I really like how there’s almost a hint of imogen heap vibes in this, so good

This is amazing, I legit started listening to you tonight and instantly became a fan,🖤

(p. nick axel kauffman)

I can't talk about it
To anyone I know
I can’t take care of me
So I take care of you
I hate the way I act
I'm always on attack
And still hate where I'm at
I still hate that—

It's not the way it was, not the way it was
And there’s nothing you can do about it
It's not the way it was, not the way it was
And there’s nothing you can do about it

I don’t know where I am
I don't know where to lay my head
I misplaced you again
I love to waste the time I spend
I keep flipping the switch
I don’t know where I'm supposed to live
I paid to learn in bed
And now I'm losing all my sense

I hate every place I go
Can't go home
Got diagnosed
Miss being alone
But I hated being alone
Whenever I wanna go back
I get there and wanna leave again
I see problems in everything
You just hate it everywhere

It's not the way it was, not the way it was
And there’s nothing you can do about it
It's not the way it was, not the way it was
And there’s nothing you can do about it

I don’t know where I am
I don't know where to lay my head
I misplaced you again
I love to waste the time I spend
I keep flipping the switch
I don’t know where I'm supposed to live
I paid to learn in bed
And now I'm losing all my sense

You are never as young as you want to be
Always looking for something that isn’t there
Can’t leave it behind
Although I know how hard you have tried
You know you won’t ever find

I don’t know where I am
I don't know where to lay my head
I misplaced you again
I love to waste the time I spend
I keep flipping the switch
I don’t know where I'm supposed to live
I paid to learn in bed
And now I'm losing all my sense

i can't go back home

p. jae luna, simon levine

It’s okay I guess
Why do you have to act so nonchalant instead of being honest?
(Why do you?)
I’m sitting in my room again, wondering what I did wrong
(What to do?)
I’ve cried what a waste of tears
What a waste of years of my life
(What a waste of years of my life)

It was you who always wanted to see me
And it was you who said you wanted to be with me
And I’m trying not to make it a big deal
But now I've met you and nothing else feels real

It was you who said we need to get closer
And it was you who kept begging me come over
And I'm trying not to make it a big deal
But my head can’t help from making a big deal

Everything you said upset you
Everything you said made you sad
Every time I made a mistake, I apologized
But you won’t do the same
I take the blame

It was you who always wanted to see me
And it was you who said you wanted to be with me
And I’m trying not to make it a big deal
But now I've met you and nothing else feels real

It was you who said we need to get closer
And it was you who kept begging me come over
And I'm trying not to make it a big deal
But my head can’t help from making a big deal

Big deal

Big Deal

p. reesoo

guess it’s easier to love you than i thought
guess it’s easier to break my heart than not
kissing lying lips just waiting to get caught
i know it’s gonna hurt real bad, but i can’t stop

and now we’re just friends
and i will never be the girl that you want again

i don’t want you back, but i don’t want nobody else
i don’t want you back, i don’t want nobody else
i don’t want you back, but i don’t want nobody else
i don’t want you back, but i don’t want nobody else
no, no, no, no, no

i think i love you even though you’re not my type
i think i love every single thing about you
i love it when you call, i hate it when you go
i love it when you talk, i hate it when we don’t
now it’s just me in my room, sitting all alone
i hate picking up the phone
i know your name won’t be there
did you get what you wanted?
did you love it? did you love it?

and now we’re just friends
and i will never be the girl you want again
and i think i might let it all go, but i still don’t know
i still don’t

i don’t want you back, but i don’t want nobody else
i don’t want you back, i don’t want nobody else
i don’t want you back, but i don’t want nobody else
i don’t want you back, but i don’t want nobody else
no, no, no, no
i don’t want you back, but i don’t want nobody else
no, no, no, no, no

Nobody Else

-:- 
i love this song sm thank you so much to everyone involved with this one

prod 31sentinel & myself
#upwards
mv: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Wmtr_GuQYSU

is she having fun?
dealer laced my drugs
"take me to erewhon"
whole time i got five bucks up inside my pocket
i should pop an adderall
shit is getting difficult

wonder where all of the time go
spending it hiding from five o
take a flight to different time zones
link up w keegan n my bros (love u)
ive watched a fed smoke gelato
driving through all of the potholes

im not here when
im not sober
it gets bad
i told you
we're someone
we're no one
a colder
october

i dnt wanna think abt
words tht come out of ur mouth
something happens, shit goes south
count on me 2 stick around
i smoke way 2 many blunts
i dont even feel em now
ima up my heater now
smoke that boy he
dnt wanna think abt
words tht come out of ur mouth
something happens, shit goes south
count on me 2 stick around
i smoke way 2 many blunts
i dont even feel em now
ima up my heat on them
smoke that boy he feel he freezin rlly
fk the clout
words tht come out of ur mouth

ok u guys get it

#stick (prod 31sentinel+me)

4cf - Meraki ft. riptony (gambitz)

[Chorus]
Girl, I call you when I finish up at work
And I promise to you that I'll make it worth it
And I'm sorry that I couldn't make it work when
You needed me the most and I was hopeless
Girl, I can make it up to you, I swear
And I can tell you find it hard
But I just wanna show you that I care
And I didn't mean to hurt you

[Verse]
I made it out the rough
I'll make it out again
This time I know my stuff
I said, "This time I think I'll win"
My mind was in the dump
My thoughts went to the bin
They told me something crazy, now
I know I just can't quit
And I know I made it tough
I know it wasn't fair
That I wasn't 'round for you
And I acted without care
I brought it up in reefer
I hope you understand
That I wrote it down for you
And I told you how I feel

