"if I can't cry" produced by @luckeyknows @mental & @akasukii

Performed/Written by @counterxo

(lyrics)
I used to feel pain
I used to feel alive
I used to feel like the rain hit me like some blunted knives
Nothing hits the same
There’s nowhere to confide
Say I’ve been acting strange lately, hate that you’re so right
I can’t put up a fight
I think I lost my sight
I need the tough of light
My chest is getting tight
I hollowed my own heart for this life
I’ve calcified, can I tell you that?

If I can’t cry can you please be my eyes?
I’ve numbed what’s inside need my soul to revive
There’s no hope inside my eyes 
I’m glad that you stuck right by my side
I’m too broken to tell a lie 
I pushed you away as I crystallized, cause it’s suicide
Is there another way?

Don’t think I’m a victim, I’m sorry
Cause I didn’t listen to you and it scarred me
I don’t mind being this alone cause I’ve hardly healed, but it’s fine, cause there still is a heartbeat
If I get out of this I promise not become this again
Had some feelings come around, they didn’t stick, they came and went
I gotta keep my head down, it’s so much different than back then
Like a voodoo doll the thing that’s killing me’s my only friend

if i can't cry (luckey + mental + akasuki)

prod madejinx + yaffo

do U get where Uuu are ?? . ,
Do U Feel wat I do / . ,???
bb im insane ., , . im in luv Wit Uuu /. .
do U Break Evry <3 ??
leave Em split in2 .. .
i Can stay Away but ion Want 2 .. .

I Saw tha Lie so long Ago . [[ {;
ima Feel Bad . . . even if We let dis go [ [ _
im On 2 Pillzz .. ion wna Feel At All ' '[ -
ion Feel Good but i always Made dat call ; ; +

I Bothered u .. . Like bae im sry 2 . .; [
evryThin i Said i Wuz 2 high4U .. . +-
Out Of Spite 4uuU .. . i wna Die 4u uUU )(((
its Xannies in my cup I Cannot Lie2U uu u. . .

Dont U care 4m3 ??? ..... xx2

split in 2

worse

prod @flojy @ripwarheart  <33


whoa-oa-oa 
ur games ya they get so old
ima fade out on my own
gone b4 u ever know, '4 u ever dont h8 me ..

im making my last stand
find a way that we're not done
u will go but i cant follow
i need a reason 2 keep going on

can u treat it like
its the first time,
cz the last time didnt feel 2 nice
gettin upset whn we lie
call it off ima make it right

givin up more than my time
keep dreamin abt
givin u my life
my life, my life
takin care cz im on the ice

whym i here whn i can't do anything right
every day js feels like torture
if there's a fine line, i hope that i can find it
at my side, ur the only one that i have

u told me tht ur feelin so far gone
so why not 
stay up together
we can watch the stars disappear and u might feel better xo

whoa-oa-oa -ohh
ur games ya they get so old
ima fade out on my own
gone b4 u ever know, '4 u ever dont h8 me ..

im making my last stand
find a way that we're not done
u will go but i cant follow
i need a reason 2 keep going on

last stand {flojy + warheart}

mix it wit amphetamine [akimbo]

Trvie! - 2x no liscence (prod. fukk2beatz, malachite & anhydonia)

prod @negativecreeper + @rainn_god
s/o @s0lemn 4 art sozz  •.-

⚔️⚓️⚔️

stitched my wounds u were my thread
heavy in my chest
like a piece of lead
try 2 move against 
the tide 2 no effect
sunken 2 the depths 
dnt knw hw id evr float
bottoms up again 
in debt im downn anothr dose

so sick of feeln lost i wna go home
always gotta stop i move in slo-mo
i cnt pay u back for wht i owe  
u can leave me now u knw tht im a no -show

fightin frm th backlines
knw tht i lied
so if im downed
thn dnt revive
pop a couple vyvansse keep me up at night
but tht shit feel nice
til its all over

thts not wht i want .....
wht choice do i rly hve ?
thinkin if i keep this goin ima get it caught
as if it was changin evn tho i knw its not

sunken {negative.creeper + rainn god}

@moz-103259352
@yashio20k

I just want to say, if it weren't for moz, I probably wouldn't be releasing any music. Luv u man<3

(Don’t push me away
Could you please listen to the things I have to say?
We stopped seeing eye to eye
I still couldn’t say goodbye
Tell me that I matter, baby, even if you have to lie)

You’ve been stuck inside my brain,
I’m not sure whether that’s alright
You drive me insane,
Guess I’m chasing down the wrong highs
Need you here with me,
I don’t care if this is all a lie
If heaven has a fee,
Then for you I would pay the price

But you wouldn’t do the same,
I know, and that’s fine
Even if you don’t change,
I’ll follow, stay by your side
Just look at me the same,
Could forever stare at your eyes
No matter the pain,
I’ll pretend that it feels right

I could spend forever looking into your eyes,
I could live forever if it is by your side
So don’t push me away
I don’t know if I could handle that 
Please stay
For you I would go to hell and back

I thought we had things figured out
Trusted each other and pushed our doubts
Pushed them to the side,
But seeing eye to eye,
It wasn’t nearly as easy as we had in mind

if u read these lol ur awesome ^_^

don't push me away (moz + yashio)

"the mistakes that haunt me" produced by me
Performed/Written by @counterxo

(lyrics)
I was so wrong 
I can never listen
Trying to be strong in a battle of attrition
It’s been way too long 
Mistakes have been haunting me
I’m on the edge but just know I want peace
Everyday I wake up gasping for some air
You can’t say I gave up, you don’t know I care 
No, I can’t be saved
I just keep this faith for paths I pave
for when I clean up the mess I made

Can’t say that I didn’t try to put my name in the sky
I get too deep in my thoughts, my faults come out when I’m high
Used to be me every night, because I can’t see a light
I know I put up a fight
Still don’t know if I’m alright
So instead I fell for materialism
Instead I become a part of a system
It lead to me ditching all realism
They said that that’s all the help I could give em
I know I promised one thing I’ll never go broke
I got a taste for designer it shows
The car black and white like the cross on my clothes
I’ll pop a tag to subdue all my woes
Step into niemans mcqueen on me
New AF1s they’re as white as my teeth
Hide all my scars with a Burberry tee
Make sure my pain is so hard to see
Addiction is making it hard to leave
The pressure is making it hard to breath
I have no balance with wants and needs
Made myself a promise that’s hard to keep
But in the end what’s the use of finding out the truth?
embracing something new just to cut my old self loose?

split in 2

ssj5