i create noises and put them inside of this container

all sprig songs

produced by @sprr00w + @craves <3
written recorded and mixed by me 

as of making this I'm not doing good

🠟 lyrics 🠟

i wish that i could say
that im at my worst

but i know you’re here too


took my mind to a place
where i can hide my pain

so i can fucking hear you


and when you’re done
i turn my phone off
so i can disappear 

u dont wanna know
the things i do to cope
when ur not here


so don’t you worry your 
little head

im all ears for you 
as i should be

ill keep lying and saying
that im fine

until your problems
eat
away at me



time we get away from here
and see a place that doesn’t rain 

its time to say goodbye to home
cuz all it brought us both was pain 

its time for us to vanish 
in a way where they ask
are we sane ?

its time 

for us to walk alone


ill go left and you go right

ill go dark and you go light

ill accept while you deny

and say im not a waste of time


ill go left and you go right

ill go dark and you go light

ill accept while you deny

and say im not a waste of your time

i wish i had more to give

i love all these people dearly >|<

produced by me and @kojowav
mix/chops by me

🠟 lyrics 🠟

[ intro : @xxsyris ]

what i feel around you 
is hard to describe
i can see thru ur lies 
please dont hurt whats inside

i feel like a nuisance
i feel i'm reclusive
why do u act cluless
you make me feel useless

[ chorus : @sprigtek ]

you still 
look at me 
like you did

back when 
we had met
u had let me in 

even when
you explain
its so strange

am i the one?
i -i
 the one
that u still miss


and ur the one
   that i want- 
i want to listen to 

until my death
    when i dream 
i still envision you

why would you tell me that?
if it just isnt true 

those things we said would happen 
am i just your distraction?

[ verse 1 : @xxsyris ]

i'm not the one, oh
i'm not the one oh,
what we've become
something that can't be undone

i'm not the one, oh
i'm not the one oh,
what we've become
something that can't be undone

and i know its fucked up but stay here with me

i promise its worth it so baby dont leave

you know that i want this you know that i need this

spinning in circles with lies but believe this

just keep it a secret ur love yeah i need it

i need it your love yeah i need it

[ verse 2 : @venusiann ]

i can't breathe, i'm so weak
i can't go on like this right now
but maybe, you'll save me
want you to lift me from the ground

and i can't keep you around
love is my curse i'd drown

hate to see your face
i wanna escape
to another place
never wanted it this way

[ chorus : @sprigtek ]

you still 
look at me 
like you did

back when 
we had met
u had let me in 

even when
you explain
its so strange

am i the one?
i -i
 the one
that u still miss


and ur the one
   that i want- 
i want to listen to 

until my death
    when i dream 
i still envision you

why would you tell me that?
if it just isnt true 

those things we said would happen 
am i just your distraction?

[ end ]

resolve / once + syris + venusiann

vocals, production, and cover art by me

i've been working on this for 5 months and i still havent perfected it...
but i need to get it off my mind, so here it is <3

🠟 lyrics 🠟

self hate 
contradictions 
little bit 
narcissistic 
i know what keeps me going
its much better than missing 

But this the problem
This is an issue
I need to fix me
You need to fix you

I cant hear you out no more
And i don't even wanna get you 

stared into my inner workings 
please just show me how to grow 

then my demons fucking told me
i should feel this on my own

i cant disagree
it hurts
its real
and thats how i judge things

i cant see my future
without drugs and dreams of nothing 

But its beautiful the way it stings
i cherish that burn 

I can never tell 
what am i worth?
and what have i earned? 


We grew closer
When you hurt me
When you cut me
When you burned me

I liked it better when u didn’t care 
(didnt care) 


We grew further apart
You tried to heal me
Its not the same as the start
You just dont feel me

Trust me love theres enough of this pain to share

stared into my inner workings 
please just show me how to grow 

then my demons fucking told me
i should feel this on my own

i cant disagree
it hurts
its real
and thats how i judge things

i cant see my future
without drugs and dreams of nothing 

But its beautiful the way it stings
i cherish that burn 

I can never tell 
what am i worth?
and what have i earned?

cherish it

@prodpatient
@noklaf11
@glassxhotel
@spazzteamonline

mix me & patient
track arrangement patient
master patient
gfx me

(patient)
you told me one
and you told them two
your heart was numb
i wasnt numb with you
well now im done
i just want the truth
it wasn’t you
who fucking broke the news
to me
i don’t believe
a thing you’re saying now
i wanted you to be
the one for me
but now im doubting
if you’re real

