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Artificial Dreams

a beautiful, hurtful life: chapter 2/30
read more about the song on my website: https://revenantmusic.net/#at-the-end-of-time

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art credits: me

In 2020, I lost a close family friend due to COVID-19. The last time I saw him was when he visited my family and me in late 2019. At the time I was studying for exams and didn't give him the time he needed and that was the last time I saw him.
In the past, I lost my grandparents in a similar manner.
'at the end of time' is an attempt to convey how I feel now. All the work did pay off, but at what cost? I could have everything I could ever want but would lose everyone in the process.
It taught me about how unfortunately anyone at any time could disappear, and that I should remember to put these people first and give them the love, time, and care they need.
Everything else in this world is temporary.

at the end of time
The family friend and my grandparents were some of the sweetest people that could ever have existed. They would always encourage me with everything I did, from music to my studies and would always make me feel like I was special.
My paternal grandmother was the last grandparent to live, and she passed away before I got a place at medical school, something that all of my grandparents dreamt of and encouraged me to pursue. At the time of writing this, I have finished my fifth year of medical school, done well in my exams, and won a scholarship, but they're not here to see it.
I wish you could see me now, I know I would've made you proud and I'm sorry I didn't give you more time. If you're out there, wherever you are, I hope you can see what I'm doing. This is all for you and I will be the best I can be for you.

lyrics:
[verse 1]
at what cost did i succeed?
by giving into my own greed

i didn't give the time you need 
and now you're no longer here

[bridge]
but now you are gone
and i keep thinking it's my fault 
i couldn't give you all my love
i don't know if i can keep going on

[chorus]
and i'll keep running away
so many things that i've wanted to say
i know that i'm to blame
i can't look back because i am ashamed

and at the end of time
i'll finally feel alive
nobody by my side
it's the end of a beautiful, hurtful life

[verse 2]
i want a way out
i hate how you're not around
i wish you could see me now
i know that i would've made you proud

[bridge]
but now you are gone
and i keep thinking it's my fault 
i couldn't give you all my love
i don't know if i can keep going on

[chorus]
and i'll keep running away
so many things that i've wanted to say
i know that i'm to blame
i can't look back because i am ashamed

and at the end of time
i'll finally feel alive
nobody by my side
it's the end of a beautiful, hurtful life

a beautiful, yet hurtful life

at the end of time

download

this is literally unfinished but i cant be bothered

uncolourful bass

It's sink or swim!!!

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fault lines
plates all start to shake, i feel them
break ground while i break down and hide away
sometimes
i wish i could be social
don't wanna smell like isopropyl anymore

and the circles that i wear
could've come from anywhere
and no one seems the wiser
don't think anybody cares

studying the patterns in the floor
cuz i can't stare in the mirror
i'm beside myself

(you said, are you sad)
(you said, are you sad, you said)
(you said, are you sad, you said)
(you said, are you sad, yeah)

and right now it's sink or swim
cuz i got tired of rowing
let the waves carry me
i don't know where i'm going
and i tried to love myself
even though it seemed so pointless
i'm sorry, i can't, i already committed
to being a disappointment

and the circles that i wear
could've come from anywhere
and no one seems the wiser
don't think anybody cares

studying the patterns in the floor
cuz i can't stare in the mirror
i'm beside myself

(you said, are you sad)
(you said, are you sad, you said)
(you said, are you sad, you said)
(you said, are you sad, yeah)

i'm here again, here again
(mm, yeah yeah)
i'm here again, here again
i'm here again, here again
(mm, yeah yeah)
i'm here again, oh

