gxat.

this song is completely non profit

@hatefulbeats

Lyrics

I can't let out what I keep inside of my own mind
I can't get out what I got inside this head of mine
So I build it up until I break down
Until I can feel enough to create what I make now

I ain't even did enough to rest so I can't lay down
Everyone I met and thought was real is just a fake now
Or am I fake? I think I'm the face of every single ounce of pain
I hate because it make me break

I don't understand
This is not the plan
Don't know where I am
I got lost inside my thoughts, oh not again

Don't like where I been
All I did was sin
We only begin
Just so we can end, I don't need a friend

I'ma rot all alone and I know that
Went to Hell just to go and get my soul back
Gave it away cause I ain't wanna stay
I ain't wanna be alive to see another day

let out. | Produced by hateful

this song is completely non profit

Lyrics

Nothing seems to be working out for me, I'm all out of options
And talking it out won't do nothing
So leave me alone, I'm not picking up the phone
I just need a fucking sign, I need a miracle

And if God don't come down his self
I think I'll do something that'll send me to Hell
Because I need to become stable
And I don't see how I can be able

To be good with all of this bad
I might just take myself out, lately all I feel like is trash
I just wanna let it all out, swear on all I love I might crash
I don't even fucking know how everyone else isn't mad

Broke as fuck and broken
All hope is fucked, I'm hopeless
I've had enough of soaking in tears
That I was thrown in

I'm gonna throw you off the edge of this Earth
I'ma take you and put all of my pain where it hurts
In another, scream but it's smothered
Bleach in the gutters
Your soul is now in the water, deep under

I'll take this world and I'll turn it to ash
Turn all you have into something you had
I'll never know why my mind just went bad
Spend so long healing then fuck up so fast

You're not helping me at all bitch please get off my back
Into love I'll never fall because it never last

trash. | Produced by tennis player

this song is completely non profit

Lyrics

I don't know how to feel at all
No emotions, I killed 'em all
I don't wanna go back to where I dread
I don't like some of the things that I said

I'm not a bad guy but I've done some bad things
Build it so high / turn it into nothing
I don't understand, I don't like where I am

In this room all alone, I'm just staring at my phone
and I really wanna call but you do not care at all so why would I?

Why would I?
Why should I?
How could I?
How could I?
How could I?

Love her so much when she don't give a fuck at all
I fall again, building up a wall again
I know it's not right but I don't like these times
Where I lay in bed all night and cry about my fucked up life

I don't get this and I don't want to
I'm so afflicted, why do I want you?

bitter. (unwritten) | Produced by alicks

Lyrics
You're not what I want, I'm sorry I told you were when I knew that you weren't
I thought I could care just enough then maybe it'd work but it just took a turn
But love isn't easy, you can't make it happen, said it before but I still haven't learned
There's a lot I could say, if it's not through a song I don't know how to put all these thoughts into words

That's why I cave, that's why I break, that's why I feel like I'll never escape
I can't get it out, it's stuck like a splinter
I'm keeping it down but my patience is thinner
I'm breaking, this voice in my head I can't take it, echos though my body I'm shaking
And everyone says I'm amazing

But I know that's a lie cause if I was I wouldn't make these fucking songs
Maybe their amazed at just the fact I make these fucking songs
I'm only on this path I think is right cause life so fucking wrong
Chest is feeling tight, I might just snap and then I'm fucking gone

Hold on, come close, don't let me go
So dumb, can't cope, wrote my own name in a death note

Told that girl she was my last hope, said "okay" and she still lied so
I won't trust no bitch, they gone switch
I'ma deal with it making myself so rich
I won't help anyone that hasn't stayed around when I was crashing
I'ma do wrong cause it feel right
Make my ego reach unseen heights
Fuck if I'll regret it, I'm making you regret it
I'm leaving a scar make sure you won't forget it
I'm fucked, I know
You won't stay, just go
I lost all my hope
Can't trust no fucking hoe
Even if, they'll say it ain't so
I'ma make this whole damn house blow
Try to fuck with me, you fucked up
You don't think I'll leave you fucked up
"That ain't right" don't care, shut the fuck up
I been told my whole life I'm stuck up
I'ma stick in this pain right in you
Make you feel everything I went through
You gone know what the fuck I been through
I don't really give a fuck, I been through

death note, last hope. (prod. capsctrl)

Lyrics

Used to think you were everything
Used to think about thoughts of a weeding ring
You are not who I thought you would truly be
I got lost, you don't know what you do to me

