shoutout my homie for bein on this! @notaheroo

lyrics:

i’ve been drowning my sorrows in the bottom of bottles
she said i should relax and not to go full throttle 
baby just calm down and i’ll be gone by tomorrow
you say your heart has been hollowed

but have you looked at me lately?
i’m the one who needs a saving grace
her eyes they pierce so painfully
i see your face and i’m back in that place

they’ve left me with nowhere to go
i’ve been broken down and on my own
my shoulders are crushed from the weight of it all

and you’ve been laughing at me waiting for me to fall
and i lack the motivation to force myself to crawl
you held back information knowing that it’s your fault
clarification is shown behind the walls
a now known revelation planned to kill my soul

it’s hard not to fold 
underneath the mold
of what i was always told and what i’m feeling
the seasons are changing again

oh, changing again
oh, can you tell me where the times been?

(notahero)

can u hear me coming baby?
open up the front door
i know time is infinite
but i don’t think i got much more
my bones and back grow sore
u tell me i should fight
pain gets defied when i look up in ur eyes
sorrow gets diffused into energy all u gotta do is fight
it’s hard enough waking up
be my saving grace tonight
anxiety riddles me when i feel my lungs fucking up
the pressure belittle me when i don’t think that i’m blowing up
but riddle me this baby
how come i ain’t never show no signs of giving up?

full throttle w/ notahero (R3DQX x Luffy)

die in a cool way w/ acey

I thought I needed you
I thought I'd bleed for you
I thought I'd rip open my heart so I could be with you

girl I never needed you
why did I bleed for you
ripped open my heart to give a fraction of the world to you
fraction of the world to you

no I'm not okay
but I'll say that I am in the doorway
I don't ever wanna get in your way
I just wanna be with you who cares about the foreplay

killing my vitals slowly
how did I get so angry
ripping my hair out with my claws
I don't wanna be here like at all

time kills everything I thought I'd never see you again
withered away as all the termites ate at my skin
everybody said I fucked up when I told them the truth
maybe I am just a suck up to the plot of the news

dont wait for me
two blankets in the trunk of the 95 pontiac babygirl that's a must

oh cant you see
I did this all for you and I so can we still be us

so can we still be us
I did this all so we can still be us

so can we still be us
I did this all for you and I so can we still be us

can we still be us

can we still be us (secre x heyrick)

computer screens

2025-08-16-222703882_17082025.m4a

Here is a real stinker of a song 
I was trying to create a new song and was reading a bunch of very old lyrics from my 20s that were laying around in a drawer.   Some of these manifestos of youth, though earnest and ambitious, have not aged well over the years  ....like that piece of moldy cheddar at the back of the fridge... Leftovers, no longer suitable for public consumption..though one did leap from its hiding place and forced(inspired) me to write a song about it before it sent me down the river never to be seen again.....

simple melody , pretty rough pounding on the electric and keys with a drum track from my phone
Homer Simpson helps to illustrate the food metaphor for this  somewhat out of tune tune 
best i can do with what I got


Leftover Song

This song it smells like moldy cheese                      
With words of youth gone stale and left behind      
A little blue, a little rancid                                              
From the back of the fridge to the bright lights        

Curdled by the curse of indecision                            
Now, I take a sip and promptly spit and spill            Over-seasoned with the sweat of self-reflection   
Makes it kind of  hard to swallow, I’m hungry still                          
Perhaps my best before date                                       
Has been exceeded                                                       
What once was firm has now gone soft and sour    
This tune unchosen                                                        
Slowly decomposing                               
Reanimated by a higher power                                   
Leftover song of mine                                                
Resurrected now for you                                                                      
This song it has the feel of the familiar
Simple shapes and sounds sung in the major G
I tried to lose it, give it the slip, in the parking lot of my mind
But it jumped in my car, took me hostage and assumed my identity

Tied me up, took me down to the river
And sent me on my way
On a boat that sailed in circles 
With a piano that could not play
It’s a coup d’ etat, a Mardis Gras
Said the one that got away
A monster of my own creation

These nouns and verbs gone wild
A verse unseeded
Left in the sun to slowly bloom and flower
Starved of attention
No comprehension
Of what was locked inside my Ivory Tower
Leftover song of mine
Busting loose to sing to you





Leftover Song

Frozen hearts (ft. Guccihighwaters ) (Prod by. notmorgn)

Thanks to guccihighwaters & notmorgn!
Jacky B:
https://twitter.com/NotJackyB
https://www.instagram.com/notjackyb

Guccihighwaters:
https://soundcloud.com/guccihighwaters
https://www.instagram.com/guccihighwaters
https://twitter.com/guccihighwaters

notmorgn:
https://soundcloud.com/notmorgn

Lyrics:

