written, performed, mixed and mastered by bedhead & spiral
produced by benjithemachine
recorded @ goblin haven
art by Allen Rogers
lyrics:
Said I’m going down to the grove are you with that
Would you do it for a kiss or a kit kat
I ain’t really one for the chit chat
Small talk cause you know I get a big bag
Crosswalk gotta stop at the red flag
Short walk to the store we could pop tags
Got tired got bored got whiplash
You’re fired I quit gotta split paths
My tires get ripped by the dirt path
You might as well sit we can talk fast
You’re tryna move in with a nomad
Go fast don’t speed don’t slow that
And she don’t like beats with the hi hats
And my songs aren’t sweet when I’m so mad
I don’t get no sleep if I yawn that’s why
Pay it off infinitely cause it cost that
These are just words with no concept
So say something to contradict that
I had to distance myself I went way back
Don’t wanna tell u I’m out of my element
Don’t wanna talk in the room there’s an elephant
Walked in the room now I think that she’s heaven sent
Always the lies in the night with your innocence
Speak with your chest when you talk to me talk with some confidence
I wanna know what it takes
For you to see me the same
You already know i always plan to change
I dug myself in graves 
It doesn’t matter where I run to
If I’m gonna fall back in the same place
It always ends in vain
Why you talk so loud
I can hear what you’re tryna say but it’s like the words just don’t come out
I don’t wanna let you down

infinite cost w/ spiral (+ benjithemachine)

written, performed, mixed and mastered by bedhead
produced by homecomingqueen
recorded @ goblin haven
art by Allen Rogers
lyrics:
Find me at the airport girl I’m coming home
And I got it in my jansport they don’t even know
I was tryna hit the pavement til I hit the road
But I’m chasing down a payment loan it for my soul
The collateral damage security deposit
Don’t know how I manage I wish that I could stop it
Got me on your homescreen he was in your locket
Keep me at a distance can’t breathe in your pocket
You know that I’m unsafe both of us in danger
Didn’t anybody tell you stay away from strangers
Ever since I met you I’ve been feeling stranger
The thing is that I felt you when you were a hater
And I understand why you’re wanting me to quit
But if I was given choices it would take a minute
I cannot decide if I'm out or I’m in it
I’m on and I’m off one don’t wanna admit it
Tracking every move staying on me like a fitbit
Couldn’t tell a lie to you wouldn’t wanna risk it
Couldn’t cut me off it would take more than a wrist slit
I’m never really gone but I’m always gonna miss this
This is how it’s always felt for me
I’ve fallen for your apathy
My fallen order friends that leave
You’ve never not been there for me

at the airport (+ homecomingqueen)

prod @oliver_01 x @methboiswag
sfx @junk_king
w/ @deadcastorr x @zurahh

@junk_king
i been sippin on some wock
ion rly like 2talk, .
i been servin on some rock
keep tha dope up in my sock
u dont wana see me do u ?
i guess i never rly knew u .,/

let me be, im cryin endlessly
4u
cut my heart it nevr meant a thing
2u.//

@deadcastorr
in my room bloody grey goose
cut chains i jus need 2hang loose
i need a break lemme break u
i need someone 2blame lemme blame u
i got diamonds in my knuckles damage doubled
when i punch a fuckin wall in ,\ i just want it 2hurt
i dont wanna look at myself anymore
match in my hand puddle vodka on the floor

@zurahh
they dont want none .. they just talk ya
u know i ♡ ya
girl i want ya
im such a failure .. im at a loss ya
staring at the clock ya , while i rot yhh

took a blade , left it in my right eye
ur the light to my darkness like a nightlight
can u talk nice ? i dont wanna fight
i lost my way.. and i found it in the bright lights

crying endlessly w/ dead.castor x zurah [oliver_01 x methboiswag]

prod @neohnq
sfx @s0lemn
amv https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7FxrBbGDidY @bitekivibes

igot2high  n i dont regret it..
say dat im fine :/
i jus keep forgettin../
imma decline ,, yall can keep pretendin :)
ion feel right//?ion feel right..

u can say it all u want but is it rly like tht?,??/
i jus wanted u2know tht i been fighting my death
i jus wanted u to say dat it aint rly dat bad..
is it rly dat.. bad

offda xan i canttalk do u fw me ??;]
i been steady tryna die do u luvv me?.
i be wishin suicide it get ugly..
u don wana b me im disgustin .'-('''''

say it all u want [neohn]

prod @bloodcryy x @fleshgolem
sfx @s0lemn

worst side out got tha best of me ..
i was west side out i was boutta od:///. ;
damn dats sad ion wana get deep ,,/[
u high or u aint ya ,,  n ion wana breathe:]]]
woah]
sippin hella cold im feelin frostyy yuh. .'
u aint talkin $$$ den u lost me .'
say dat i wont make it who gon stop me ?? >
i got dope2smoke n isa lot pls go. ..
][]
thought i had a heart attack still i ran it back .. .:]
ya i got another bag ,./; poppin til im dead
dropt another script im seein thru u. , ,,
3up in my cup i gota screw loose ;/ '

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u high or u aint freestyle [bloodcryY + flesh]

prod neverforever

filled with broken promises n shit that i regret
hold me close im dyin soon i hope u dont 4get
tell me its ok cuz bae i bet u kno the best
problems will arise wen i js wana fuckin rest

xanax for my temper , my heaart u cut , dismembered
forgot to feel , remember . ts it wont get better
i cry n rip my sweater , i wrote this as a letter
ima fuckin loser,. but beggars cant be choosers

beggin tht my life will end, sry if u were my friend
death is alr spent
tell me im fucked up ik that
death is 2close for me to turn back

im writin all the same songs , u kno i wont b here long
i figured u would love me if i became something
i h8 ppl they h8 me
no1 feels the same thing
lyin is wat made me
u cant pretend u saved me ..

say where ur going [nxietymeds]

ssj5

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