your voice beautiful.
It's like being shot with a shotgun.

(p. nick axel kauffman)

I can't talk about it
To anyone I know
I can’t take care of me
So I take care of you
I hate the way I act
I'm always on attack
And still hate where I'm at
I still hate that—

It's not the way it was, not the way it was
And there’s nothing you can do about it
It's not the way it was, not the way it was
And there’s nothing you can do about it

I don’t know where I am
I don't know where to lay my head
I misplaced you again
I love to waste the time I spend
I keep flipping the switch
I don’t know where I'm supposed to live
I paid to learn in bed
And now I'm losing all my sense

I hate every place I go
Can't go home
Got diagnosed
Miss being alone
But I hated being alone
Whenever I wanna go back
I get there and wanna leave again
I see problems in everything
You just hate it everywhere

It's not the way it was, not the way it was
And there’s nothing you can do about it
It's not the way it was, not the way it was
And there’s nothing you can do about it

I don’t know where I am
I don't know where to lay my head
I misplaced you again
I love to waste the time I spend
I keep flipping the switch
I don’t know where I'm supposed to live
I paid to learn in bed
And now I'm losing all my sense

You are never as young as you want to be
Always looking for something that isn’t there
Can’t leave it behind
Although I know how hard you have tried
You know you won’t ever find

I don’t know where I am
I don't know where to lay my head
I misplaced you again
I love to waste the time I spend
I keep flipping the switch
I don’t know where I'm supposed to live
I paid to learn in bed
And now I'm losing all my sense

i can't go back home

p. jae luna, simon levine

It’s okay I guess
Why do you have to act so nonchalant instead of being honest?
(Why do you?)
I’m sitting in my room again, wondering what I did wrong
(What to do?)
I’ve cried what a waste of tears
What a waste of years of my life
(What a waste of years of my life)

It was you who always wanted to see me
And it was you who said you wanted to be with me
And I’m trying not to make it a big deal
But now I've met you and nothing else feels real

It was you who said we need to get closer
And it was you who kept begging me come over
And I'm trying not to make it a big deal
But my head can’t help from making a big deal

Everything you said upset you
Everything you said made you sad
Every time I made a mistake, I apologized
But you won’t do the same
I take the blame

It was you who always wanted to see me
And it was you who said you wanted to be with me
And I’m trying not to make it a big deal
But now I've met you and nothing else feels real

It was you who said we need to get closer
And it was you who kept begging me come over
And I'm trying not to make it a big deal
But my head can’t help from making a big deal

Big deal

Big Deal

p. reesoo

guess it’s easier to love you than i thought
guess it’s easier to break my heart than not
kissing lying lips just waiting to get caught
i know it’s gonna hurt real bad, but i can’t stop

and now we’re just friends
and i will never be the girl that you want again

i don’t want you back, but i don’t want nobody else
i don’t want you back, i don’t want nobody else
i don’t want you back, but i don’t want nobody else
i don’t want you back, but i don’t want nobody else
no, no, no, no, no

i think i love you even though you’re not my type
i think i love every single thing about you
i love it when you call, i hate it when you go
i love it when you talk, i hate it when we don’t
now it’s just me in my room, sitting all alone
i hate picking up the phone
i know your name won’t be there
did you get what you wanted?
did you love it? did you love it?

and now we’re just friends
and i will never be the girl you want again
and i think i might let it all go, but i still don’t know
i still don’t

i don’t want you back, but i don’t want nobody else
i don’t want you back, i don’t want nobody else
i don’t want you back, but i don’t want nobody else
i don’t want you back, but i don’t want nobody else
no, no, no, no
i don’t want you back, but i don’t want nobody else
no, no, no, no, no