(syringe angel)
solitude is selling my soul l
i plant grave flowers but they’re  choke by a stroke
 this city doesn't know  it just stands like a stone
but i wanna know...

u know i'd like to tell you smth
 i have a gun to my head and u can’t stop me 
you left me like that... :(
 In hotel of glass ... :)

im bright (??) im fine (?!!!)
these lies quite hard
my heart is dust 
tears drugs wtf

(patient)
under moonlight
high tide
this is how i grow
teardrops
hang from my eyes
u tell me that you know
everything inside of my mind
i tell u that u don’t
well it turns out
u dont give a fuck
and now im on my own

leaving doubt

Spotify

leaving doubt + patient (noklaf11 yggd patient)

it took me 20+ versions to get this

produced/mixed/written by me
cover art edited by @venusrose4u

🠟 lyrics 🠟

conceal my heart
cant trust another soul
to pull me out 
i think i need to find

how to 
make this my own
create a home
without a hand to hold 


i swear this is my final plea
to find a love whose fine with me
these wounds create a 
timeless piece
of
whats inside this mind that keeps me

painfully awake at night 
in this 
drab and empty room of white
in this 
hole devoid of love and light
that i
dug myself into despite your

passionately held advice
telling 
me to find a fucking vice
that
doesn’t have to do with knives 
or 
sacrificing sections of me

ohh i was too late
but i see it now
can i fix my ways?
before i bleed out

conceal my heart
cant trust another soul
to pull me out 
i think i need to find

how to 
make this my own
create a home
without a hand to hold

plea

all audio by me / coverart also by me

🠟 lyrics 🠟

In each attempt...

Your symbol laid in the view of my path

And with every step that I took, with deft

If you weren’t beside me, I knew it wouldn’t be the last

Where do you believe were from?
And where do you think we’ll go, from here?

I wanna hear it all from you,
So tell me how you feel...

Don’t act like you know how this will go,

Will you leave me alone, when I need you close?

I knew
You see
Through me

I knew you could see through me...

You see some things that i cant see
Ohhh

Although sometimes,
You tire my mind

Im worried sick
Will she survive?

Just one more night
Just one more try

To grab this rope
Attempt to climb

Its yours to take
Your choice, not mine

Its not the end
You still have time

I see you’re trying for yourself this time,
And thats a better start

Trust me, no matter where we are
I'll hold your voice inside my heart.

Well, do you care if I bring it up?

Your presence weighs on me and its tough to look away

And when I sing of something else...

You keep on coming up,
No matter what i say...

Ohhh,
Well maybe thats okay

Where do you believe were from?
And where do you think we’ll go, from here?

I wanna hear it all from you,
So tell me how you feel...

Don’t act like you know how this will go,

Will you leave me alone, when I need you close?

I knew you could see through me

"caring hurts, but i cant turn it off..."

in grey

senses & sprigtek - vulnerable (prod shinju & djh)

@sprigtek @prodlura @glassxhotel

produced by me & lura
additional production by sprigtek

(chorus: sprigtek)
pupils blooming
    in the light of 
          you
through glasses
     that frame our faces

a source of warmth
        that i return to
     i yearn to
             break your stasis

im in awe 
    at your brain 
        and the way it bends

always trying to 
    convey
         we can make amends 

i hope 
   that you know 
       that im listening

always
  waiting
     until you
            kiss me

(verse: venus)
do you see
what i see?
honestly
i could be
anything u want as long as i breathe!
never wanna be without u, hold me please

don't hurt me, i'll show u
that i bleed, just like u!
i try to, console u
u want me, i want u 2

& honestly i wanna freak out!!
bc i hate to see u beat down :/
why not just tell me that u love me?
u know it always drives me crazy!!!!!!!!

(verse 2: sprigtek)
warm air
its your breath
all on my neck

too much interest 
im so careless

tell me if u
tell me if u fear this

i act like its nothing
but i dread your disappearance

i act like im nothing
till the day ur sick of hearing it 

sending
signals
filled with interference

bloom w/ sprigtek (me + lura)

drums by @oldyungtoadsage, remaining production, mels / vox / mix by me

🠟 lyrics 🠟

I sensed that something here was different 
I felt like something here was wrong
But i don’t have a way to fix it
My only vices are these songs 

And when im wounded,
will you kiss the spot that hurts 
or is it wrong for me to ask?

for me to ask???

