2. FEBRUARY

Sonny Zero Playlist

sonny, zero

**She wonders why**

(available on spotify)
take me to good days and my old ways with my old friends
trade it all away just to spend a day with them
fuck im on my own shit, i can own it
fuck it’s lonely, i’m so lonely
i dont know me

wake up do the same shit
fuck i hate this
i tell people that i made it
but i fake it
i get dressed and do my day shift
wanna end it
god i hate this
i hate this, i hate this, i hate this

buy a bunch of shit that i dont need
room is getting full but im empty
god im on my knees, someone save me
someone save me

fuck i feel a way
i dont know what day it is
please dont go away
afraid that ima stay like this
lying on the floor
is there something more to this
that im living for
must be something more to this

sex dont help
i hate myself
and i dont feel the same as i used to
so alone
inside my home
but i feel kinda better when im with you

but it aint enough, no
even if it’s love, no
i miss how it was, no
i miss how it was

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good days

recorded in my car on a hot summer evening

lyrics: 
if love is in the air then i think im suffocating 
and if life just isnt fair then just take what u can make of it 
and ill take extra care cuz my mind is just degrading my life 

and if love can make you scared then i think youll never  want it
if all my friends were here theyd be saying shits ironic 
cuz all my love is gone cuz i cant stay awake in the night 

and darling maybe its harder than that 
but i can barely put up with the act 
that u been playin my mind is degrading my life

men they fall so easy into your arms
but fucking cant fix a broken heart
its amazing what love will make me say to keep you around

yeah i think about it i been counting down the days till your gone 
i think ill hate it when im seeing u with men i dont know
the feelings fading u mever thoght that distance would grow 

so darling close your eyes 
and turn around 
the friday nights get brighter with you in town
the mornings never coming on the day that u found
the hatred in the happiness u told me about

so stay and hold 
all your memories close 
we take and know 
that we faked the whole damn thing 
and you bet that im not happy to say 
that im fed up with all the things in the day that ive messed up

Close Your Eyes

Cover art by    @ peachy.rosie    (on instagram)

LYRICS

Making me sick
Lose my shit
Go party
I'm staying in
Once again
We're parting
Girl, do you sin 'cause I sin
I'm sorry
Losing my shit
Can we sit and restart it
You rip me up shawty
Do it no sorries
I show you love always
You give it back hardly
I want you so strongly
You want me back partly
One look and I'm concrete
That look that say "don't stop me"
...well I won't

All you want is just a break
Don't know why you feel this way
Did your heart stand still?
Won't you look at my face?
Can't you tell me what's his name?
I need someone I can blame
When I'm taking these pills
When I let myself fade

did your heart stand still?

I was once sad and lonely,
Having nobody to comfort me,
So I wore a mask that always smiled,
To hide my feelings behind a lie.

Before long, I had many friends;
With my mask, I was one of them.
But deep inside I still felt empty,
Like I was missing a part of me.

Nobody could hear my cries at night,
For I designed my mask to hide the lies.
Nobody could see the pain I was feeling,
For I designed my mask to be laughing.

Behind all the smiles were the tears,
And behind all the comfort were the fears.
Everything you think you see
Wasn't everything there was to me.

-Matt-

#ambient 

Alone

Alone/один ( Official Visualizer Out On Youtube ) (IG: saintrel1)

sonny zero , lil sunder11 , cid - cannot feel it

prod. smxkey stunna
mix @yesjunior24 , @jaykim1
master @matkor

before i know it i acted
slime 4 life we r not a fkin addict
slatt yee slatt
all time im better than you
what is the matter
all time, always i pedal
they n you what is the matter

uh wow 나 이제 부자  
woah 뛰었어 투잡
그래봤자 너흰 듣보잡
uh huh 우린 뺏어버려 너의 투자
다음 부동산에 바로 투자  
넌 나를보며 울며겨자 먹어

영어로 씨부렸더니 what's mean?
좀 어이가 없지 lets kick
나 어쩔수없지 K written
난 아냐 후드에서 왔지  
난 집에서 왔지  
i got slimey n homie
앞으로만 가 난 never slow
never slow
돈 버느라 i aint got no time
never slow

엄마아빠 이제 쉬어도 돼
월 5000 내가 벌게
더이상 무시는 안당해
내가 부자로만들게

ye 내 이름을 물어봐
대체 누가 쟤를 몰라 they talk about
xannax 없어도 in my life
행복이 넘쳐 그게 my life
내가 넘어져도 앞으로만 go
내가 넘어져도 앞으로만 go

before i know it i acted
slime 4 life we r not a fkin addict
slatt yee slatt
all time im better than you
what is the matter
all time, always i pedal
they n you what is the matter

B4 +++Jay Kim (JAY2THEKIM)

Woah (Feat. XIWOO)@xiwoo prod. beck beatz

Woah (Feat. XIWOO) prod. beck beatz

mix&master by Yung Doja
(@penny_rothko)



(feat. H:SEAN)

photos blurry 
out of focus 
or is it my memory 
tricking my brain 

cuz im stuck inside a silence 
careful steps abiding 
around me 

and my only fear is future 
cuz i never figured out 
how to love with reason 
how to hate when hearts in doubt 
if its simple as excuses 
i dont see it getting better for me 

holding on
what matters in the moment? 
i dont know what 
i do for absolution 
 
it gets cold here
the bottom of an ocean of my fears

Silence (demo Mix 2)

thank you purp xanny <3 @dmzzrrur 
prod. sonny zero