[ pt 1. ] (I originally posted this song in the midst of a severe mental breakdown when I ended up running myself into the ground, ready to end everything. I’m better now tho dw, just wanted to add some context here)

prod. @areywtf

I'm sorry

my stomach it turns at the thought of ur face
add 2 the list i stay numbing my pain
please ease my mind wont u giv me a break
i sit in this chair just to rot in a grave

as i walk its on thin ice i
waste my time and tell these lies i
drug my brain with chemicals
berate my mind and open up my eyes

unbeknown to me i cause  grief
i live my life in fear why dont we
breathe the air that we pollute see
spend my time so blind i cant see
do me a favor and open my eyes
show me a reason that i should say that im fine
im so done with trying
im so sick of lying
(its an endless cycle of pity, i cry....)

*hook repeats*

[ pt. 2 ]

prod. maxime

friends friends friends (p. arey x maxiim)

prod. dercept x johnny friend
mixed by me
a lil somethin.

lyrics:
but i'm alright again
i'm getting high again
there's not a thing that you can do to make me feel right again
i might just pour another bottle, feel the night again
and drown away all of my problems like it's vicodin
and you say i fucked you up bitch why do you like to lie
cuz i aint fuck up a damn thing but u was fuckin up my mind
and now i'm slow, i'll proceed with caution
cuz dealing with that again would be way too exhausting

and honestly i'm just exhausted
i been way too long going through all of this blockage
and i don't think i woulda gotten through it by myself
thankful for all of my brothers that are always here to help

and i'm thankful for the drugs too
i ain't even lie when i told you that i loved you
lately it's been complicated i don't wanna figure it out
i think i'd rather put the pills in my mouth

and maybe drown you out bitch i don't wanna hear a thing now
body movin slow when i'm on the fuckin pink now
and i aint mean to lie to you and say the things i said
but you still dont know the truth and it's fuckin with my head
cuz it was all lies
bitch you caught me and i just denied
i wanna cut ties
but rlly i don't have the fuckin right
so i'm trapped in here for life
don't think i'll say my goodbyes
bottle leakin on the right
chug it down i'll feel alright

(chug it down i'll feel alright)
(chug it down i'll feel alright)

but i'm alright again
i'm getting high again
there's not a thing that you can do to make me feel right again
i might just pour another bottle, feel the night again
and drown away all of my problems like it's vicodin
and you say i fucked you up bitch why do you like to lie
cuz i aint fuck up a damn thing but u was fuckin up my mind
and now i'm slow, i'll proceed with caution
cuz dealing with that again would be way too exhausting

vicodin

lyrics:
You keep me company but I'm still alone
It's only me and you, got nowhere to go
Our story never-ending, but it's untold
Signed a deal with the X pills to take my-
(Oh)
(Oh)
(Oh)
(Oh)
I've been running with no shoes my socks are redder than Boston
14 at a party, took a pill, then I bought 6
Replay it every day, I'm exhausted
I'm stuck up in my ways, I've lost it
Now can you tell me something that I don't know?
I'm sweating in my bed, but it's still so cold
I keep saying I won't do it, but I still go
Signed a deal with the X pills to take my soul
Why you take my bros?
You don't know a damn thing about me and it shows
Crushing up a couple of things up in my nose
Facing half the bottle, I wobble on my toes
My mama off the X when she had me, that's mitosis
When I'm in the city, I walk with some slime-noses
My new bitch so pretty, You jealous that I goes in
I heard your new song, it just started and I'm dozing

I've been running for so long I need a sponsor form crossfit
I've been saying this for years, I drew the line, but you crossed it
And I just need my space, I'm exhausted
I've been looking for days, but you tossed it
You keep me company but I'm still alone
It's only me and you, got nowhere to go
Our story never-ending, but it's untold
Signed a deal with the X pills to take my soul

Why you take my bros?
You don't know a damn thing about me and it shows
Crushing up a couple of things up in my nose
Facing half the bottle, I wobble on my toes
My mama off the X when she had me, that's mitosis
When I'm in the city, I walk with some slime-noses
My new bitch so pretty, You jealous that I goes in
I heard your new song, it just started and I'm dozing
(Oh)
(Oh)
(Oh)
(Oh)

xxxanax (shade08)

i extended it, tried to fix the mix a bit, and fixed some parts that were talked over