Nobody Else

part 8 of 11

produced by wishlane
mixed + mastered by @st1cksyea
art by me + @myridmusic

lyrics https://genius.com/Wishlane-nosebleed-lyrics

nosebleed

listen somewhere else

i do not want the fame for this shit 

prod. me + @soupandreas
mix/master: soupandreas
cover art: me + soup

therapy performance video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jEbc1wKL0X0 shot by 4x4shotthat x shesodan


lyrics: 

fuck

I do not want the fame for this shit, I don’t wanna be to blame
Seeing blood-shot, red tears in my eyes, you could see the pain 
And i gave you my all gave my heart you let it break
When you know that I tried, I know that you were "trying" too
But if it’s bout the shit I go through, you wouldn’t know
Yeah my heart was still warm, now its gone, left in the cold
With the tears in my eyes can’t all dry up on their own
And I’m out here all alone and it's difficult

the shit I'd do for you
god knows I'd move a mountain
if we flipped the point of view
god knows you'd live without it

if you told me that you didn't care I'd believe it
if you asked how I'm doing I'm fine I'm just grieving, yeah

woke up, dreading, maybe I'm losing my head
cold and begging 
fuck your words I'll leave them read

yeah, fuck your words I'll leave them read

these days I been figuring it out on my own
minding my business
don't matter what they think cause when I speak they're listening
I think I just need to pivot to different shit
neither dying or living it could've changed my mind
I held my silence and after it 
you act like you weren't the antagonist
just one talk is enough 
hope my chest don't erupt
cause you realize that I was always someone that you can't love

fuck
I do not want the fame for this shit, I don’t wanna be to blame
Seeing blood-shot, red tears in my eyes, you could see the pain 
And i gave you my all gave my heart you let it break
When you know that I tried, I know that you were "trying" too
But if it’s bout the shit I go through, you wouldn’t know
Yeah my heart was still warm, now its gone, left in the cold
With the tears in my eyes can’t all dry up on their own
but I’m out here all alone 

and I knew that we wouldn't last but I'm trying not to chalk it up to wasted time
it's not you, it wasn't me, it was our state of minds
who's to say I'm fine?
the lines were crossed, diving us, but intertwine

the shit i'd do for you
god knows i'd move a mountain
if we flipped the point of view
god knows you'd live without it

fuck
I do not want the fame for this shit, I don’t wanna be to blame
Seeing blood-shot, red tears in my eyes, you could see the pain 
And i gave you my all gave my heart you let it break
When you know that I tried, I know that you were "trying" too
But when it comes to shit I go through, you wouldn’t know
Yeah my heart was still warm, now its gone, left in the cold
With the tears in my eyes can’t all dry up on their own
And I’m out here all alone and it's difficult

if you told me that you didn't care I'd believe it
if you asked how I'm doing I'm fine I'm just grieving, yeah

woke up, dreading, maybe I'm losing my head
cold and begging 
fuck your words I'll leave them read

performance video

spilt milk

need a break

all these people around they just staring at me
betting all this pressure you get what you deserve 
just waiting for this week to loop again
and now i get the reason why i fucked it up
you left to rot i didnt forget 
and i just thought about it i dont think your my friend
i see it up there
you tryna mess with my friends thats no cool at all 
i cant wait to see you fall
wish i could disapear 
you tryna mess my head on the phone tryna call
how could you just fake your love

i wake up i got back in my bed now the days gone
i hate love all the same cus we break up
i got stains on my bed cus the makeup.  4x

you dont understand what mean to me
your my looooooooooooooooooove

you dont understand what mean to me
your my looooooooooooooooooove

backing away from everything

LYRICS

stumbling backwards till i fall
bitter through the storm
terrified of whats to come
i cant see my own

[X2] oooooo dont you know
it’ll all work out 
oooooo dont you know 
it’ll all work out 

carry me down the river 
never going under thats what ill say
knowing that im lying
never care to try
tell me that im drowing 
i wont look at why

oooooo dont you know
it’ll all work out 
oooooo dont you know 
it’ll all work out

the river

damn this bitch stuck as fuck /:

prod, mixed, & mastered by @colecalico
epic guitars by @dezforman + @soutjay
absolute angels for putting up with me :*

enjoy my 2nd ever song

lyrics:
when i see
a dead body
i think of you
don't usually
think of nobody
look what you've turned me to
(can you see what i see?)

