Fighting The Urge [+ shrpnss]

instrumental, vocals and artwork by me

Under the moonlight, I'm thinking of you and I 
I finally have what i need for the first time in my life
We barely see each other and it's all fine
When you'll see my growth i want you to be surprised

Don't look in my eyes
You'll see the abyss
The darkest of thougts 
Oh please don't look at this

Never look at this

Focus on the positive and don't ask me too much about my fights
EVERY FUCKING DAY I FEEL LIKE THEY WANT TO END MY LIFE
I'm playing with your hair, making sure you can feel safe
EVERY JOKE YOU MAKE MAKES ME FEEL IN DANGER

I SEE STRANGERS, I'M READY TO PULL OUT MY KNIFE
THEY COULD LOCK ME UP IF THEY HEARD MY THOUGTS
I CAN'T TRUST A SOUL THEY COULD MAKE ME DIE
I'M ACTING LIKE I'M OKAY WHEN I TALK TO YOUR MOM ...

T'as pas besoin de savoir tout ça
Tu crois connaitre mes secrets mais c'est bien trop grave
Si un jour tu me fuis je t'en voudrais pas
Ma psy m'a bien dit que j'étais trop dangereux pour mon entourage

On m'a menacé de m'enfermer mais j'suis bon qu'à esquiver
J'veux de mal à personne donc je m'enferme dans mes pensées
CHAQUE ETOILE DANS LE CIEL EST MORTE
LAQUELLE DE MES VOIX SERA LA PLUS FORTE ??? 

Focus on the positive and don't ask me too much about my fights
EVERY FUCKING DAY I FEEL LIKE THEY WANT TO END MY LIFE
I'm playing with your hair, making sure you can feel safe
EVERY JOKE YOU MAKE MAKES ME FEEL IN DANGER

I SEE STRANGERS, I'M READY TO PULL OUT MY KNIFE
THEY COULD LOCK ME UP IF THEY HEARD MY THOUGTS
I CAN'T TRUST A SOUL THEY COULD MAKE ME DIE
I'M ACTING LIKE I'M OKAY WHEN I TALK TO YOUR MOM ...

CHAQUE ETOILE DANS LE CIEL EST MORTE
LAQUELLE DE MES VOIX SERA LA PLUS FORTE ???

I CAN'T TRUST A SOUL

i'm always outside in the cold
i don't wanna live this way
it's not enough when i do the most
it's so hard to breathe this way

spending all off my dough i grinded for to mix up my drink
i'm a better hustler if i do the work and i don't think
if you're tryna waste my time then idgaf bout ur kinks
the proximity has faded away with all of my old links

I'm afraid for my liver, this shit could kill me if i don't pay attention
She got a boyfriend but when i look her in the eyes she can feel all the tension
Why do i think they like me, everybody disappears i should learn the lesson yes
Avoid me like a menace yeah


life got no meaning
It's fucking with my feelings
I hate my inner demons
But i do this for a reason

Fear's blockin you but fear is my fuel
They're doubtin me but i know what i do 

Doubt me, fuck this, fuck all of you
All the racism fucked with my youth
So much blood i tried killing myself
But none of this can fix my mood

You doubted, it worked, it's thanks to me
I know i'm lucky but i put in the work
Why do i do all of this to myself
I should stop eating i wanna throw up all the food

fucking terrified i feel like they could end my life
i feel like a slave in a golden cell
i know they don't really wish me well
they could do what the fuck they want
shh i can't fucking talk
you ask what the fuck i mean
then i will have to shut the fuck up

I can't rest here in my bed
It's been fucking with my head
Sometimes i would love to rest
But slowing down means my death

I can't rest here in my bed
It's been fucking with my head
Sometimes i would love to rest
But slowing down means my death

SLOWING DOWN MEANS MY DEATH [PROD. INTOTHEPARADOX]

@evertheghost

(nevrwrld)
Don’t try and captivate my soul 
Don’t wanna fight
Please take it slow 

To late gotta keep it low 
To late gotta keep it low 

I ain’t messing the problems in my head 
Take my breath and punch me in the chest 

Pull my tongue and rip it out my head 
Take my heart rip it in a half 

You try to invite him over 
Got 3 screenshots from last October 
Don’t lie to my face 

you know you ain’t right
You know you ain’t right

I exercise my full right 
To keep on dying inside 

Please take your stupid thoughts
And shove them right up your ass 

Your always so full of shit 
I tried my best to make things right 

You fill my head with harmful thoughts 
And act so innocent in the dark 

I’m so tired of falling 
I’m so damn exhausted 

I cry so damn often 
My life keeps on falling 

(Ever The Ghost)
no peace
no remorse
only a flame to devour a forest
no remnants of life
captivate me on a fast decline
opening portals
unlocking powers
restless souls
all figure out after hours
lost and searching for my soul as it roams
got me backed in a corner
I just want to be alone

(nevrwrld)
Don’t try and captivate my soul 
Don’t wanna fight
Please take it slow 

To late gotta keep it low 
To late gotta keep it low 

I ain’t messing the problems in my head 
Take my breath and punch me in the chest 