I cant stop thinking of your skin on mine 
but the only view i get of u is online 

i think i need to fucking go outside
cuz its been a while
and im fucking dying 

Pain
Abbreviated
I burn what i grow
Till its all the same to me

All these fucking games
that they play are lame to me

please talk real
all these bitches fucking sound the same to me...


ill cut you out if you suppress me

all the blood means = growth
++more stress please

i just wanna get these words of my chest please 

step out
from depression 
like i bested it

its my craft 
i invest in it

my hearts not pure
you tested it,
so u know

i strike down
what's best in me

i cut down and rebuild 
what's left of me
on my own 

shawty keep on texting me
u can try 
but u wont see the rest of me

no no no 

my swag so heavenly 
i don't take no pills 
match my energy 
no, u wont

I sensed that something here was different 
I felt like something here was wrong
But i don’t have a way to fix it
My only vices are these songs 

And when im wounded,
will you kiss the spot that hurts 
or is it wrong for me to ask?

for me to ask???

I cant stop thinking of your skin on mine 
but the only view i get of u is online 

i think i need to fucking go outside
cuz its been a while
and im fucking dying

impure

- featuring [@daybat aka spiral]  | (second verse)
- produced by [@mothshonor aka ami4evr]
- additional production, effects and mix by me

🠟 lyrics 🠟

[ first half : @sprigtek ]

Hanging on for something 
u believed that i had

But my hands are closed noww..

you took my heart from me

i didn’t have what u wanted

still u took a part that i need

you’ll never give it back, be honest

i don’t even want you to now

i dont want you to
noowww...

[ verse 2 ]

mind goes static 

i control the mix like magic

bad shit happens
when ur passive

part of me knows that im trash 
thats why u like to laugh me off

please im begging u to stop

hold my blade two inches off

hesitate to let it drop



all those times you said im worthless

all those times you said that im worth it

i just wanna find my purpose 

acting like
you never said
those things at all?

always hurting 
wishing i could fucking 
clear my mind

clear it of you
and leave your face a couple miles behind

[ verse 3 / outro : @daybat /spiral ]

you wanted more from me
but i can’t see the light like i used to 
will you give me something i’m used to
something that hurts
show me my worth
none of my thoughts look so pretty on paper
my body’s a prison and i can’t escape her
trapped in myself
i’ll envy someone else
i’m not your friend i don’t like you
search the mirror until i find you

passive >|< + spiral

all production, vocals, mixing and mastering by me!
I've gotten a lot better at mixing in the last 9 months :)
Also, I will be performing this soon at an event called 
"Make America Scene Again" in NYC, at a venue called The Meadows
Thank you for listening!

🠟 lyrics 🠟

too hot
too cold
turn it off
i just needed a break

still want
to give you hope
to show you 
that
it was all for your sake


where can i
find those eyes

another time
in another face

where do they hide?

will i ever
hear your words

another time
in another mouth 

baby, please don’t 

lie to me
lie to me

ur prolly sickened
by the 
sight of me
sight of me

i know u struggle to survive
but please,
try for me! 

i hope u didn’t mean it
when u said
you’d die for me

 
just know that 
i will always
watch
and i carry that weight 

it gave me chills when u said
that for u 
its too late 

i’ve always wondered
on the other-side
of deaths gate

will we cross over to a better life?
and be saved...

or is it
just this

a world on the cusp of melting

catching 
the tail end
nothing is helping 

each day repeating
the world just keeps selling 

poison and sweets to
delay the rebellion

and we fall for it
cuz were made to be
part of all of it
so we can think were free

well i want more than this
and so do many more
but we can only guess
what else the world will have left
when its
all done and over

you're too cold

-
where can i
find those eyes

another time
in another face

where do they hide?

will i ever
hear your words

another time
in another mouth 

baby, please don’t 

lie to me
lie to me

ur prolly sickened
by the 
sight of me
sight of me

i know u struggle to survive
but please,
try for me! 

i hope u didn’t mean it
when u said
you’d die for me

is it just this

is it just this?

all audio by me no samples <3

this is the first song under my new name, sprigtek!

