pieces
and now i'm not breathing 

and all there is left is some memories of us
picturing a gun
taking my blood
and there is is left is this pain that weighs a ton
filling up my lungs
destroying my guts

all i ever had was my heart

prod by xona<3 this beat sucks im sorry(,:

thank you to all the ppl that help me make this ily (all in order)
@reesoo
@heylog
@hovis
@moodyriley
@quannnic
-comet
@1vil
@uglysneaker
@valerii

avoid

avoid w/ reesoo, heylog, hovis, moodyriley, comet, vil, uglysneaker & valerii

wake up shakes from your name
on my phone screen
i never thought i would see that again
i thought i was fine without you here 
but i 
feel,
it now,
i fear

so just tell me what you want 
i'll fucking give you it all
bleed all over the pavement 
i'll pin myself to the wall
you know just how to get through me
i fucking hate how you do it
just the same as you knew me,
i'm all alone
you can see it

i don't ever wanna feel that hurt again
but it doesn't feel the same 
without you in my bed
i'll tell you anything you wanna hear i,
wanna go right back to the start

i'm feeling it now, mr. krabs

produced by xona

//ep

-lyrics-
and I’ll stay inside 
where I reside 
I’ll stay and watch the night
until i die

why do we fight?
mirror what we like?
take my holy life
I’m sorry to say it’s fine..

~

I got sick of everybody who speaks
to me you’re nothing, I can’t even get a week
to be alone with someone that I wanna see
and these crevices you placed cause you know I was weak
so push back.
and I’ve been personal
so let it go
I feel like..
you don’t even have to know me
that I don’t want you to hold me

~

~I’ll cry and end... 
my life.
stay and watch when I die~

I’ll quit 
to forget that I exist
but these spiders are my only friends
are my only 
friends…

spiders II

produced by xona

@caspywaspy

-lyrics-

I hate when you crash, I’m sorry you have felt like that
you idolize everything I am 
but you don’t care where I’ve been -at-
I hate who I am
you don’t seem to understand 
do you see me just like that?
but do you know that I just can’t..?

fighting against myself until the party ends
it’s not good for my health but it makes me understand 
tell me am I dying? cause I don’t feel alive 
baby I’ve been gone and I’ve been working 9-5
crying in my bedroom I don’t wanna lose my life but I keep wasting it away and it’s going by so fast

I hate when you crash, I’m sorry you have felt like that
you idolize everything I am 
but you don’t care where I’ve been -at-
I hate who I am
you don’t seem to understand 
do you see me just like that?
but do you know that I just can’t..?

take any more of this 
a new season and a new best friend 
I feel so bad, I don’t want to lose this
cause I’m in love with who she is
I’ll push everything that grew
on my chest and let you through 
and no i don’t feel deja vu
when I know I love you

forever w/ casperrr

guitar by saint mike

i let my body rot 
in this bed 
till there's nothing left of me 
you can do what you want with the bones
clean the mess
find the blade that you left in me 

tell me why 
i hope you found a good alibi 
stay by my side
will it still hurt in the afterlife

you do it me
love when i bleed
your skin feels so cold
touch me at 30 degrees
put my back to the wall 
tell me i'm nothing at all

in which it finally killed me

lyrics:

catching up cause she told me we can speak now
i keep my lights on when i sleep now
i keep my phone on when u go out
cause when i fall asleep ur the one i dream bout

brought a black nikon to the beach house
pull my fleece out when i feel the breeze out
used to freak, now ur too busy to go out
throw my dreams out all i do is sleep now

i had it all planned
we could just fall back
onto the couch look at the moon and just smoke up the whole pack

now its all u said i said
whenever u mad im mad
who got the heart on snapchat
if she hit u up dont call back

catching up cause she told me we can speak now
i keep my lights on when i sleep now
i keep my phone on when u go out
cause when i fall asleep ur the one i dream bout

brought a black nikon to the beach house
pull my fleece out when i feel the breeze out
used to freak, now ur too busy to go out
throw my dreams out all i do is sleep now

ur the one i dream bout (prod. mydepression)

ily all
@guardinmusic
@i_x_t_a_i_l_s
prod @antongxldn

lyrics
sadeyes:
i've got 3 missed calls its only 8pm
how do i tell you that we're just friends
i've got cigarettes i'm alone again
whiskey shots always jameson

