[Hook]
This ain’t living, it’s survival on repeat 
Carrying a coffin that was handed down to me, ay 
I don’t want the ending, I just want release 
But the harder I fight, the harder it feeds

[Verse 1]
Been crying all morning feel like I’m stuck in mourning 
mourning a life I never got to live grieving a future I had to give back
yeah I’m sad like I’m in my head like wish I were dead like that’s what I said like 
and I don’t mean it like ending it all I mean I need a break from carrying walls 
I mean if I could just be done that’d be enough but the minutes don’t stop they just double the cost 
and I’m lost in a loop with the guilt on repeat 
like no matter what I’ve done I got nothing to keep 
and I’m tired of the silence that they sell as peace 
it’s a leash in my throat and it won’t release me

[Bass drop]
(...)

[Hook]
This ain’t living, it’s survival on repeat 
Carrying a coffin that was handed down to me 
I don’t want the ending, I just want release 
But the harder I fight it, the harder it feeds

This ain’t living, it’s survival on repeat 
Carrying a coffin that was handed down to me 
I don’t want the ending, I just want release 
But the harder I fight it, the harder it feeds, yeah

[Verse 2]
Every breath like a debt every step like a bruise 
every scar in my chest like a bill I can’t choose 
and the truth is I’m breaking but they call it “you’re strong” 
like a badge for the suffering I been wearing too long 
and I’m sick of the script that they hand to the sick 
take the pill, take the blame, take the weight, make it quick 
but my bones don’t forget and my nerves don’t forgive 
and the curse in my blood says this how we live

[Bridge – spiral build]
Not dead but I’m not alive either (either either)
ghost in the mirror 
can’t fight what I inherit 
so I carry it nearer 
to the marrow to the name to the wound I repeat 
every step in her shadow like it’s glued to my feet 
(My feet, my feet, my feet)

[Bass drop]
(...)

[Final Hook – layered/screamed]  
Yeah,
This ain’t living, it’s survival on repeat  
Carrying a coffin that was handed down to me  
I don’t want the ending, I just want release  
But the harder I fight it, the harder it feeds, yeah

This ain’t living, it’s survival on repeat  
Carrying a coffin that was handed down to me  
I don’t want the ending, I just want release  
But the harder I fight it, the harder it feeds, yeah

But the harder I fight it, the harder it feeds, yeah

Oh
Oh oh oh oh
Oh
Oh oh oh oh

[Verse 3]  
Been crying all morning feel like I’m stuck in mourning  
mourning a life I never got to live grieving a future I had to give back
yeah I’m sad like I’m in my head like wish I were dead like that’s what I said like  
and I don’t mean it like ending it all I mean I need a break from carrying walls  
I mean if I could just be done that’d be enough...

[Hook]  
This ain’t living, it’s survival on repeat  
Carrying a coffin that was handed down to me  
I don’t want the ending, I just want release  
But the harder I fight it, the harder it feeds, yeah

But the harder I fight it, the harder it feeds, yeah

But the harder I fight....

But the harder I fight it, the harder it feeds

The harder it feeds

Survival on Repeat

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