[Chorus]
So I'll call you when I finish up at work
And I promise to you that I'll make it worth it
And I'm sorry that I couldn't make it work when
You needed me the most and I was hopeless
Girl, I can make it up to you, I swear
And I can tell you find it hard
But I just wanna show you that I care
And I didn't mean to hurt you

night at work

if a man falls

welcome

stream: https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/redhorse1/heavyweights-feat-spoder--cambi0

written by us 3, 
produced by me, 
mixed by me n spo

words:
heavy weights
messy days
there's no place to let this go
walls get closer, trapped at home 
crowded streets
now it's me
to find my own way out
to like my own self now

i see the trees all going by
the things i'd do to grow as much
i think to myself: "why can't i try?"
could i relieve my burden, grow w u
long for your hand, my humble abode
to leave with u than live alone

@1spoder
i walked into a corner store
the boy he worked, and worked some more
i had a twenty in my pocket
gave it cause his legs were sore
said, "do you want this for your life?"
he told me, "i'm just passing time."
i took the gum and walked right out
i knew he knew my hands were tied
he faked every moment
he loved you, i know
in the heat of the moment
those heavy weights crushed down on him
 
"i loved you, i'm sorry,
i hated my body,
i'll fix my whole life... yet i'm treated like a zombie. "

these heavy weights, they're killing me
wash me away, wash me away
x2

@1cambio
jump before i look
i hesitate to fall
i keep on going faster 
as everyone else stalls
everybody’s crying
but i know we’ll be alright 
if everything was worth it
why second-guess your might 

skin the moment bare
i'll put it in a locket 
to hold when i'm not there
wish that i could stop it
feeling is a burden 
i sense it every time
they speak, but i done heard it
i'll end it with a line

i'll end it with a line

heavyweights

click on me mf

heavyweights, +spoder, cambi0

spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/5dHWIT5fxB7zBkoykyNIYS?si=ff6b79c35e5146de
all plats: https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/spoder/showman

produced by plantcham
performed mixed written by me
cover art by my girlfriend 

sequel to crawler
thank you for listening like always

///
held it open like a doorman
tell me, why's it always pouring here?
she put it on like a showman
was the moment I knew I was scared
I split my head out wide
though incomplete, I try
I know that it sounds boring to you but this is my life
could you cut me some slack I
know that I'm not a good son
I'll wait till we orbit and then I'll wake up
spent 500 hours on screens in a month
let it burn up my skin so my eyes won't cry
a dumb ear I lended a thousand times
put my right hand on your shoulder darling
I'll tell you that everything will be just fine

it's alright
I've come to find there ain't a right time
so lower your conscience down
there's no use in trying to be found
could've sworn that I thought of it all
a bother so big or so small
a crawler that's stuck to the walls
if it's unfeasible then don't hurt me, falling

can hardly rest, don't let me go
my darling
this place not home
I pace around
you shut my mouth
I fall apart, it gets too loud
I don't wanna hold you
you've sewn and you've closed me up
they tried to console you
but my yells don't make a sound

my yells (my yells)
my yells have exhausted love
have exhausted love
I've had a hell of a day
wash it all up in the drain
don't make a sound
everything's gon' be okay

it's alright
I've come to find there ain't a right time
so lower your conscience down
there's no use in trying to be found
could've sworn that I thought of it all
a bother so big or so small
a crawler that's stuck to the walls
if it's unfeasible then don't hurt me, falling

can hardly rest, don't let me go
my darling
this place not home
I pace around
you shut my mouth
I fall apart, it gets too loud
I don't wanna hold you
you've sewn and you've closed me up
they tried to console you
but my yells don't make a sound

(yells don't make a sound
yells don't-
yells don't make a sound)
my yells don't make a sound
my yells don't make a sound
I'd hate to see you frown
I love you with my heart
I'd rather stay with you for now

showman

prod me 
feat @omgemags @staggyucrazy
trap acai bowl the album soon

(emags)
you and me no we aint leaving each other
id be sick enough to see you with any sucker
you can go ahead and do it
if you tryna play me you will never see me lose it
if you tryna play me youll be in the club clueless
walked in that bitch, uh, already knew it
im burnt out , like shooting
girl you must know you messed up this time

(sloan)
tell me is it safe for me to go
its killing me i got to know
what we got there's no fixing it
cuz im not no affectionate
swear theres something in the way that you go about it
i dont wana kill the - wait i dont care about it
swear theres somethin in the way you uhh uhh
got the blue maybach that bitch a uh huh

(staggy)
come with me girl you fucking wit a chump
what are we? i dont know but we can fuck
on the E now we fucking up the club
dust off yo fuck me pumps
on the block witcho gucci bag crew
sniffing on the white tryna figure out the move
looking at the clock ima be there very soon
so dust off yo fuck me pumps

(sloan)
attract the change like magneto
im in the cut right with my dogs im not talking no fido
roll the blunt like a burritooo
took yo bitch on a scenic route im not talking no smino
i rock the viv like a jesus piece
boy you better stop that glazing like a meet and greet
i been on my shit like i been eating beans
they gon study me like a new disease

if you know me you know whats up
i pour too much up in my cup
cant be happy cuz winters up
and you know i dont like the sun (its too hot here)
im coast to coast man having fun
im breaking necks like 1 on 1s
all the shit i do is just for fun
so dust off yo fuck me pumps

FMPumps! (feat. Emags, Staggy)

we made this like 3 years ago cant lie i thought it was gone like forever but i found it LMAO okay bye bye

Nobody Else

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