[verse]
huh
light em up baby i shoot with precision
u be talking my ear off 
i dont wanna listen
i do this shit here for a living
yeah ace of spades i blur ur vision
yea u gon push me 2 my limit
all this shit i feel like giving upp
ugh
yeah at this point cant give a fukk
i watch myself cause 
i cant ever approach it enough
all the cameras, they blindin
talking shit aint getting by us (aye)
one gold bullet turn an eight to a minus

[chorus]
yeah in the hot seat
put me in the back of ur car
i boom on anybody
i dont give a fuck who u are
sayin that ive changed
i can tell im gettin bizarre
room full of people baby
idk who any of em are

yeah in the hot seat
put me in the back of ur car
i boom on anybody
i dont give a fuck who u are
sayin that ive changed
i can tell im gettin bizarre
room full of people baby
idk who any of em are~

[bridge]
this shit is so hard
ugh

[chorus]
yeah in the hot seat
put me in the back of ur car
i boom on anybody
i dont give a fuck who u are
sayin that ive changed
i can tell im gettin bizarre
room full of people baby
idk who any of em are

yeah in the hot seat
put me in the back of ur car
i boom on anybody
i dont give a fuck who u are
sayin that ive changed
i can tell im gettin bizarre
room full of people baby
idk who any of em are~

ericdoa - hot seat [unreleased]

www.fawlin.com

follow @ghosthandsmusic

Lyrics:

I don't wanna slow down
I don't need to find a reason
Can you help me drown out
All of the voices that kills me for breathin’

I don't wanna be in love
But i dont wanna be alone
Tell me what’s going on
Everyone wants what I cannot give them

Can you tell me how to change my mind
Say this place is alright
I just gotta take time

Can you tell me how to save my life?
Find a way to get along
Find a way to see the sun shinin’

I tried on new faces
To try to feel amazing
‘Cause I’m not so sure being me
There’s heights I’m too nervous to reach
But perspective is all that I need
Suspending all my disbelief
My lungs are forgetting to breathe
Over and over and over again
Always seeing stars, knocked out cold on the bench

Well what was it then that you asked me
How I won’t make a promise I can’t keep
Taking every obligation like there’s something to win
Everybody running round too afraid to commit
So why am I so sidetracked
By voices in my goddamn head
I never got a reason
And I can’t just ask myself

Can you tell me how to change my mind
Say this place is alright
I just gotta take time

Can you tell me how to save my life?
Find a way to get along
Find a way to see the sun shinin’

I’ve been so sidetracked
By voices in my goddamn head
But you dont even know them
You dont know the half of that

Lost without a reason
Help me get my thoughts straight, I
I need to have a breather
i used to be all you had

find a reason (w/ ghosthands)

https://open.spotify.com/track/1t8CP3baQ8AngP8b9egAMH 

lyrics:

you would do it- such a bitch tho
all the nights youre at my window
youve been gone so ive been solo
all the times you left me so low

ive been down cant get enough
so ill drink one more just pass the cup
now im too down bout you fuck me up
now im down im boutta fuck this up
tell me that you need me again and ill be there for you but im not your friend
so i keep my promise after all
cuz one more night aint changing yall

ah ah ah ah ah
omg u lost ur mind
ah ah ah ah ah
omg u lost ur mind
omg you changed a lot
now im counting backwards change the clock
i keep getting lost and- wait im not
ill stay in the light im in the spot

ive been down cant get enough
so ill drink one more just pass the cup
now im too down bout you fuck me up
now im down im boutta fuck this up
tell me that you need me again and ill be there for you but im not your friend
so i keep my promise after all
cuz one more night aint changing yall

need me again (p. MURRRR)

hyperpop glaive sped up midwxst pitched 2024 ericdoa 2023 unreleased

the fear of god and the catholic church (sped up and pitched)

prod monto & chris marek
mixed & mastered by monto

ANOTHER LONG TRAIN

perfect

if we go chasing our problems 

with no reason to come through 

we won’t get nowhere

i still see through what you do 

you just can’t help it

all of the things you been through 

i know you mean well

but you’re still so damn selfish

SELFISH

photos blurry 
out of focus 
or is it my memory 
tricking my brain 

cuz im stuck inside a silence 
careful steps abiding 
around me 

and my only fear is future 
cuz i never figured out 
how to love with reason 
how to hate when hearts in doubt 
if its simple as excuses 
i dont see it getting better for me 

holding on
what matters in the moment? 
i dont know what 
i do for absolution 
 
it gets cold here
the bottom of an ocean of my fears

Silence (demo Mix 2)

Sonny Zero