obsessive little girl
get some sleep
take your meds today
it’s all in your head
don't you know
he don't reciprocate 

i'm stuck
so what
shut up
i can do what i want
i'm stuck stuck stuck stuck stuck stuck stuck stuck
stuck stuck stuck stuck stuck stuck stuck stuck 
stuck stuck stuck stuck stuck stuck stuck stuck 
stuck stuck stuck stuck stuck stuck stuck stuck 
(i'm sticking, i'm sticking, i'm stuck)

signs
watching the clock
2:22 time to fess up
(breathe me in)
i must admit
you were pretty permanent 
bouts of uncertainty
you can be certain that
tether got a hold on me
you can be sure of that

bind my hands
string me up
nail me to the cross
devil doing dance
i can't sleep no more
thanks a lot
turn me to a song
(what would you do, would you keep on sleeping?)
in between the lines
(7 missed calls in the night)
hostages
(i'm bleeding out)
the problem is
i thought you’d fade but you were pretty permanent

i'm stuck
so what
get fucked
and leave me alone
i'm stuck stuck stuck stuck stuck stuck stuck stuck
stuck stuck stuck stuck stuck stuck stuck stuck
stuck stuck stuck stuck stuck stuck stuck stuck
stuck stuck stuck stuck stuck stuck stuck stuck

never did i think that
you wouldn’t be right here
i'm waging a war, lets go back to before 
i'm sticking, i'm sticking, i'm stuck
you know i'm not the type to
get so hung up
you could glue me down if you want
i'm sticking, i'm sticking, i'm 

stuck

#!? #embarrassing

stuck!?

with @9nasu
i used the fly in the wind
i used to sing with all of my friends
but suddenly i descend

you don't wanna see this
when i don't feel like breathing
and when i close my eyes
i can barely catch sleep
i can barely feel

i won't waste your time
i won't be online
i’m trying to make it right
i'll still be home

i know it will be just fine
know i can't go, no i can't forget you
i know it will be just fine
know i can't go, no i can't just run away

i used the fly in the wind
i used to sing with all of my friends

i'll make it alright
find me home, i know it will be just fine
know i can't go, no i can't forget you
i know it will be just fine
know i can't go

when i don't feel like breathing
and when i close my eyes
i can barely catch sleep
i can barely feel

i won't waste your time
i won't be online
i’m trying to make it right
i'll still be on

i'll still be alright
i know it will be just fine
know i can't go, no i can't forget you
i know it will be just fine
no i can't go

mourning dove with nasu

prod. me

i move, i move flawless
talk down to my brothers 
we gon' pop shit
telling me to shut up
i ain't toxic 
yea, find the key to shit
but i ain't lock it 
up ...
i don't move back
they know that i'm done
why you so mad? 
why you so sad? 
did you think i'm dumb?
if you doubt yourself ...
guess i already won 

i could NEVER fail
do this shit twice
i don't need help
yea, you see me goin up 
don't know how to feel
yea the message still stands
HOPE YOU GET WELL

cuz i move i move flawless
cuz i move i move flawless
cuz i move i move flawless
i move. 

[-50]

flawless

thank you @tevinmichaelr for support and help :>


you have got it figured out
what’s this transformation about 
i wish i knew what you knew
i wish i do what you do
maybe casual and in passing
but i reckon i’m just wasting too much time

and now, would i make you my boo thing
and you’re asking me why like you’re clueless
cuz i got feelings and the truth is
i want you to be mine
so stop playing around with me
my hearts breaking can’t you see
all the love you want, i’d give it to you
but when it’s my turn, you’re acting brand new 

what can i do, if i’m not the one
do you rather want me on the road, if i’m not the one

think i could be your boyfriend
the one who’s too afraid to sing
cuz i see you often 
trying to do the same thing, as me
waiting for you to ask me
the part that i could have played
that i could have played 

and now, would i make you my boo thing
and you’re asking me why like you’re clueless
cuz i got feelings and the truth is
i want you to be mine
so stop playing around with me
my hearts breaking can’t you see
all the love you want, i’d give it to you
but when it’s my turn, you’re acting brand new 

i can do better, be better

Big Deal

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