production, mixing and backing vocals by @blackwinterwells

come pick me up i'll pay for gas
there's nowhere that i want to be
and you'll drive fast and i won't ask
to pick the music or the street
and we can talk about whatever and pretend that we won't tell
even pretending to ourselves

u think it's easy where it's darker 
and i like to feel my heart
speed up with my eyes shut
and feel we're doing something we should not
so for a time i spend my life just trying to find out when to stop
just trying to guess when we'll get caught

this place is suffocating
i'll still be here in five years
like i promise i won't through the wind in your ears
but nothing feels as urgent
and these nights are still important
and there's still a lot i haven't put into words yet

every time i feel alive it will feel just like this
i'll get the things u did 
forget the boy i kissed
by the hangar and you'll both be strangers to me

tonight it matters how i'm not a person who u want to see
cause i like to talk about the hospital and go when i don't need it
just to show the world i feel it
i only ever did it once
and it was selfish it was dumb
but i can't bring myself to

hate me for wanting a break
i'll still be here in five years
where i made every mistake
sixteen trying to disappear
for one week and a half
you know it's all an act
cause there's still a lot i haven't put into words yet

hangar

hangar (blackwinterwells)

Falling Behind

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(for the first time, in a long time, i started to feel things again, i started to feel happy..) 

and i swear to god i will be there for you 
whether or not it is cold outside
i can’t even front
heart stopped when i saw you
for a minute i was sure i had died 
now you don’t pick up anytime that i call you 
and i’m not used to swallowing my pride 
and you dropped your guard 
caught a hit that had floored you 
i’m out on the ropes but will turn the tide 

so i reject the light, 
sit up and cry 
i can finally see 
now ive opened my eyes
and that girl changed my life
but i guess it’s goodbye
and the day that you left
was the worst day of my life 
the worst day of my life 

and it never was the same, was it? 
oh was it?
i’m sick of calling your phone !!!!
when everytime i see you on it
youre on it 
you hide your screen and say no 
i’m fucking losing my shit girl 
honest
just stop it
at this rate i’ll never come home 
and she just screams in my face 
“i promise, i promise!”
she said she does but she don’t 

she said she loves me, she don’t :( 
i know she cheats tho
and i’m as sure of it 
as i’m sure in the spring the leaves grow
she left me 0 speech 
so i left that bitch at heathrow
now i’m at level 3 
put 20xp in free throw 
i’m fucked up
drunk love
real kiss 
fake hugs 
pour up
care plus
guess i should’ve learned
last time felt the witches burn, fuck
left me with a cold touch 
so i jus smoke n turn up 
get money in surplus

(and i know,
mmmmm, 
but she don’t,
mmmmm,
but she don’t) 


now you don’t pick up anytime that i call you 
and i’m not used to swallowing my pride 
and you dropped your guard 
caught a hit that had floored you 🥊
i’m out on the ropes but will turn the tide 

so i reject the light, 
sit up and cry 
i can finally see 
now ive opened my eyes
and that girl changed my life
but i guess it’s goodbye
and the day that you left
was the worst day of my life 
the worst day of my life 


(i guess i've been feeling... distant from you.)

colourblind (wisssery x noahmadethiss)

and it’s cold, i got snow on my coat 
backstrap stars, i don’t wanna go home 
phone screen blinds me when u call 
im jus too fucked up, beg you leave me alone 

bape bag i got ash on my clothes 
smokin on runtz, don’t put shit up my nose
accuse me everytime that we talk 
but when we link ur the one that covers your phone 

i promise i don’t care 
i promise i don’t give a fuck 
i’m chillin smokin w my friends 
i don’t need you to show me love 
and when you see me out in town
or even on the bus
don’t ever try to chat to me
you made your bed 
so lay there, stuck 

and they said bro did you see the shit she put on insta
she’s got a new boy, he’s literally in the picture with her 
i walk these streets with double blades like i’m a fuckin witcher 
while ur all scrolling on the gram i’m w my team we gettin richer

witcher

@mary-mousetrap

my sweet nothin,
make me somethin,
cruel and disgustin,
make me brand new.

i collide into you.
sweet little nothin,
won't you do somethin,
wake me up from this dream

tell me somethin
if we aint nothin
kiss my red lips 
in the snow 

seasons speed
time slips by  
from these hands 
that hold mine 

life don’t shift
when ur gone 
but our dreams 
they live on and on and on

but heaven can wait 
a balloons wrinkled frown
some are so depraved

the nectar of life 
suck it back til the grave 
nights air thats thick
thank the will to crave  

tell me somethin
(sweet little nothing)
if we aint nothin
(won't you do something)
wake me up from this dream

Sweet Little Nothin'