Fault Lines

hey! i decided to throw together a track created from a bunch of my favorite songs. the idea with this one was just to let myself have fun and not worry about the intricacies that normally hold me down. if you like this song or my music in general,  you should definitely check out the source material :)

every track in order of appearance:
https://soundcloud.com/laxcitymusic/grateful
https://soundcloud.com/airuei/aquamarine
https://soundcloud.com/jaronsteele/love-in-every-single-way
https://soundcloud.com/porter-robinson/mirror
https://soundcloud.com/korewakosu/hoopla
https://soundcloud.com/duumu/paralysed
https://soundcloud.com/bitbird/acloudyskye-n33t-nothing-else
https://soundcloud.com/jaronsteele/escape
https://soundcloud.com/defsharp/flower-bed [where the track started :)]
https://soundcloud.com/grantsongs/wishes-feat-mccall
https://soundcloud.com/xavimakesmusic/tennyson-crybird-xavi-remix
https://soundcloud.com/dobitwo/your-favorite-sidekick-a-remix-for-underscores-x-8485
https://soundcloud.com/webcage/actor
https://soundcloud.com/04collective/rusherz-before-you-go
https://soundcloud.com/jaronsteele/only-for-a-moment
https://soundcloud.com/ebumusicc/cosmology-of-the-shapes
https://soundcloud.com/underscores/everybodysdead

and sadkey - ought for the cover art ;)

ICONS

loud


Fragile: https://soundcloud.com/cactusflowermusic/fragile

Cactus Flower: https://soundcloud.com/cactusflowermusic

nerd: https://soundcloud.com/itsr3v

fair dawn x cactus flower - fragile (R3V Remix)

where do we go?

https://soundcloud.com/akiraflay
https://soundcloud.com/jayparmesan

Lyrics:

[Jay Parmesan]
Wildflower, roses
The wind will not follow you home
Sitting on branches,
The forest your throne
Treetops are seesaws,
I cannot see what you have gone,
Now I’m alone

Lost me in thickets and paintbrushes,
So overgrown
Colored by scarlet, no stranger to thorns
Faint glow of white that you left here,
Is keeping me warm, my only repose

There’s a moon child,
She’s somewhere out there,
Waiting for me,
Wrapped up in sheets,
Of silver and gold and precious debris
Calling to me
Calling to me

She says,
“I love you, I love you”
How softly she speaks,
“Come set me free! Find me alone, dancing in shadows of the willow tree”
How sweetly she pleads

Moon child
Are you waiting for me
Are you waiting for me
Are you waiting for me
Moon child
Are you waiting for me
Are you waiting for me
Are you waiting for me

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

[Akira Flay]
Static electricity, one touch
And I’m free falling on my knees,
Heart fucked
Underneath I’m bleeding deep,
I hear you calling
Calling out to me
Living in my head for free, you’re stuck,
While I’m trying to living out my dreams,
Soul crushed
Baby you’re the air I breathe,
I want it all, wanna give more than I take

[Jay Parmesan]
Moon child
Are you waiting for me
Are you waiting for me
Are you waiting for me
Moon child
Are you waiting for me
Are you waiting for me
Are you waiting for me

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

//listen//

MOON_CHILD (feat. Jay Parmesan & Akira Flay)

https://linktr.ee/ColorParade

This won second place behind https://soundcloud.com/idkcovi - super emotional remix!
Shoutout to: 
https://soundcloud.com/phrazian who has helped me with several songs and took my pea shooter mix and turned it into a monster. He is my Tom Norris

https://soundcloud.com/windoh-music/140-never-had-wind-oh-remix-v23-32bit

https://soundcloud.com/tsuyoshia/duumu-never-had-feat-meggie-york-tsuyoshi-a-remix

Duumu - 'Never Had' (feat. Meggie York) (Color Parade Remix)

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CASH 4 GUNS

hi
first track of 2021

original: https://soundcloud.com/worldslastgarden/morning-flower

-evan

lyrics.
I just want to know
Is this all you have before I go
It's crazy and sure I'm uncertain
But the places i want to be are worth it

How long do I have (I'm going)
How long will it take (I'm trying)
I just want the time and the pain that it needs to pay off
At the end

Could I be trying too hard
As I fall in my dreams
But again I'll say "I'll stand again"
Before my time is up

How long do I have (I'm going)
How long will it take (I'm trying)
I just want the time and the pain that it needs to pay off
In the end

How long will I have (I'm running)
How long can I take (I'm trying)
After all my life can only last so long
I'll be okay, hey

Fault Lines

sorryshape