don't act like i hate you, you know that i don't
you don't have a reason to blow up my phone

sit in the dark ima play my guitar
ima pray that i make it how have i 

made it this far
this far
this far 
this far x2

look at the night sky 
look at the stars
look at the bright side
look at my scars

emotionally bruise me when we fight in the car
every ounce of hate you carry tears me apart

how do i cope with the pain, every day you push me away
you wanna fuck and you know what i'll say
i don't need relationship shit in my way, stay out the way

guardin:
stay out my way i don't want you
drunk in my bed i won't fuck you
love isn't something i want dude
we're simply friends thought i told you

i don't wanna hear it anymore
your voice punctures through my head and i cannot ignore
anymore these advances are just smothering me quick
let me dabble in the gravel with my ganja and a bic

i think this winter left you colder than the breeze
i think you suffer from another lovers leave
might be just a sense of lust the love you have for me
anxiously outta focus i'm just hopin' i can breathe

i've got 3 missed calls its only 8pm
how do i tell you that we're just friends
i've got cigarettes i'm alone again
whiskey shots always jameson


9tails:
too deep down in my brain again
i swam a little bit and drown
in my lonliness

emtions buried deep down arc reactor ironman
rip two bowls get high again
go face roll on life again

game unlocked
like im notch
tommy flag
on my socks
i dont care 
if u watch
but you cant chip in on this blunt
sad as fuck
so i stunt
drop a track
smellin skunk
smellin farts
in the smoke
from the weed not from my bum

girl i can tell that you like me ya
body and mind that could strike me ya
attitude ready to fight me
speaking her mind and i like it

heart breaker wear it like nike
did you the same and its high key
focused as fuck you cant sike me
ill cover my ears u cant mike me

emotions like blue when they snowball
i come alive at night fall
flow with some flavour like menthol
music turn into a day job

icy heart like a face off
she went back to take my face off
of the photos of us on her facebook
moving on like im driftwood

i've got 3 missed calls its only 8pm
how do i tell you that we're just friends
i've got cigarettes i'm alone again
whiskey shots always jameson

8pm w/ guardin & 9tails (prod. antongxldn)

Prod. Wavekid

Repost and i'll buy u a shitzu <3

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Mindurmanners | Feat. Rxseboy

Prod. Fantom & Feat. @rxseboy

im falling to pieces
Im crawling can’t resist
I know that your worth it
Im sorry I’m not perfect

Letters in December | Feat. Rxseboy

Stream this on Spotify:
https://open.spotify.com/track/7BdlyzVvOqmwPH9dYtZfsx?si=LZrEShAqSpmw0Z2TehbxfQ

Play this on YouTube:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n78Gg6_zEQg

Dead Eyes

Powfu & Promoting Sounds - dead eyes (ft. Ouse)

guitar by @irby314

im up late
wondering
making a list of things i wish that i could hate
i still dream of u 
if i sleep at all
reminder of how much it hurts to fall
did it hurt you
like it hurt me
turn my heart blue
do u miss me 
got attached to u 
and i regret that
turn my heart blue
please just come back
takes so long
takes so long
takes so long 
to heal this
3 am 
lost in my head again 
10 more minutes till i break down again
i just want you in my arms again
but im too scared
to send a text again
again
again
again

blue

guitar by @irby314

situations that i cant help 
nicotine in my lungs fucking my health
i could end it all
i could end it all
i wish that u stayed 
missing u here right now
what a shame
decompose in my house
what to do 
what to say
u pushed me away
3,4,5 minutes
nobody home to bear witness
3,4,5 minutes
1 bullet to help finish
(i did this to myself)
ive been hurting so long
i cant hold on

shame

instrumental by @irby314

is it real enough for you to wanna stay this time
or will you leave when the winter makes my mind decline
i don't want to go back to the old you
but i get it 
it's cool if you have to

for your sake
for your mind
and right now it's hard
in the spring i'll be fine

old friends hit my phone like "bro you made it"
and i appreciate the words 
but i hate it
these song aren't a lie
i'm breaking 
pray a gun to my head helps me face it

is it worth it 
is it worth it 
is it worth it 
is it worth it

in which it finally killed me

something quiet