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everything spaceboyry

i hope i'll see you soon

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the loss of a loved one, whether partner or former partner, and either from death or them leaving and moving on

[lyrics]
i'm only 17
i don't know anything
but i know that i miss you

you don't deserve me
i don't deserve you
please take your time
but know i won't be here forever

and watch me fall

i remember the way
you'd look me in my eyes
like no other
just for you
i'd run away
take you anywhere you want
but i won't be here forever

(but i won't be here forever)
just for you
i'd run away
take you anywhere you want

i'll take you everywhere
to the moon beyond
even though you're not here
i'll do it just for you
and join you up there

i hope i'll meet you up there
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genius explanation: https://genius.com/Nshvll-i-wont-be-here-forever-lyrics
(trigger warning)

in the first verse, it's the parter/former partner talking. they do miss kai, but couldn’t stay for whatever reason, also alluding to the fact they won’t be here forever. they’ll be dead or they’ll have moved on.

in the second verse, kai’s saying what they’d do if their former partner was still here, but also pointing at the fact they won’t be here forever either, but we don’t know why or how just yet.

in the buildup, kai is losing his grip on reality and is breaking down. he can’t take it anymore, but he’s still holding on to the memories and moments that made it all, reiterating that they’ll “run away” just for them. but again, you hear “i won’t be here forever” because they won’t be here forever either.

kai comes back once more in the outro and ends it off themselves, saying they hope they’ll meet their partner/former partner up there in heaven when they’ve died of old age or suicide.

i won't be here forever

you want it all don't you...

recorded by: @spaceboyry
mixed by: @spaceboyry
produced by: @okmax and @1ggbrl
mastered by: @counterxo

Run Away (You're To Blame)

none of it matters if we're all gonna fall

death stare dont care whats gonna happen
great big world that she felt really trapped in
but she had no time to make a mistake
couldnt pay any mind to taking a break

she never got any time to herself
she never got to go where she was felt
her life turned into a big show and tell
before she knew it she was the one that had fell

and im scared to tell my friends

fall

i get it okay |☆ siemspark + daks9k ☆|

I tried so many things
Oh, yes I did
But all of that didn't work out in the end
I wanted many things
Oh, yes I did
But now I'm on my own now yet again

I can't be
Myself and daydream
I'm tryna work it out
You gotta know
Some things you can't see
Are just eating me
It's just eating me, it's just eating me

Swear it's not your fault
It's always been this way
But it's not what you said
It's what you didn't say
Swear it's not your fault
It's always been this way
But it's not what you said
It's what you didn't say

(Didn't say, didn't say)
It's what you didn't say
(Didn't say, didn't say)
It's what you didn't say
(Didn't say, didn't say)
It's what you didn't say
(Didn't say, didn't say)
It's what you didn't say

I'm tryna say some things
You know I did
I'm feeling the same way yet again
I don't wanna see
How I pretend
That I can control it in the end

I can't be
Myself and daydream
I'm tryna work it out
You gotta know
Some things you can't see
Are just eating me
It's just eating me, it's just eating me

Swear it's not your fault
It's always been this way
But it's not what you said
It's what you didn't say
Swear it's not your fault
It's always been this way
But it's not what you said
It's what you didn't say

(Didn't say, didn't say)
It's what you didn't say
(Didn't say, didn't say)
It's what you didn't say
(Didn't say, didn't say)
It's what you didn't say
(Didn't say, didn't say)
It's what you didn't say

(Didn't say, didn't say)
(Didn't say, didn't say)

It's what you didn't say
It's what you didn't say
(Didn't say, didn't say)
It's what you didn't say
(Didn't say, didn't say)
It's what you didn't say

Stream

it's what you didn't say

@cybertrash
play pretend - prod. cybertrash
mastered by YAKI
REDEYE (demo) - prod. DvDx, Juberlee, Glyph, cybertrash, YAKI
mastered by YAKI

https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/cybertrash/play-pretend

play pretend

caffeine

im sorry 
thats what im gonna say
so fuck it i dont care anyways
like why should i care
nobodys ever there
(nobodys ever there)
you tear me to pieces
im leaving you said
but you know im sorry cause

IMA ALWAYS FUCK IT UP

you said (demo)

brakence - layaway (cover)

all that i wanted for christmas was you w/ counter (frozy + wintfye)

yea lets take a walk in the snow...