Where the men in black? Need to erase my thoughts
I cannot cope with that, it wanna make me off myself
From this fucking earth, I do not know what I'm worth
I do not like this hurt but at this point all that I know is the hurt

I cannot work without it, I built an empire of pain
Can I feel love? I doubt it, don't understand when I'm not in the rain
Lost that shit when I found it, already knew that it would leave a stain
I do not really wanna talk about it, I cannot breathe unless I'm drowning

Fuck my mind, I'm out it, you do not wanna see if I'm bout it
I'ma cross the line a thousand miles with gas and douse it
May the bridges that I burn light the way
Everything I've hidden has a turn to escape

Let it out inside, you're no longer mine
You ain't down to ride, you gone see the other side
This ain't dark, this only what I am
You gone only think it's dark if you don't truly understand

"and i don't think anyone does"

Every time I was in love, I don't think they really was
Even if they really were, I couldn't feel it enough
I'm missing something and I don't know what that something is
I get so downbad the only up I want is just to give

Give in to the pain and the bad thoughts
It won't go away and I don't think it stops
The only peace I know right now is too much of a cost
So I'ma walk around fucked up until it's not

drown. | Produced by kubsy

lyrics

Why she acting like she want to talk to me?
Tell me what you really want and get the fuck up off of me
We were never even close, why the fuck you blocking me?
Sensitive as fuck, so it's better not to talk to me, talk to him
Seem to know so fucking much about each other now
You can have your fun while I'm suffocating underground
I don't give a fuck, both you fuckers fucking put me down
Now I'm fucking hurt and there's no one around to be found

Why she acting like she want to talk to me?
Tell me what you really want and get the fuck up off of me
We were never even close, why the fuck you blocking me?
Sensitive as fuck, so it's better not to talk to me, talk to him
Seem to know so fucking much about each other now
You can have your fun while I'm suffocating underground
I don't give a fuck, both you fuckers fucking put me down
Now I'm fucking hurt and there's no one around to be found

Why she acting like she want to talk to me?
Tell me what you really want and get the fuck up off of me
We were never even close, why the fuck you blocking me?
Sensitive as fuck, so it's better not to talk to me, talk to him
Seem to know so fucking much about each other now
You can have your fun while I'm suffocating underground
I don't give a fuck, both you fuckers fucking put me down
Now I'm fucking hurt and there's no one around to be found

unknxwn. - Faults.

unknxwn. - faults.

1st collab w/ @unknxwn7 of many!

lyrics: 

unknxwn:

I think to move on is better than what we keep letting go on
You tell me that I'm the problem but we both believe that
Everyone but us is the reason that we're hurting
Thought you were my heaven but I'm only fucking burning

Let's take these chains off
I don't wanna make up
Cause everytime we do, we make up another lie
That only leaves us more broken than what we were the other night

And I don't wanna do that no more
They say hearts don't have bones so how the fuck is mine broke?

cuts:

and i’ve been broken all this time
it’s been a year since you were mine
i know you still hate me but it’s unfair
i would have left you sooner oh i swear
(oh sweaaaar)

i’ve had enough
like stop the bluff
you never seem to tell the truth

you say it hurts
but you’re the worst
you never see what’s in front of you

and you told me every day you resent me
don’t know why i stuck around so long, u jus torment me 
so glad it’s over no more fighting 
don’t see my snap “your ex is typing…”
yea it’s done

unknxwn. - heartbones w/ cuts (lettersick)

finally was able to access my old laptop and here are some songs i'd like to share

wired.

i do.

i hope i don't slip.

stfu.

desire.

unknxwn. - Will We Ever Meet Again

will we ever meet again? | Produced by alex seibel

unknxwn. - She

she. | Produced by alex seibel

unknxwn. - 11:11 (prod. Apes)

Lyrics

Winter's here now I feel at home
If you're not here then I don't have one
I feel fear when I don't feel you 
How could I not fall apart when you
Left here but didn't take me there with you
I guess what you are to me I'm not that for you
Every thing that I said bad for you
I tried my fucking best to be there for you

winter. | Produced by nowhere valley

Lyrics

I don't wanna go home
There I feel much more alone
I'll stay out all night with friends
I know they ain't even friends for real, at least I can pretend

My bed's gonna be a grave
If the thoughts inside my head don't soon regress and go away
I keep fighting for the day that I can say that I'm okay
But I keep waking up and breaking down, don't know if that day is gone come around

We been doing this a while
You don't wanna see me smile
I think I'll just go and leave
Put headphones on and walk for miles

