Still listen to this, can’t believe its been almost a year since it dropped

An insane beat ruined by this bad flow😭

just letting you know now im getting my LLC sep 1st. send splits for all our collabs please.

w/ @gl0wrm
prod me

bby come with me lets dance around the sacred tree

i got blood spilld all over my dirty white t
make urself at home at da witch party
this young blood makes me pretty
i bit the apple like adam and eve

astralproject1on + gl0wrm - witch party

drums by @oldyungtoadsage, remaining production, mels / vox / mix by me

🠟 lyrics 🠟

I sensed that something here was different 
I felt like something here was wrong
But i don’t have a way to fix it
My only vices are these songs 

And when im wounded,
will you kiss the spot that hurts 
or is it wrong for me to ask?

for me to ask???

I cant stop thinking of your skin on mine 
but the only view i get of u is online 

i think i need to fucking go outside
cuz its been a while
and im fucking dying 

Pain
Abbreviated
I burn what i grow
Till its all the same to me

All these fucking games
that they play are lame to me

please talk real
all these bitches fucking sound the same to me...


ill cut you out if you suppress me

all the blood means = growth
++more stress please

i just wanna get these words of my chest please 

step out
from depression 
like i bested it

its my craft 
i invest in it

my hearts not pure
you tested it,
so u know

i strike down
what's best in me

i cut down and rebuild 
what's left of me
on my own 

shawty keep on texting me
u can try 
but u wont see the rest of me

no no no 

my swag so heavenly 
i don't take no pills 
match my energy 
no, u wont

I sensed that something here was different 
I felt like something here was wrong
But i don’t have a way to fix it
My only vices are these songs 

And when im wounded,
will you kiss the spot that hurts 
or is it wrong for me to ask?

for me to ask???

I cant stop thinking of your skin on mine 
but the only view i get of u is online 

i think i need to fucking go outside
cuz its been a while
and im fucking dying

impure

vox/production/mix/cover-art by me (@bigdog30k)

didnt i tell you i was fine?
i think maybe youre the hurt one baby
i cant do this one more time
i learned to doubt, theres always something shady

:FALL FALL:
:IT ALL FALLS THROUGH:

didnt i tell you i was fine?
i think maybe youre the hurt one baby
i cant do this one more time
i learned to doubt, theres always something shady

                   ⟳

didnt i tell you i was fine?
(did i tell you i was fine?)
i think maybe youre the hurt one baby
(i think maybe you just heard wrong baby)
i cant do this one more time
(i think i do this all the time)
i learned to doubt, theres always something shady
(i learned to doubt, theres always something shady)

im still waiting

Still Waiting

prod @4evaaxx @pawl4k

im feelin better now got my eyes closed
cus when i look around i still see ur halo
look at my cup i drown in red mixed with faygo
i carry so much cash around i think i got lumbago
n now im boutta cash out, money from sites that they dont know
id put u on if i could but i wanna do dis alone
only notifications is money comin thru my phone
feel my stomach drop when im textin u n u change ur tone
what did i do wrong
what did what did i do wrong
self pity as a song
i cant speak im way too gone
don wan dont wan speak u'll kno im fucked up
crush an OC in my cup
put some oxy in my nose
i feel my body give up uh
hypochondriac still on dese drugs
woke up on my front
face to the ground
i couldnt see nothin but finally i felt found
perc knocked me off my axis, upside down, with a smile not a frown. but if im upside down a smile looks like a frown
slowly givin up but she dont giv a fuck
got no morals wen it comes to juggin ppl outta love
we aint d same, I drop an NBOMe, u gettin love bombed
i fell in love wit research chemical bonds
while u breakin all ur bonds
its like u do that shit for fun
brains been scrambled
cus of affection that u cant handle
im goin all in got my cards drawn
ill play my hand if u jus play urs

self pity as a song

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PYoEvtuKa0Y
ft @drrux
mix, prod, coverart by me (@bigdog30k)

[drux]
It was going great but I stopped 
Pour a drink on the rocks 
I’m late for a show 
I say it’s ok when it’s not 
I’m breaking apart 
I can’t let go 
I was outside my phone on silent sorry girl I missed ur call 
Reaching the top kept falling I’m trying 
But I can’t have it all

[buffalobang]
It always falls apart
I cant really fake it
Woke up this morning and decided that i hate it
And my body’s going vacant
Got a bad feeling and i cant seem to shake it

[drux]
I love fucking up for myself 
I’m coming down once again 
She’s Gorgeous 
Whenever I see her lose my breath 
Why am I skipping every step 
I can never figure  where we stand 
Please go easy I’m doing all i can 
Turns out I was never trying my best
I could never see it for what it is

[buffalobang]
I know you sew me up but 
Im hanging onto the last thread
Real bad day cant make out what just happend
I really fucked it up huh?
Everything is collapsing
Hold me close baby im on my last leg
I was hoping not to get close
Stayed inside my stronghold
Yea i tried not to get too close 
Made it by on bare bones

