Thank you @caspywaspy for the beautiful feature <3

Dxnny 

No use for my flesh
guess im crawling out
backed up into the corner
Fucking done it now
Dip out of the function and im running till my legs give out
(Till my legs give out)

I was never invested
But the sex is..wow
i dont think that i was ever ready for the hell inbound 
she wishes that we were telling eachother our wedding vows
i dont think im ready for commitment there i said it now

She told me its your loss
Well Baby i think that you’re lost
nothing you say is making its way
Through to me
X2

Casperrr

im hurting and im aching
My pain will only make my back break
I love you, you hate me i should run away for my sake
all of the trauma Im facing
I cant believe its a part of my fate
i spend a lot of time of my life just thinking bout solving problems in any other way

She told me it was my loss 
Cant really tell if shes wrong
I just cant think i feel lost
I’ll hide it with addys and bongs

your loss ft casperrr (boy50)

Six Feet Deep  (Ft. HkFiftyOne) prod. KingTheta

im a fuckin misfit
tied myself to this bitch
knot around both my wrists
all my friend r toxic

ur ashes i can't find em
am livin in denial 
lifes comically vile 
been cryin for a while

stare at my body as i bleed
what did u even find in me 
a bucnh of dreams ill never reach
a lot of ideas ill never be 

stare at my yeah (4x)

im fucked up and shits not over
i want to but i can't get sober 
ur death made my whole body colder
everynight i dream about when i used to hold ya(2x)

love life but death seems charming
can't stop myself from falling 
eyes glued to the back of my eyelids
when i die fill my coffin with violets 

im a fuckin misfit
tied myself to this bitch
knot around both my wrists
all my friend r toxic

ur ashes i can't find em
am livin in denial 
lifes comically vile 
been cryin for a while

misfit (santana)

with the boys <3 (soundcloud.com/cupids-funeral)

Greenwood:
i could see the body from the water
never read the signs as well as most
i can see the problems that we foster
never take the chances that you don't
maybe it just feels like i've been altered 
deconstructed long before you know 
all of this means nothing like you taught her
try to turn these strangers into homes

this close last year
so much so dear
i went back home
there's nothing here
one word breaks through
two lives in bloom
lost mine in june
white skin turns blue

tell me when you realised 
tell me when you realised

AutumnIsEnding:
The uncertainty is unbearable 
I can’t sleep can’t eat it’s so terrible 
You call me the worst and tell me I’m nothing 
It’s okay I’ll use the hurt for the cutting 
I’ll keep on running back you’re the owner I’m your dog 
So I’ll let you do what you want 
They say it’s not over til it’s done 
So I’ll die fighting for you love 

We look happy in all the picture ever took 
Long sleeves hide the knife seams I made just the other month 
But it’s not like it doesn’t hurt me when you ask for a little blood 
And I’m just numb to you I’m worthless 
And that’s just us behind the curtains

Greenwood:
could we pretend you haven't seen me cause i was getting help
and i got out from all that i'm swimming in
and i could start to love you unobstructed by everything
i've been in a dark place, think it's my fault
and it's all grey, and i can't stop
and you loved me til it's all gone
and i hold that like it's someone
and the winters just been so long
and i spent it with the wrong one
learn to let go when i hold on
cause she looks like you, yeah she looks like you, doesn't say much
tell me when you realised 
tell me when you realised

Sleeptowns (w/ AutumnIsEnding)

prod. safeatlast, no samples <3
@breckenford

dont leave me alone here
i dont know what you see here

so i try and i try just to make you remember
the way that you left me alone in september
drink on my own ima drink til december
wont pick up the phone no i wont ever answer

so please let me go
i dont need you no more

say what you want cuz i wont ever listen
my body cant go on i cant make the distance
i cant tell my rights from my lefts whats the difference
if you were to stay or just leave in a minute

i wont admit it
ive reached my limit
ive reached the end of my life whens the next one
cant bear to look in your eyes since i messed up

i pray to see u once again
either its heaven or hell
i hope that ur resting well

i hope that we meet again
cuz i been trapped inside this cell
and i cant break myself out