i had the name patient for like 4 or 5 years even outside of this page,
but its time for me to turn a new leaf :,)

interface

u could never, yeah i know

prod @stellathepixie & @sprigtek
feat @sprigtek

(pixie)
otherworldly 
politics 4 kids of foreign bodies 
smash me 2 the ground 
u stop my heartbeat
fucked my perception of things around me 
blush and ill bleed

razors, ivs
i am sick and god i know what’s waiting 
flowers underneath but my ribs r breaking
sleep n keep repeating in the backseat 
live while starving 

i won’t stay young and i haven’t been happy 
coz im trying so hard 2 want what u gave me
strawberry veins run w sugar n sweet tea
ill spit the blood back and savor the green sea

kiss my body, forcibly become relieved by me
u could never, yeah i know, but at least im not on my knees 
maybe i will burn forever but my love she tastes like peace
n when divinity comes for us i know they’ll burn with me

look on the lake by the sixth circle x2
blasphemous girl your blood’s in the water x2

(patient)
losing words so slowly that u cant tell
i say something but u don’t give a fuck
oh well

nothing heard from me slow crawling
towards ur heart before i fall
the chambers cold n white walled 
not jaded yet im so appalled

i get concerned when you say nothing
and i’m waiting for your calls
my heart is burning when we speak
but u don’t seem to care at all

i knew that this would happen
now i think of back then
cover me in gas and
throw the fucking match in

but i cant go yet
don’t know why but something keeps me here
part of me is wishing i spoke less of love and left unclear 
but i cant go yet
i don’t how u keep me here

      part of me is wishing

                        part of me is wishing

sixth circle w/ sprigtek (val & sprig)

this song is very sentimental and important to me.

song is coproduced by me and @gl0wrm, 
im really proud of the synthy part before my verse in the middle. 
everything about this song is beautiful and somber to me, and it always tugs at my heart. i hope you enjoy!

lyrics

[ intro @gl0wrm ]

all that I wanted
I’m feeling honest
All out of debt, clean me
all out of hope
run,

getting fucked up
I’m me
And imma hear what you on
want from me,
a reason to love?
I-
imma wait out loud
sorry,
imma waste my mouth
i’m late,
imma waste my own on you

inside your head
can you help fill my heart
beside of aid,
I’ll carry ur hell
i'll feel it all

[ verse @sprigtek ]

open your mouth
and let the words spill off your tongue
ill wait for anything
you have to say
open your mind
and let your preconceptions run into the ground
for good
my time is yours to keep
on almost any day
so take me, if u would

Until the sky falls on our heads
Until the ground below below our feet diminishes
Until i lie beside you dead
Until our visions are so fleeting
that we cant see right behind
or right ahead

[ outro @gl0wrm ]

all that I wanted
I’m feeling honest
All out of debt, clean me
all out of hope
run,

getting fucked up
I’m me
And imma hear what you on
want from me,
a reason to love?
I-
imma wait out loud
sorry,
imma waste my mouth
i’m late,
imma waste my own on you

inside your head
can you help fill my heart

who wants flowers when theyre dead? + gl0wrm

ft. @sprigtek
prod. me & @sprigtek

(gl0)
im ur god see?
20 fucking falling
i cant fall again
i used to smoke death
ur eyes starry
ik its fucked up
i just want u here, i want u near 
i want u fucked up
i wanna kill and erase i wanna taste what u love
if i cant bring u down i wanna take what u love
we can wait til the night, i promise i wont bite
i wanna take my own life, i wanna take my own life
deep shift in the dark, i wanna see u whimper, i might even say what u think u wanted
im right in ur way ik u wont remember
cutting in with love, it takes me

(sprig)
faith is out
faith is done
aahh
filled with doubt
i cant go too long
without
running into
what was
full moon
and u look at me like first blood
dont care
that it hurts to touch
im your choice
and its never too much
its not hard
ill just keep my mouth shut
sorry if i cant
do what u want
wide gash
cuz the blade is too blunt
if u get too close
you’ll get cut
who knows, u might want it, up front
look in every crack
and every corner
to find nothing and
said i made mistakes
but im the type to say it
then do it again
fuck
i b losing my friends
cant trust
don’t look,
they’re dead
to us
its me, and the meds
ill hurt like this till death

faith ft. sprigtek (gl0 x sprig)

guitar by @gl0wrm, drums split, all other production and mixing by me

cover art also by me

lyrics

[ intro / chorus : @sprigtek]

i think i turned 
bad
i
said
it wouldn’t take long
thats
why 
you’re turning your back
i 
knew
you’d be gone

do i get inside your head
too 
much
will you regret 
me
this once?

