https://soundcloud.com/avxid

time
running out, cus i fuck up each time
taking these pills to feel fine
throwing up when i see what's inside
crawling down into your spine 
crushing my way past the bricks that i hide
reckless 
how could i forgot this
there's an ache in my heart
it's infectious
seems i hurt every soul i touch
breaking down when it all gets too much

will he text back
feeding the anger
regret that
i cant control 50 feelings
lazer holes in the ceiling
but i'm not a nice being
i'm just fine
cant do this lonely shit
all the time
suffocate me with reason
wont make it to the end of the season

i spark it up n i'm flying
i feel i'm closer to dying
honest i'm not even trying
i do not wanna keep fighting
i feel like more of a ghost now
life is too fast need to slow down
i cant think what it takes
i let this take it all away

taking these pills to feel fine
throwing up when i see what's inside
crawling down into your spine 
crushing my way past the bricks that i hide
reckless 
how could i forgot this
there's an ache in my heart
it's infectious
seems i hurt every soul i touch
breaking down when it all gets too much

s0ul (ft. AVXiD) [caves]

Unreleased

killedmyself & jabarionthebeat - nine lives

This is a culmination of songs I've made over the past few months. Many talented artists and producers are featured on here. I loved making this whole project and genuinely am so proud of this. I hope everyone enjoys this project!!

The Best Thing (prod. The Sound Clown)

Prod. jayberz
https://www.youtube.com/@prodjayberz

Vails:
@alex-thomas-fox
https://www.instagram.com/vailsofficial
https://open.spotify.com/artist/5ECZfLNTWUWgoctAyu5NrT?si=46pnSXkXTJ2TknGHg9PikQ&nd=1&dlsi=7d2f13c47fcd43aa
--
Lyrics:

Bins:
i dont ever feel right, i been up all night
i dont ever feel like ima end my life
i dont even know what to do again
spend a night in my room well I'm losing friends
spend a night in my room tying loose ends
how you doing? I been noticing your moving
like what are you proving?
you are so stupid.
you are a nuisance
u knew I knew this
I'm cutting off loose ends
i dont ever feel right
i been up all night
i dont ever feel like

Vails:
Staying up late nights
Getting my mind right 
Hating this sad life 

Bins:
i dont ever feel right
i been up all night
i dont ever feel like

Vails:
Staying up late nights
Getting my mind right 
Hating this sad life 
Getting so angry. 
I can’t face myself in the mirror it scares me
cus I know what this man has done
Turn my fingers into a gun 
And point at my head
Wish I was buried instead 
baby I’m a code red threat 
noticed ur moving , where you going too?
maybe if I get myself good I come too 
It may take a while cus I been down bad
All my friends they be worried and my mums mad
Stare blankly into me you won’t see a thing
Just a shell of a man that once had ur hand 
in ur hand and on ur index a diamond ring
Now my heads in the sand and I don’t have a plan

Bins:
i dont ever feel right, i been up all night
i dont ever feel like ima end my life
i dont even know what to do again
spend a night in my room well I'm losing friends
spend a night in my room tying loose ends
how you doing? I been noticing your moving
like what are you proving?
you are so stupid.
you are a nuisance
u knew I knew this
I'm cutting off loose ends

i dont ever feel right
i been up all night
i dont ever feel like (x4)

moving (ft. Vails) prod. Jayberz

produced by @nevrfall

Bruises on my body I want more
Told me that you love what for?
Anxious to my core
Scared of being recognised
Every time I post a pic
That’s why its black and white
Bruises on my body I want more
Told me that you love what for?
Anxious to my core
Scared of being recognised
Every time I post a pic
That’s why its black and white

I’ve been getting terrified 
You can look into to my eyes
You can tell me what you find
Why you looking mortified?
Tell me was it too much?
Tell me was it too much?

I’ve been hearing voices
Telling me not to trust
I’ve been tasting poison
Ever since we fell in love
Then you’re always telling me
That I’m not enough
I couldn’t avoid you

Bruises on my body I want more
Told me that you love what for?
Anxious to my core
Scared of being recognised
Every time I post a pic
That’s why its black and white
Bruises on my body I want more
Told me that you love what for?
Anxious to my core
Scared of being recognised
Every time I post a pic
That’s why its black and white

anxious (nevrfall)

lyrics 



strawberry moon outside but i
break thru the glass which i reside
i look too hard at times where i
spoke out too much but i resign
look at the floor
covered in red
i leave his heart
alone on the bed
spirit force
inside my head
hes in the river
im in the shed

door jam
oh damn
i cant sleep thru the night with this slow jam
hold hands
hold guns
i scooped out his brain with this weapon
look at me
look at him
is it really such a choice bb
listen
he bleeds
i sin
he wont make it to the morning 
imma live again

im sorry
thats on me
i wash off
whats on me

i dont remember the last time i felt like this
bloody decembers turn into occurrences

strawberry moon

Emotions

I decided to experiment a bit with this track. I hope you guys enjoy it.

This is also a single off my next EP, "Zodiac".
(9/28)

<3

Artificial

Forever

Produced by @taxpurposes 

Lyrics: 
Lay me face down put me in the 
basement 
Take me out when you doubt that I'm waiten
Know you pout and you wanna trade places 
Babygirl don't think that I could ever really fake this 
Use me for the moments that your life feel like a nightmare 
Been moven fast but I think I'm stoppen right here 
Late night walls talk  not as much as these sheets 
Taste my lips a lot before she go to sleep
Repeat in the morning alright 
Fill all these cracks in our fault lines 
I don't shake anymore when can't find a meaning 
I believe when you say that you don't plan on leaving 
I wanna see your skin in august 
I bet that you still keep the picture in your locket
I'll let her check me when I'm outa pocket 
You couldn't do a thing to make me ever not want it 
Ima go and say it I still feel same
4 years watch four more out the windowpane 
Then 50 after long as we're together 
Take this always for worse or better
Lay me face down put me in the 
basement 
Take me out when you doubt that I'm waiten
Know you pout and you wanna trade places 
Think we fall apart when can't share the same spaces 
Lay me face down put me in the 
basement 
Take me out when you doubt that I'm waiten
Know you pout and you wanna trade places 
You know what I'm about when I say let's 
Make this forever 
Late night walls talk  not as much as these sheets 
Taste my lips a lot before she go to sleep
Late night walls talk  not as much as these sheets 
Taste my lips a lot before she go to sleep
Lay me face down put me in the 
basement 
Take me out when you doubt that I'm waiten
Know you pout and you wanna trade places 
Babygirl don't think that I could ever really fake this 
Lay me face down put me in the 
basement 
Take me out when you doubt that I'm waiten
Know you pout and you wanna trade places 
Think we fall apart when can't share the same spaces 
Ima go and say it I still feel same
4 years watch four more out the windowpane 
Then 50 after long as we're together 
Take this always for worse or better

anxious (nevrfall)

sunder. ✧