[buffalobang]
It always falls apart
I cant really fake it
Woke up this morning and decided that i hate it
And my body’s going vacant
Got a bad feeling and i cant seem to shake it

[drux]
It was going great but I stopped 
Pour a drink on the rocks 
I’m late for a show 
I say it’s ok when it’s not 
I’m breaking apart 
I can’t let go 
I was outside my phone on silent sorry girl I missed ur call 
Reaching the top kept falling I’m trying 
But I can’t have it all

Stronghold

StrongHold (ft drux)

@emorave
prod @1dgtl

inssekt:
unless ur face looks right
i see pain in ur eyes
i see thru the blame in ur lies
let me go ive been feeling so low
she saw teardrops on my phone
i gave her a choice to let me go (let me go)
cuss iii cantt coppeee

emorave:
if it werent for the pills id be all alone
60mg imma die alone
i dont even know wtf im on
fallin on the floor i cant fuckin walk

spillin pills on the ground im gone
i mix half a perc with ondancetron
i feel so alone imma kil myself
hear u call my name when im nodding off

yea i dont feel alive
smokin pressure think i wanna die
get ur bread up ur so fuckin fried
i take extra im so fuckin high

off these drugs fr cuz i dont fuckin lie
if u dont fuck with me dont waste my fucking time
i dont trust nobody only need mine
bad anixety so imma take 5

teardrops on my phone +emorave

@7senss @inssekt
prod @5vexe @silversxo @with3rx

inssekt & senses - disaster (5v + silver + with3r)

now + kiryano

it just don't cut it to hate it u gotta love it
explain it until its nothing u love it when ur the subject
pull us into your stomach and throw up into the bucket
in cover when ur in public u love to feel so above it

pull us into your nothing
sorry we saw it coming
sorry they saw it coming
you'll never get to stop running
u think you're so fucking cunning
flexing your victim budget
wait for ur friends to cut it
destroy yourself oh i love it

watch you keep up the cycle
all u wan be is viral
oh im so suicidal
look at my perfect smile
you act like a fucking child
cant pull me into your spiral
i know ur not in denial

wake up
ur so fucking stuck
im so fucking cut
hate your fucking guts
tell me loosen up
oh ur all i have
shut the fuck up
i gave you all i had
told me that id be dead
"if u don't come with us"
u make no fucking sense
act like ur 21
bitch ur like 28
grow the fuck up
ill say it to your face
dare u to show up

spotify

bridge burner / nothing learner

prod @rubbishrubbish

i jus dropped a pill in the drink i cant walk right
nodded off to much lost my breath i cant talk right
i cant let go wanna die but im terrified
i love you so much but we cant get the time right

see u tonight  
come close when the moods right
sleep holding u its too nice
scared to fuck it up i wanna do it right

i can never do it right
fuck my life up but it feels nice
orange oc 40 railed two lines
how u gon relapse over two lines

i dont feel so good about goodbyes
seconds i would live in for lifetimes
i dont wanna live by the guidelines
spend my fucking life in the sidelines

waste my time
try to act fine
shawty so fine
always ride with a crime
skye capture all our good times

20 milligrams imma sleep skip a whole day
ketamine in my leg got me flyin no way
i jus showed her my whole stash she like no way
i dont fuck with that sprayed shit i smoke propane

say it straight im not tryna play ur fkin mind games
i wake up take my pills try to have a good day
routine episodes dont waste ur energy
hate how much i love how i feel on amphetamines

its okay sometimes i feel okay
its okay shawty ull be okay
its okay we all gon be okay
when i hold u close i feel okay

we gon be okay
promise me youll stay
something in the way
i cant see my face
i just run away
but this time ill stay
time with you cant waste
i belong in places

different every day
wanna keep you safe
please dont walk away
need to see your face
i wont get in your way
all work and no play
i work just to stay
keep my head in place

fuck saying goodbye i want to live forever prod. rubbish

@45avast @820 @kiraiu @odel007

(me)
save me, i need help
get out, cant find myself
been down, where i turn to now?
dont know, cuz ive checkd out.

i been out of touch, need to know
can you save me from where ill go?
ever notice how i roll?
in silence, im alone.

i been thinkin how ill fly
with angels in the night
need a place to adress my side
cant be scared when ur up all night

its all the same
dont wash these stains
need to escape
just want to be saved

(nosgov)
i need some time away
its cuz things never changed
its cuz i cannot face
one reason i should stay

i wait for thoughts
its so dumb now
i cant tolnize
it doesnt make sense

i could never change
im still waiting for the better days
i cant obey
i still wish it would stop
but ill never change
you still counting change
i been getting paid
put 10 on my name

i wait for thoughts
its so dumb now
i cant tolnize
it doesnt make sense

(me)
save me, i need help
get out, cant find myself
been down, where i turn to now?
dont know, cuz ive been checkd out.

save me ft. nosgov (odel+kirai)

credits are in every song description, mostly self produced <3

impure

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