kept up by these 
thoughts 
that 
i cant outrun

[ verse 1 : @sprigtek ]

almost dead
but u breathe your light into me

i fight what i feel
when it gets to me

i send awful chills
down your spine
when i say
i’m the downhill descent
in your life

tell me what
are you trying to get from me?

looking close
as u wait for the death of me

u should know, 
if u stay you’ll get sick with me
then get sick of me

[ verse 2 : @gl0wrm ]

wish I felt nothing
watch it fall away
I say something
Im waiting for the day
u dont notice
and idc at all
I can’t show this
At all 
I wish I felt nothing
watch it fall away
I say something
Im waiting for the day
that u dont notice
and idc at all
I can’t show this

cover up my eyes
when im with u a part of dies
I see u from far away
I got nothing I even wanna say
u dont notice shit
fall back and breath thru it
I see u from far away
I got nothing I even wanna say

[ outro / chorus : @sprigtek ]

i think i turned 
bad
i
said
it wouldn’t take long
thats
why 
you’re turning your back
i 
knew
you’d be gone

do i get inside your head
too 
much
will you regret 
me
once?

i see something u dont wanna know...

[ end ]

downhill + gl0wrm

ft @ons13 in the middle of the track <3

main production, chorus and outro, mix/master by me
additional production by @2sleepymayne

what u need + ons13

vocals, mix + master, and half of the production by me
other half of production by @rainphase1

14th of February at 4pm EST

This is a teaser track for the acoustic guitar EP I'm currently in the process of finishing <3
Ive been practicing guitar for the past couple months, so everything on the EP will be played or sung by me.

I’m Sorry But I Need To Leave For My Sake
A case of right heart in the wrong place
And in the wrong time
You’re the only reason that I tried to stay
In a place
Where I wouldn’t find rest or light
Just didn’t feel right
Now I’m learning, how to say with my chest
Things I should have said
Or found, on the first day
I didn’t look ahead,
Or expect to reject this place
I promise

In Retrospect
You gave it your all
I gave it my best until the last text I sent
Now we’re trying to mend
Our wounds
Although they are different
I learned a new type of gentleness
From you, in a different sense
I learned a new type of gentleness
From you

This Time
I’m running towards, not from
I can bend my knees
And stand what I’ve done
I’ll dull my teeth so my bites don’t hurt
In my search for home, I’ll arrive unsure
Hoping, wishing, someone cares to
Mend my wings and lock my stare
This time if somebody sees me,
Hopefully, I won’t leave them bleeding

I’m Sorry But I Need To Leave For My Sake
A case of right heart in the wrong place
And in the wrong time
You’re the only reason that I tried to stay
In a place
Where I wouldn’t find rest or light
Just didn’t feel right
Now I’m learning, how to say with my chest
Things I should have said
Or found, on the first day
I didn’t look ahead,
Or expect to reject this place
I promise

im an orchid

This song is really meaningful to me and marks my move from NYC to Denver
Produced by me and @youshowedmewhatloveis 
thank you for the guitar!!

lyrics

[@sprigtek]

There was Peace before…
Can we go back
our world is waning, 
I’ve been feeling trapped
With these memories
Breakfast and tea
Movies we watched
And the way you held me
Everyones leaving
How can one last?
Its awfully uncommon
Given my past

Cranberry oatmeal
Watching you read
Books that I gave you
and books you gave me

Friends you had shown me
Ones ill forget
Biding my time in a half empty bed

In a Forest of trees without leaves
at a corner where we used to meet
at a flower shop, flipping a coin,
at the airport, missing the point.

[@youshowedmewhatloveis]

am i wasting my breath?
it starts to feel like it i guess 
let the words spill out my chest
i wish we could lie here instead
(ooohhh)
it wont be long and u know 
i claw at my skin and it shows 
(just) a break in my step not a fall
though not far from the ground below

i scratched my arms ceaselessly
u blame it on my compulsivity 
but then say something sweet 
and everything disappears around me

[both @sprigtek and @youshowedmewhatloveis]
so ill take some time 
with you to watch the world spin around 
while we still can

end

missing the point + gosha

credits are in every song description, mostly self produced <3