Jacky B:
Bags around my eyes
Gotta close my blinds
Cant stand the sunlight
Sitting in my room
Its time to write
Demons in my sight
X's on my eyes
Cant stay up all night
You really hurt me
Now your gone
You said you loved me
Now i gotta stay strong
Walking down this pathway
Holding a can of jack
Hoping that i'm halfway
You were a mistake
Take drugs in my pastime
Fade into a poltergeist
Cant help me now
Don't need your advice
Leave me in the back
Isolated forever

Guccihighwaters:
I think you loved me the past
Always throwing shade
Isolated in the back
Fucking jaded
Really jaded from the past
Should i get really faded
And forget bout what we had
I think it’s time
For me to go
To run away
And find my home
Look at me
Define alone
Look at me
I fight alone
Young waster
Don’t need a chaser
No mixer
Straight to the face yeah
She would talk a lot of shit
Drink the whole bottle shit
Now she poppin all up my mentions
No kolonopin
Not like that
You used to be so different
Type back but
I’m the one dismissing

Jacky B:
Yea i'm isolated
Leave me alone
I'm heavily sedated
Put my headphones in
Block the world out
Walking down the street
Gotta change the route
All alone at night
Gotta walk to maccas faded
Yea i missed you
Not answering your calls
You traded me in
For a new guy
Now i drink just to get by


Tried to stay with you for ever
You left me like a feather
Smothered in the dirt forever
Now i'm stuck in the past
Back at the start
I don't think i'm gonna last
Don't know what i'm doing
Time to grab the glass
Take it straight to the face
I wanna leave this fucking place

Spotify

Isolated (Feat. Guccihighwaters) (Prod. notmorgn)

@scottysplash

i thought the worst of it had already happened again
so im back on my bullshit
posted up in the ruins of my city
been fed up with the life ive been livin
til i get fucked up and hang with the homies
livin it up while were all goin down
i fuckin hate this town but i can deal while ur around

"u know u only make things worse
when u bring it up again it only makes me hurt"
well im glad to know
u can start to imagine how i felt
ur locked inside my heart
found ur way there like a shelter
but u cant run from ur fuckin shadow
dont u know?

give me ur worst when i gave u my best

i thought the worst of it had already happen again
so im back on my bullshit
posted up in the ruins of my city
been fed up with the life ive been livin
til i get fucked up and hang with the homies
livin it up while were all goin down
i fuckin hate this town but i can deal while ur around

Follow me <3

ruins (prod. scotty splash)

@4evrgone
@stationsix

i dont wanna live
without someone in my arms
but its never really lonely when ur livin in the dark
blue eyed shorty came to pull up and to park
i never thought that love would be tearin me apart

ur flesh and blood
like the ink from my pen
bitch, ive been fucked up
u just fucked me dead
10 mg's cant get u out of my head
20 mg's might keep me in my bed
for the night
my eyes closed tight
life feels like
a fucking nightmare sometimes

u dont wanna ask
what u really wanna tell me?
hit me on my cell
iPhone or the enV
i cant pick it up
til i find where the end meets
i wont give it up
even if its where the end leads

i dont wanna live
without someone in my arms
but its never really lonely when ur livin in the dark
blue eyed shorty came to pull up and to park
i never thought that love would be tearin me apart
u dont wanna ask
what u really wanna tell me?
hit me on my cell
iPhone or the enV
i cant pick it up
til i find where the end meets
i wont give it up
even if its where the end leads

i wont give it up, i swallow pride, you spit it up 
my hollow eyes, i stick em shut
to my surprise it isnt love

yeah i was born and raised better
write it down in unnamed letters
blame it all on pain, yet im still holding on to the same sweater 

i let you wear, it isnt much
but it still makes me miss your touch
i feel it all, im in your clutch
i use this music as a crutch

to get myself by day to day
one day i hope ill fade away
i pray i wont remain enslaved forever,
to who i loved yesterday

livin in the dark (ft. thebreathingbackwards) [prod. 4evr]

bright eyes %_%
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lyrics:
no big deal, I’m not
hurt at all
please don’t catch me 
when i fall

no big deal, I’m not
hurt at all
please dont pick up 
when i call

no big deal, I’m not
hurt at all
please don’t catch me 
when i fall

and I know you’ve heard it all
please don’t pick up when i call

I can’t think straight
I don’t feel okay
theres a fire on the rooftop
blue jeans and tube socks 
shimmer on her face
like some moon rocks
a winners what it takes
Im just too soft

sitting in the park boy
avocado socks boy
i just wanna talk yo...
u are very thoughtful

we can grab the tacos
we can share the nachos
now im feeling awful :(
ever since i lost u
ever since i lost u

die in a cool way w/ acey

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