this song is very sentimental and important to me.

song is coproduced by me and @gl0wrm, 
im really proud of the synthy part before my verse in the middle. 
everything about this song is beautiful and somber to me, and it always tugs at my heart. i hope you enjoy!

lyrics

[ intro @gl0wrm ]

all that I wanted
I’m feeling honest
All out of debt, clean me
all out of hope
run,

getting fucked up
I’m me
And imma hear what you on
want from me,
a reason to love?
I-
imma wait out loud
sorry,
imma waste my mouth
i’m late,
imma waste my own on you

inside your head
can you help fill my heart
beside of aid,
I’ll carry ur hell
i'll feel it all

[ verse @sprigtek ]

open your mouth
and let the words spill off your tongue
ill wait for anything
you have to say
open your mind
and let your preconceptions run into the ground
for good
my time is yours to keep
on almost any day
so take me, if u would

Until the sky falls on our heads
Until the ground below below our feet diminishes
Until i lie beside you dead
Until our visions are so fleeting
that we cant see right behind
or right ahead

[ outro @gl0wrm ]

all that I wanted
I’m feeling honest
All out of debt, clean me
all out of hope
run,

getting fucked up
I’m me
And imma hear what you on
want from me,
a reason to love?
I-
imma wait out loud
sorry,
imma waste my mouth
i’m late,
imma waste my own on you

inside your head
can you help fill my heart

who wants flowers when theyre dead? + gl0wrm

https://youtu.be/NN69KdiXpr0

write my name on the paper
spill the blood for a favor
still got the cross on my neck
and your bitch still throwing it back
I’m smoking cali pack from the US
ecstasy make you feel like a princess
I just hit the plug on whatsapp 
she look in my cup like what’s that

rick owens on my jeans
I just put double c’s on my feet
ask your bitch how I been
I’m off the lsd in a dream
and they wanna be me
they really think I don’t see
she really think I’m mean
she still fuckin on me yuh

I’m in the fuckin Benz like a german 
rich gang like birdman
bad bitch she persian 
she hold my shank in her birkin
bag
I fell in love with the bag
I’d sell my soul for the bag

they wannna know how I did it
It’s a secret
I get the prada and I flip it
to some retards
you playing the game can’t hack it
she looking good like a pageant 
I keep a blade and a hatchet

beauty pageant +redpriest mv in desc

vocals, mix + master, and half of the production by me
other half of production by @rainphase1

[fall 2024]

prod @yumenikki

i could never do wrong
didnt think id really fuck up
i would never get lost
lay awake till the suns up
i was falling out of love
didnt really mean to hurt you
but you took so much
watched my wings slowly turn black

i will never get my soul back
now im walking down the wrong path
i lost friends i wont get back
i lost friends i wont get back
i wish i could just forget you
i wish i could take it all back
now im ruined cuz i let you
all my fault, yea i know that

i just get left on read
make me feel lesser than
fake life i play pretend
fake thoughts inside my head
i like to cut myself
try to get lost again
i dont need any help
rock bottom is in my bed

rock bottom is nodding off
so hard i lose my breath
unconscious almost dead
wake up and see your face
youll look so terrified
ill feel so dead inside
pinpoint dots in my eyes
but ill still want to be high

pinpoint eyes prod. dollmaker

go
cut
i cant be in love
trust
i cant take enough
stuck
i do not belong
fuck
where did we go wrong

wear the same clothes every single day
stop talking theres nothing left to say
dont wanna stop i just wanna be okay
im sorry ill never really change

go outside, walk for miles, im awake
im in lastplace dont care if im late
fall asleep cuz i really wanna stay
always thinkin bout u i cant stay away

you dont really care what i do
just as long as youre not there to see it
how the fuck else can i prove
that i really miss you i mean it

bleeding from my head to my shoes
makes me think of you so i keep it
dont u have the sense imma lose
this just makes me wanna keep secrets

spotify

where did i go wrong prod. 5v

prod @wh0d
@emorave

sorry ive been such a let down
barred in the greyhound
bad dog stay down
i dont wanna play now
i lay fucking face down
8 grams i dont feel the same now (feel the same now)
i got bad habits watch me break down
pissed off wanna blow my brains out
Margiela waist down
stuck i wanna break out
i dont think u get it
no one really gets it
i do shows i got set lists
last but i rep it
get in on the guest list
push n pull i like being reckless
shut me down sorry i suggested
felt way too good so i wrecked it
want it so i kept it
i really regret this

ik that im fine but r u fine too
im never sober im not in the mood
baby what have i got to do 
to get it thru 2 u
that u r losing me
ik its over
tell me something come closer
i will never be sober
we'll go thru this over n over again
cut me off tell me that we r not friends
over and over again
ive come too close
never again

never again ft emorave

senses & inssekt - sick (lovbug sg37)