Till my feet
Can't carry me

My legs gonna be in pain
Till the blood from in my feet leaves the soles in my shoe stained
I'll keep walking till the day that I can say that I'm okay
I'm gonna be walking till the day I'm in a grave

I won't ever understand how the fuck I ended up right here
This shit was not the plan
I guess that's what I get, I'm so sick of this shit
They say home is where the heart is but I don't know where that is either

my bed's gonna be a grave. | Produced by velvet

Lyrics

I can't love you, I'ma have to leave you in the past, I want love but you can't do that
From the start I knew it was bad but I looked right past, I lost time that I can't get back
I can't do that again, it hurt too much and I'm not strong enough to hold anything else back, if I get pushed again I really might snap

Make songs so I don't have to talk, pain's my drive but I want it to stop
I'm not sure if that's all true cause without it then what would I do?
Been in the rain so long, I don't like it inside
I wanna live just as much as I've died
Gave love a shot and I hate that I tried, I'm ignoring my heart, I'ma focus on pride

From selfless to selfish, success I am hellbent, found my soul last year, 2020 I'll sell it
Money is all that I want cause I lost what I need
I'm replacing my sadness with greed
I couldn't care if you agree cause when I was still there you didn't
"I'll be waiting right here" you told to me
said that you wouldn't leave then did it

I'm gonna shine so bright, I'ma make sure that I make you miss this
My mind will never be right, the code in my DNA spells out MISFIT
Fuck everybody, I'm dying alone
Don't tell me "I love you" if you really don't
My heart like my name it's location unknxwn., can't wait till the day that I pack up and go

I won't give what I'm not getting
This is real I'm not pretending
I give in, my soul's not healing
Skin so thick you'll never peel me

self care. | Produced by Raspo

Lyrics

Why don't I feel alive?
No life in my eyes
I've died many times
Why do I still try?

Why do I try? 
When I know it's all a lie
In the end you'll say goodbye
No one ever by my side

Will I end in suicide?
These are things inside my mind
That I always try to hide
But it's hard to always fight

So I'll let it all be known
Show some things I've never shown
Learn some things you've never known about me
Evil in me

I've done things I'll never cope with
Might be bad to show this
I take back what I said
I'm keeping it all in my head

I won't love again
Stuck in the pain, I been smothering
Nothing to hope for in life except for the end
Don't think that my pain is a trend
I been so lost in the thoughts of my mental
How in the fuck did I get so far away from myself? It don't make sense
I'm in love with the fact that I hate shit
Took shit so long ain't no wonder I take shit
Hood on my head, don't you look at my face, I'm not confident, I cannot take it
I'll never be fine because you wasted my time
You played with my mind, thought you were a dime but that's a lie
You left me alone and I wanna know, bitch why?

Why don't I feel alive?
No life in my eyes
I've died many times
Why do I still try?

Why do I try? 
I know it's all a lie
In the end you'll say goodbye
No one ever by my side

why don't i feel alive? | Produced by Raspo

Lyrics

Where to go? I don't know, hide my soul, I won't show
Anyone the many things I feel when they get too close
Can't be fixed, I'm too broke, I'm searching for new hope
I'ma let you let you find in me what's really there but won't glow

Be the spark I need to burst in flames, I can't go like Kobain
I just wanna see the day I'm saved, I don't want fucking fame
I just need myself to make me safe but I feel out of place
Yeah I might get lots of plays but I still feel like I'm a waste

You don't know how I feel when I see your eyes
I know it's a disguise covering up all the lies
You told me that you cared but you left me fucking scared
Girl I see you everywhere, swear this life ain't fucking fair

Bitch you ain't real nothing but a hoe
I can't even stay with you, I really gotta go
If I don't, you gone leave me cold
Till I'm dead and I'm growing mold

Scars on my heart you can't see
The one I need you can't be
Stayed here so long, now I can't leave
Breathed in your love, now I can't breathe

I don't wanna die but I don't wanna live like this
Why try when I always end up pissed?
My life is nothing but a ball of shit
I'd cry but I'd rather make a song like this

Why would you hurt me for nothing?
I knew you were up to something
You say you care but you bluffing
I lost my way cause I made you my compass

This is a poem for you my love
The thing I can't take but it is still my drug
I hope we can both learn to go high above
Just so I can knock you down and show you what it's like to trust

You don't even know how hard it was for me to reach out to you
Just for you to do the very thing you said you'd not do
She loves me, she loves me not
Picking pedals off a flower under the moon is all I really got

Nagging about the past, it's all I'm really good at
According to you, it's something we could get back
But looking at your actions, you're something I don't need back
I hope you can find someone, seems you need that

gxat.

Midra