music video: https://youtu.be/T0Sq9FPwzco?si=JqUvXWqTbkS2M1KY

snowy stars in 2023 ! 🎄❄️✨ |☆ okmax + ggabriel ☆| [MV IN DESC]

prod me


[hook]

i just walked out the door, i’ll be right there 
took a lot to get off the floor, know you don’t care
don’t know when i’ll give up the act it’s a nightmare
just want you to cut me some slack cuz it’s not fair

that were not close (it don’t feel like enough)
now a days i’m so far gone (i don’t wanna wake up)
i don’t wanna wait too long
i wonder if you hear my songs (i’m right here yea)

[verse]

take me away, get me out of this place
i wanna see you today, i wanna be in your space

i can be your puppet
while you control the strings
am i out of luck yet
i don’t know what to think

nah nah nah i cant handle all this pressure
i placed my boundaries and then i broke the threshold

so now i pay up the cost
until i get this to stop
i wish i was i wasn’t so good
at taking loss after loss

i often lay away awake at night looking back on the days
looking back at the photos in august that we would take 
were those feelings artificial i don’t know what to say
cuz all this miscommunication makes me think it was fake

[hook]

i just walked out the door, i’ll be right there 
took a lot to get off the floor, know you don’t care
don’t know when i’ll give up the act it’s a nightmare
just want you to cut me some slack cuz it’s not fair

that were not close (it don’t feel like enough)
now a days i’m so far gone (i don’t wanna wake up)
i don’t wanna wait too long
i wonder if you hear my songs (i’m right here yea)

far gone |☆ spaceboyry ☆|

produced by jewelryboy

lyrics:

tired of laying alone
quiet like the fall of the snow

can’t get out of my head
what does it matter i don’t make any sense

i get up then im knocked down
im talkin fall out how do i crawl out

im expected just show up
i wanna throw up thinkin of what ive become

i wanna know how to heal
they say it takes time but since i was a little kid i’ve been stuck in my feels

i blamed it all on the girls 
drowning myself with poison took over my world

i wanna burn to the ground
always neglected 
just please listen to my sound

tired of laying alone
quiet like the fall of the snow

fall of the snow

i love you all so much.
thank you for always being there for me <3

Song title - Reckless
Production & Vocals by Lund

Lyrics: 

Reckless
Stole my heart
And put it on a necklace 
Wind back the clock baby girl 
time is precious 
Now I know that loving you 
a death wish 
Tell me how it feels to 
take advantage of love 

Restless
Your voice inside my head
The echo endless
Let down my guard 
Every time i regret it
Even tho i know you were pretending
when i said i loved you
I meant it

Numb inside
photos on the wall 
I can’t stand the sight 
Cause every where I look 
I see you and I
It’s tourture baby
I don’t even feel alive
I can’t even cry 
Hole inside 
My heart
You took advantage 
Of my trust Oh why’d 
you have to ruin
All our memories 
I tried everything 
To keep you by my side 
But I can’t love a lie

come back 
Quit wasting time on love you know that won’t last
When this hearts only for you 
I could show that 
in everything I do for you 
you’d know that
All of me 
I’ll give to you 
Won’t hold back 
Trust in us 
Oh I believe 
We’ll grow that 
Anytime you need me 
I’ll be right there
I been here before 
I know your scared 
your heart im tryin repair
Cause I know that love is

Reckless
Stole my heart
And put it on a necklace 
Wind back the clock baby girl 
time is precious 
Now I know that loving you 
a death wish 
Tell me how it feels to 
take advantage of love 

Restless
Your voice inside my head
The echo endless
Let down my guard 
Every time i regret it
Even tho i know you were pretending
when i said i loved you
I meant it

Silhouette of you 
Playin on a loop in my head 
It was all a ruse 
Didn’t mean a word that you said 
I gave you my heart 
you wanted my soul instead 
This an sos but no one here to save me 
I’m dead 

Caught up in a lie 
Can’t forget the words you said 
The way you made me feel 
Even it’s all pretend 
Poison in my veins 
I can never trust again 
Look into my eyes 
I want you to see what you 

Did To me 
tried but I can’t erase all our history 
haunts me everyday I live in misery 
Without you I have nothing but our memories 
Life is like a puzzle
Your the missing piece
Now I’m so confused 
On where I need to be 
Searching for the answer
But it’s plain to see
We weren’t meant to be 
Baby I’m just tryin figure out 
How you could be so 

Reckless
Stole my heart
And put it on a necklace 
Wind back the clock baby girl 
time is precious 
Now I know that loving you 
a death wish 
Tell me how it feels to 
take advantage of love 

Restless
Your voice inside my head
The echo endless
Let down my guard 
Every time i regret it
Even tho i know you were pretending
when i said i loved you
I meant it