Pull my tongue and rip it out my head 
Take my heart rip it in a half

Captivate [+ sogimura]

lyrics:

For demons before me, you had me so blinding
I know what’s beside me, the moments are timing
My suffering’s gloaming, the pressure is homing
The rain is now pouring, i know where this is going

Take it slowly, drugs don’t hold me
Life is broken, i don’t love this
This is hopeless, why am i standing
Let me fall, yeah i want this
Gotta take my life, gotta take it now
I don’t wanna live, when the weight is high
Suffering deep, with the ocean tides
Closing walls, from the varied sides
I don’t wanna wake up, from a daydream
Let my nightmares, come and take me
Break me apart, see what’s in me
If you let go, i won’t feel safe
Don’t come near me, never love me
Love is breaking, my soul is shaking
Life is hazy, just cut me so deep
Come see me bleed, it’s what you need

For demons before me, you had me so blinding
I know what’s beside me, the moments are timing
My suffering’s gloaming, the pressure is homing
The rain is now pouring, i know where this is going

Anti-Love

i know where this is going. [xmichaelwarren]

lyrics:
Thoughts are in all my head
You were all in my head
Lost in what i would say
You were all in my head

Broken within dismay
You were all in my head
Emptiness in me
You were all in my head

Thoughts are in all my head
You were all in my head
Lost in what i would say
You were all in my head

objects in the mirror, are closer than they appear

you were all in my head. [+ guda]

[conituation of the song: "you were all in my head"]

lyrics:
Story of my life
And now you’re in my head
I know you play pretend
It’s funny that you lie

Don’t try and run away
You had me like a gun
Spider from a web
You tangle me with lies

Russian roulette, with my mind and soul
Never letting go, i’m feeling cold
Without a heart, i cannot move on
And with a thorn, picking on my side
Throw me off course, like a glider
I don’t wanna live beside her
Rip me apart like paper
Long as i never see her

Story of my life
And now you’re in my head
I know you play pretend
It’s funny that you lie

Don’t try and run away
You had me like a gun
Spider from a web
You tangle me with lies

Devil in details, paved in gold
Long lost story never told
You were never that much bold
With that much more you’re so cold
Melodrama in the heart
Longing for a restart
Just to rip me apart
Over nothing as its part

Story of my life
And now you’re in my head
I know you play pretend
It’s funny that you lie

Don’t try and run away
You had me like a gun
Spider from a web
You tangle me with lies

Objects in the Mirror, Are Closer Than They Appear

spider. [+ guda x happytears]

[Forever Means Forever] | 00:00-01:27
[Until the Day I Die] | 01:28-02:48

Forever means forever
If that was the case
Then why’d you leave me
I really need you
So cut up in two
Entrapped in silence
The feeling’s weeping
In deepened solitude

Forever means forever
If that was the case
Then why’d you leave me
I really need you
So cut up in two
Entrapped in silence
The feeling’s weeping
In deepened solitude

forever means forever/until the day i die. [+02ashes x weikoo]

l y r i c s 

.44 to my enemies (to my enemies)
That's what I wanna do
What I wanna do (what I wanna do)

Imma pull up with the AR for the drama
For the drama, for the drama
I don't wanna hurt anyone
I just want my feelings heard

When I see your face (when I see your face)
My mood sours like a warhead in my mouth
Put the Glock 42 right to your mouth
Let it blow let it splatter 
All around the house

See the blood all around the house
See the blood all around the house

sadtxnshi
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s o c i a l s
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f o l l o w m e t o v i c t o r y

. f o u r t y 4 w / sadtxnshi (slatervstheworld)

mix by ikiso & Kitten

mastered by Kitten

lyrics :

chorus (ikiso)

i can't feel a thing  now

i waste my time

gone away from all the lies

standing here, right in front of all 

screaming my pain, crying some cold blood

i don't wanna wake up

i just wanna hang  up

i just wanna pray to the sky i need 

something to get back on

my life, sad for so long 

verse (Kitten)

my life doesn’t feel worth it anymore

i can sense it burning deep into my core

i can tell there’s something going very wrong

in the end, i’ll probably just die alone

i just wish i could live in peace

i just wish i could leave this place

cause it’s taking my heart to a whole new pace

i feel like it’s been a while now

really need to sort all that out

i’m breaking down

i’m breaking down

chorus (ikiso)

i can't feel a thing  now

i waste my time

gone away from all the lies

standing here, right in front of all 

screaming my pain, crying some cold blood

i don't wanna wake up

i just wanna hang  up

i just wanna pray to the sky i need 

something to get back on

my life, sad for so long

can't feel a thing w/Kitten [prod. metlast]

mozart - extendo

@timeless-archive veteran
founder of @ghxstcollective (on hiatus)

Soulfade welcomes you through a music journey never witnessed before. Formerly known as Kid Skully from 2018 to 2020, he has the styles that are inspired by Emo & rock artists as well as some Emo rappers that inspired him more in a musical level. There are hinges of rock, hyperpop, jersey club, dance, indie, & shoegaze sounds are developed here in one sitting.

i know where this is going. [xmichaelwarren]

Soulfade (@soulfadexo)