This song is really meaningful to me and marks my move from NYC to Denver
Produced by me and @youshowedmewhatloveis 
thank you for the guitar!!

lyrics

[@sprigtek]

There was Peace before…
Can we go back
our world is waning, 
I’ve been feeling trapped
With these memories
Breakfast and tea
Movies we watched
And the way you held me
Everyones leaving
How can one last?
Its awfully uncommon
Given my past

Cranberry oatmeal
Watching you read
Books that I gave you
and books you gave me

Friends you had shown me
Ones ill forget
Biding my time in a half empty bed

In a Forest of trees without leaves
at a corner where we used to meet
at a flower shop, flipping a coin,
at the airport, missing the point.

[@youshowedmewhatloveis]

am i wasting my breath?
it starts to feel like it i guess 
let the words spill out my chest
i wish we could lie here instead
(ooohhh)
it wont be long and u know 
i claw at my skin and it shows 
(just) a break in my step not a fall
though not far from the ground below

i scratched my arms ceaselessly
u blame it on my compulsivity 
but then say something sweet 
and everything disappears around me

[both @sprigtek and @youshowedmewhatloveis]
so ill take some time 
with you to watch the world spin around 
while we still can

end

missing the point + gosha

produced by @5vexe

i call out for my bunny
face down, head down
looking for my honey
don't care if it sounds weird now
would u say u love me?
too many hating can u leave me on my own
i tried to take control cuz
im feeling at home when your touch is so sweet
distant, cope and you made me see that
when i wanna run you'll be hunting all week
peeling off the dirt that isn't there when you hold me

call out my delusions
oh you know that its weird
i could tell u many things i know you'd never wanna hear
the day i left, i'm on my own and never felt this free
they're hating cuz they're stuck here
wishing they could dream like me
u call me bitter but u know it aint sincere
its been working though
its been grinding on my gears
i dream to be enough so i can show worth to my fears
only going up been scouting 301 this year
i know ur deceitful
at the same time, less is more to me tho
cant begin to tell u what u mean to me tho
its on me, i keep holding onto the stress
that's on me

because u know it
u know what ur blowin' it on
yeah nobody makes you wanna love
all along and u don't wanna tell me
but i can say it

i call out for my bunny
face down, head down
looking for my honey
don't care if it sounds weird now
would u say u love me?
too many hating can u leave me on my own
i tried to take control cuz
i'm feeling at home when your touch is so sweet
distant, cope and you made me see that
when i wanna run you'll be hunting all week
peeling off the dirt that isn't there when you hold me

honey (prod. 5v)

prod @jolst @taylor

@stellathepixie
when ur alone 
put ur hands up for me 
tell me what you know
say it with ur body
it’s all about u
it’s all about us
i don’t blame u 
ur just crying in the club

love me a little 
love me a lot 
i’d never take away something you love
so many miles
that’s between us 
but you get prettier with every one
hate other people
don’t give a fuck 
testing my limits on feeling your touch 
i’d smile but it’s so bad
you can have fun i like that 

@creepybuggirl
ur long sleeves
wrapped around me
i can’t help it but to get this feeling
softly
hold me
i can’t take it anymore
don’t know what to say now
i look at the floor
avoid ur face and think how i want more
but what’s the reason
does there always have to be one

crying in the club ft. creepybuggirl & emorave (jolst taylor)

@emorave :) <3
prod taylor morgan + shinju

Say you didn’t notice
Take it back 
then i left with your heart broken
My bad :(
I couldn’t explain my emotions
It’s sad
I’ll get better and i know this,
Cause i have

You were honest,
I went to the pond and thought about it
Reflecting to my core, present harnessed
To have you by my side is the best
I wanna touch your skin and kiss your neck
Everything i say, i meant


emo:

oh yuh
dont go, yuh
i cant be alone, yuh
west, thats where i wan go

dont act like you know shit
all them pills had me broke, shit
fell in love with opiates
now im up cuz kicked that shit

i dont wanna be here, shitt
it can all go downhill so quick
i wanna be more than this
dont ask bout it cuz im over it

downhill (taylor morgan + shinju)

credits are in every song description, mostly self produced <3