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shes in love with the concept
as if were all just how she imagined
cos were in love i just dont know it yet
well tell me how am i supposed to see the magic
cos i dont believe in it no more
but i wont tell her
cos i always imagined
its easier if she thinks she won
so imma let her

and she said
i dont think i love you no more
you never seem to call me lately
girl i dont think you know me at all
cos i never thought id have to say this
but i dont love you
and i never did look at us
burning down in flames for kicks
but just know
im not singing for your xo
im just singing cos its over

came and went like the summertime
was that a sunset or sunrise
looking back like whered the time go
so much for trying to keep this moving slow
cos i dont believe in her no more
but i remember

how we talked shit like we knew what we wanted
and i still remember what she said

i dont think i love you no more
you never seem to call me lately
but i dont think she knew me at all
cos i never thought id have to say this
but im no liar and i never hid anything
you shouldve seen it coming to this
just know
im not singing for an ex tho
im just singing cos its over

i think you think too much of me

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and i said whats up
what you been thinking
cos you been staring at that roof so long id swear its come alive
and she spoke nine words
and now were sinking
but i cant find it in myself to want to lie to keep this thing from going down

cos that girl took my heart
and i aint want it back
no
im laying down my cards

cos you said it meant nothing
and i shouldve kept my silence
but i guess im too attached to my own pride to let you know
that all these words meant nothing
and ive always been this heartless
and we were just having sex no i would never call it love
but love

oh no i think im catching feelings and i
dont know if this is empathy i feel just
hold on remember why you said this was the last time
woah
so i guess its
let die to let live

and whats good
when both choices ive got
have us staring down the barrel
to the bullets i cant stop
and so i stand off
like indecisions kevlar
till this fear of feeling stops and im done
but you

no i dont know how to forget you

cos that girl took my heart
and i aint want it back no
a bulletproof restart

oh no i think im catching feelings and i
dont know if this is empathy i feel just
hold on remember why you said this was the last time
woah
so i guess its
let die to let live

no i dont know how to forget you

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cos i had the best of the worst sides
and i had these lungs
and i had too many flash fires
that i just let them burn

till my chest is on fire
and my head just wont die
i guess im lying cos i wanna
i guess im lying cos i dont
cos i just feel so tired
like its move or slowly die
you aint you when youre like this
this aint you and you know it
but aint that just the point

you dont know
how to let go
who said this must be all or nothing
but im
still caught below
and ill never let you know
no i cant tell you nothing

cos im a fucking mess sometimes
but still i could always be
whatever you wanted
but not what you needed
especially when you been needing me
cos im a fucking mess sometimes
and ill say what i dont mean
just cos i wanted
or maybe i need it
swear lyings the only rush i need

cos all i needed was some words to say
that all these feelings dont mean shit to me
cos its all just chemicals anyway
anyway
and i got way to many routes to take
to make this all just go away
and find another heart to break
so heartless with the words i say
just saying what im supposed to say
cos i had nothing for you
i cant love when i cant even love myself
things i would rather be thoughts at the back of my head but im addicted to hurting
and i got these lungs
and I spent too many late nights
thinking a hole in the earth

till the sky is on fire
and my head still wont die
i guess im lying cos i want to
i guess im lying cos i dont
cos i just feel so tired
like i need something to come alive
she said you aint you when youre like this
this aint you what you done?
and i said thats the point

you dont know how to let go
who said this must be all or nothing
but im still caught bellow
and ill never let you know
no i cant tell you nothing

cos im a fucking mess sometimes
but still i could always be
whatever you wanted
but not what you needed
especially when you been needing me
cos im a fucking mess inside
and ill say what i dont mean
just cos i wanted
or maybe i need it
swear lyings the only rush i need

/numb

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[VERSE I: SHAWTY BURN-A-CHURCH]

grey five nine signed
rough diamonds tryna shine
christ and i
$uicide
you know i'm diving head when crucified
lucifer cried when i told him i'm choosing to die
noose and a knife
but i ain't use the knife to loosen the noose 
keep it tight
abusin the truth that's a lie
fuck boy with a ski mask think he gon rob me blind
fuck boy better think fast when he cock the nine
fuck boy better sink back in that fuckin spine
second guessin crime
7th ward where i snort a slug and cross the fucking line
yet another line inside the cup
another line you should look up
another line that shook you up
i signed the line for lucifer

[VERSE II: NORTHSIDE SHAWTY]

five nine til i'm dead
bitch i'm grey til the death
never gave a fuck bout dyin no
even when i was a jit
pop a jig
load the rig with that motherfuckin china white
fuck it if i die tonight
im gambling with my fuckin life
west bank/northside til the coffin ride
who am i?
i am god
i am basquiat
yung kurt cobain with the scarred veins
mentally derranged
hear the crows say my name?
i'm just wastin my time
i'm just wastin my breath
why can't i just die?
why can't i go next?
why we get no respect?
why i loved holding tecs?
xanax bar on my neck
i pop em
pop em til death
this ain't no motherfuckin trend
everyday feels like the end
feed me, feed me medicine
so i can't feel my sins