[FøRD:]

break me out the cell I said
remember when I used to win
that’s in the past
honestly I’m feeling better with that

long as I get through my day
dodging ur traps, knowin that you want me back
don’t get attached
gone in the morning in fact
losing the feelings I had
treat me like crap
doing it back
yea just so yk that I’m mad

i cant tell you what I want in my life no more
telling the truth I think it’s time to cut the cord
deathly afraid of heartbreak cuz i can’t afford
anymore time with a girl who only ignores
so what do I do? Stick to my lonely
substance abuse “I don’t need you”, not what you told me

break me out the cell I said
remember when I used to win
that’s in the past
honestly I’m feeling better with that

long as I get through my day
dodging ur traps, knowin that you want me back
don’t get attached
gone in the morning in fact
losing the feelings I had
treat me like crap
doing it back
yea just so yk that I’m mad

don’t get attached
gone in the morning in fact
losing the feelings I had
treat me like crap
doing it back
don’t get attached
gone in the morning in fact
losing the feelings I had
treat me like crap
doing it back

i hope that we meet again ft. brecken

prod me

sick & haven't been able to record much of anything for some time now, but i wanted to get something out both for myself, and possibly you;
been sitting on this one for a while
hope you enjoy.
take care

hey, i'll trade you for your sorrows
i've grown used to feeling that
and if we're talking 'bout tomorrows
i've grown used to losing them too

the voices i read with my ears, tend to bleed
choking up every piece of the letters i speak
wasn't always afraid of the pictures i paint
guess the brush needs a wash, mutilate, then repeat

hate when i reach out again
people speculate my head
you're not me, you're not my friend
frequently, wish i was..

thoughts reflected through my brain
too bad they can't do the same
shattered past and future pains
guide me home through rough terrain

i'm ugly with words
keep it blunt, little passive
hoping that i'll make it up with some actions
feel so trash, bounce back like elastic
i'm doing that for the sake of my casket
hurting myself in a hope i'll be gone
suck how the ones that we trust do you wrong
playing along
it's not even fair i can bare all the tears that i've once undergone

this life makes me sick; can't trade it
i've been pushing through the lame shit
stay averted; bad relations
let my room for hate stay vacant
pour it all on my own psyche
ain't no one 'round here feel like me
it's not a nice thing
never sight-see inside my mind
i'm mostly agonizing

i told them it'd be okay
it sure as hell don't feel that way
your limitations never stay
you're pulling pins to thought grenades

it's all the same
cast a wave and send me to a sunken grave
only then i'll know my place

woke up in a sweat so cold
in a room pale white, and a heart full of woe
passed out 'round noon, now i'm ten on my toes
from the sun's red hue, passed through what imposed
any chafe on my brain by the stains from the mulch
what kind of weight doesn't make you implode?
phasing a gate into heaven's abode
but that ain't a place i ain't think imma know

i haven't changed my sheets in like a week or two
(get outta bed)
summer's passed, and suddenly, our meanings too
(it's all that i have)

my eyes stayed tied into my mind
to undermine it's barbed wires

i'm trying to be what i need
choosing escape over delicacies
they weren't a choice i would seek
nothing was ever created for me

(4x)
i'm trying to be what i need

mulch

lyrics

when atleast 1 don’t want the best for each other 
but words and what was taught keep them under
the wings that once brought close the lost souls in to cover
now cause more hurt but he still calls her his lover

as she falls back in to a state of sleep paralysis 
he crawls back in to her mind in hopes it’s healed to bliss
but these dynamics bring out the worst of what we call our flesh
the dreams mixed with torn down aura bring out masochistics

i don’t wanna see u cry no more she tells him sweetly
but i saw you tagged along you were moving way too freely
he’s hers to keep there’s no going 2 ways bout it
2 similar acts but if one does it then the others astounded

