never meant (prod. michael warren)

u were supposed to be the 1 that i could trust the most
i didnt wanna open up i couldnt keep it closed
n it was so much fun but now i gotta go
i hope i get to read the story tht u tell urself

tell me all the secrets that u never hid
tell me all the reasons y im less than him
show me what u did and im gna close my eyes
ill show u all the reasons u were never mine

this song sucks sorry friends

u were never mine

w/ @i9bonsai
prod @mkne + @kiryano + @1opgloryboyz

why r u always so harsh? words cut thru just like a knife
trying 2 tell me what is, but u do not know what its like
2 be alone, all by urself
all on ur own, without no help
the challenges that i must face
all the time, evryday
i do not know what i do but i do everything that i can
i dont know what i should do cuz u could never understand
just how it feels 2 live my life
im never well, nevermind
it dont matter, dont waste ur time
leave me alone, ill waste my life
i thought u were real, it turns out ur not
u are so fake, yeah emotional fraud
you tied me up, like i was a knot
got pain like its racks, and i got a lot
runnin ur mouth yeah u need 2 stop
got something to say then say it 2 god
dnt care what u tell me ya im turnin off
u robbed my heart now i need a lock

you freezin up like a blue screen
actin like u fukkin knew me
u are so odd, u are so wack
get out my life bitch ya u need 2 pack
CCTV, bitch watch how you act
not an ATM, don't take none of that

[i9bonsai]:
(???), is that a question?
plz dont talk (???) mentions
oh no, what's this essence?
i can see, u havnt learned ur lesson
ive felt awful all the time
(???)

[chorus]

nevrmind w/i9bonsai [prod. maknae + kiryano + 1opgloryboyz]

all audio by me / coverart also by me

🠟 lyrics 🠟

In each attempt...

Your symbol laid in the view of my path

And with every step that I took, with deft

If you weren’t beside me, I knew it wouldn’t be the last

Where do you believe were from?
And where do you think we’ll go, from here?

I wanna hear it all from you,
So tell me how you feel...

Don’t act like you know how this will go,

Will you leave me alone, when I need you close?

I knew
You see
Through me

I knew you could see through me...

You see some things that i cant see
Ohhh

Although sometimes,
You tire my mind

Im worried sick
Will she survive?

Just one more night
Just one more try

To grab this rope
Attempt to climb

Its yours to take
Your choice, not mine

Its not the end
You still have time

I see you’re trying for yourself this time,
And thats a better start

Trust me, no matter where we are
I'll hold your voice inside my heart.

Well, do you care if I bring it up?

Your presence weighs on me and its tough to look away

And when I sing of something else...

You keep on coming up,
No matter what i say...

Ohhh,
Well maybe thats okay

Where do you believe were from?
And where do you think we’ll go, from here?

I wanna hear it all from you,
So tell me how you feel...

Don’t act like you know how this will go,

Will you leave me alone, when I need you close?

I knew you could see through me

"caring hurts, but i cant turn it off..."

in grey

- featuring [@daybat aka spiral]  | (second verse)
- produced by [@mothshonor aka ami4evr]
- additional production, effects and mix by me

🠟 lyrics 🠟

[ first half : @sprigtek ]

Hanging on for something 
u believed that i had

But my hands are closed noww..

you took my heart from me

i didn’t have what u wanted

still u took a part that i need

you’ll never give it back, be honest

i don’t even want you to now

i dont want you to
noowww...

[ verse 2 ]

mind goes static 

i control the mix like magic

bad shit happens
when ur passive

part of me knows that im trash 
thats why u like to laugh me off

please im begging u to stop

hold my blade two inches off

hesitate to let it drop



all those times you said im worthless

all those times you said that im worth it

i just wanna find my purpose 

acting like
you never said
those things at all?

always hurting 
wishing i could fucking 
clear my mind

clear it of you
and leave your face a couple miles behind

[ verse 3 / outro : @daybat /spiral ]

you wanted more from me
but i can’t see the light like i used to 
will you give me something i’m used to
something that hurts
show me my worth
none of my thoughts look so pretty on paper
my body’s a prison and i can’t escape her
trapped in myself
i’ll envy someone else
i’m not your friend i don’t like you
search the mirror until i find you

passive >|< + spiral

all production, vocals, mixing and mastering by me!
I've gotten a lot better at mixing in the last 9 months :)
Also, I will be performing this soon at an event called 
"Make America Scene Again" in NYC, at a venue called The Meadows
Thank you for listening!

🠟 lyrics 🠟

too hot
too cold
turn it off
i just needed a break

still want
to give you hope
to show you 
that
it was all for your sake


where can i
find those eyes

another time
in another face

where do they hide?

will i ever
hear your words

another time
in another mouth 

baby, please don’t 

lie to me
lie to me

ur prolly sickened
by the 
sight of me
sight of me

i know u struggle to survive
but please,
try for me! 

i hope u didn’t mean it
when u said
you’d die for me

 
just know that 
i will always
watch
and i carry that weight 

it gave me chills when u said
that for u 
its too late 

i’ve always wondered
on the other-side
of deaths gate

will we cross over to a better life?
and be saved...

or is it
just this

a world on the cusp of melting

catching 
the tail end
nothing is helping 

each day repeating
the world just keeps selling 

poison and sweets to
delay the rebellion

and we fall for it
cuz were made to be
part of all of it
so we can think were free

well i want more than this
and so do many more
but we can only guess
what else the world will have left
when its
all done and over

you're too cold

-
where can i
find those eyes

another time
in another face

where do they hide?

will i ever
hear your words

another time
in another mouth 

baby, please don’t 

lie to me
lie to me

ur prolly sickened
by the 
sight of me
sight of me

i know u struggle to survive
but please,
try for me! 

i hope u didn’t mean it
when u said
you’d die for me

is it just this

is it just this?

prod. yamaka
mix by oafy

xx

last nite
feel it now
all i cn remember is the dj sound

it goes down
just how i saw u for the first time
n like everyday after swear i was like 

we were dancing in the dark
everywhere i go looks so haunted now
dreaming in a dream
then i wake up 
like i never fell asleep
but the days gone

i can never seem to take it slow
oh no 
we could do it if we wanted
took a xan
sleepwalking when i walk in

do u wanna come here
hate it wen u go 
like it wen ur near :D

staying up all nite off the molly
i just got a feeling when ur eyes locked on me
n we were going hard to the bassline
n i could’ve sworn we had a good time !!!?

tell me how we lost it like that ;/
if it’s rly real then will u bring it right back?

sleepwalkin' :)

the most beautiful song ever made w/ xxcrush

Только (North Holland edit)

@1fns
@kiryano
@odel007
art by twitter user @3evil_

first song off "silhouettes"
they will be released one at a time

want it all ft kiryano (odel)

this song is abt my mental health lately :/ love u guys

LYRICS:
(she cant evn feel it)
bby go cause i know its so hard!
n ion evn know if ill evn go far
my thoughts b racing feel it!
i feel so depleted!
they dont evn know it baby they cant evn see it!

runnin from the demons!
u cant evn see them!
they dont evn know
they dont evn know i feel it!

(but she can evn feel it, and i cant even feeel it any moooorrreee)

but now i can feel it
nicotine i need it!
ive been losing all my memories cant evn see it!
ive been wasting all my time like ion evn need it!
watch myself just lose my mind and turn into a demon!

n its getting so hard to know
that im nevr gonna get that far (i know)
1 day im gon reach the stars.s.s.

see it!「prod. lil biscuit」

credits are in every song description, mostly self produced <3