she needs it, craves it it’s all that she could know
perspectives can’t be seen if your own is broke 
he understands and for that reason he finds a way to cope
suffocating every moment in her presence, he can’t grow

and sure he cares, but he’s unaware of the damage that will construe 
blinded by his weakness, not every man can tell that truth
but there’s a darkness 
lense tinged with slight grey and blue 
it’s painted red in her eyesight
there’s no escaping her view

plenty years under the belt and if youd check youd see the signs
victims known to slump, no problem plucking out the spine
youll say its fine theres time I guess the aftermath is quiet
but then shell lie still in your eyes theres nothing more divine

she lies

she lies. (jolst x splashgvng)

lyrics 

[maesk]
hold me and don’t let go
do u not know what you are do u not know what this is
i get it ur drawn, unrealistic expectations, u have what is ideal and try to replicate it here in this cold world where the dark never disappears, the light we see will all wither till it’s final flair

i know a lot of people not a lot of people know me
i tend to prefer distance when so when it comes to being lonely 
i don’t mind guess i’m too aware, i’m not scared, only that i might never show fear
i’ll just stare at the ground

yeah i’m still human despite what u may think 
just plenty problems nothing like a good drink won’t fix
something to help me look at this place a little more wrong
maybe time to write another sad song


hold me and don’t let go
do u not know what you are do u not know what this is

time to write another sad song
a few will listen but no one else know how long
i been thinking and been feeling all these things 
u say u listen but u don’t know how it’s been. well u might soon

[goneafteraugust]

always had to hang my head by myself
get it together puff out my chest by myself
i know how it feels to be alone
leave a key under the mat in case i ever come home

so we can go lie down
where it’s quiet and the world won’t make a sound
u can listen to my heart beat pound
i’m headed to u babe i need it right now

forgotten key

forgotten key ft goneafteraugust (flesh x 1gokami)

don't pretend (p. ryan ansel)

beautiful guitar -> @safeatlast

Lyrics:

jaded in the backstreets
she'd hit the gas flyin past me
5 guys girl ur trashy
9 shots like who put me in the front seat
ay
guardin on my playlist
wired up on go while the tape spin
kind face but he a rapist
no name
no face
still complacent

this girl's not home
but she is all i know
i'm reaping all i sow
just bury all i wrote
where after?
this girl's not home
but she is all i know
i'm reaping all i sow
just bury all i wrote
where after

-

where after
where after
where after
where after

where after
where after
where after
where after

this girl's not home
but she is all i know
i'm reaping all i sow
just bury all i wrote

where after?

where after? (prod. safeatlast x hero)

prod. poppy ozu x daniel saint

Lyrics:

i think she'll be the death of me
if i survive think that i'd rather be
it's been like 30 minutes with no text
so i can't get to sleep
she's probably up in someone's ear with all her dirty secrets maybe sexually
if she's not in my bed i think she slept with him respectfully
you can call me crazy i'll accept at least minisculely
the ghost of who i knew i think just wants a fuckin end to me
an end to me
an end to me

i'm unhinged 
i'm irrational at best
i'm less convinced now by the second i should get this off my chest
fuck it
i despise your hedonism and that old group i called my friends
at least i'm not a liar, of all my flaws just give me that

she jumps from guy to girl to guy in hopes that someone can heal her
if you couldn't respect me
then how could i either
was i meant for a stage
am i meant for a theatre
caught me throwing up again
with a wonderful fever

i'm a people person eater with a face that doesn't shape
i just tear myself apart then fix myself with gum and tape
i use so many "i's" and "me's" its like the rest of them are fake
you think i'm talking to you, probably am so hear me for your sake

i think she'll be the death of me
if i survive think that i'd rather be
it's been like 30 minutes with no text
so i can't get to sleep
she's probably up in someone's ear with all her dirty secrets maybe sexually
if she's not in my bed i think she slept with him respectfully
you can call me crazy i'll accept at least minisculely
the ghost of who i knew i think just wants a fuckin end to me
an end to me
an end to me

don't pretend (p. ryan ansel)

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