[reupload]
CLEARMINDED

lyrics:

she saw me on ig now she think i'm hard
ask me who i am bitch the name is on the card
spent a hunnid on a shirt js to let em know i'm hard
she gon ask me what she want and i'll get it with no charge

that's not what she want though
she don't want no money she don't want no clothes
i'm like omg she js want my love
i'm like omg i love u so much

when i love, i love forever

#whenilove (p. isai)

DJ Saucy Spaghetti & Emorave -Forever

love is such a beautiful motivator, isn't it?

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she day-drinks until she hits me, i'm seeing stars
"enjoy the pyrotechnics"
and there's only a reason to want her gone
don't love the life i'm left with
replaying every time i should have had fun
she left me swollen and dented
when i look in her eyes, i turn into someone i'm not

would you tighten the leash on my neck?
i'll pray it makes a difference this time
will you hold me tight?
it doesn't end if i turn it off
would you brighten my eyes just this once?
i'll say nothing my mother won't like
say it'll be fine
when she hits me until i'm seeing stars

when she talks like she's me, i forget myself
with too easy an entrance
can't tell which one of us it is i want dead
are we interconnected?
would a guillotine or my palms brick my brain
in a quicker time?
and i don't want this life
if she's my legacy the day i'm gone

would you tighten the leash on my neck?
i'll pray it makes a difference this time
will you hold me tight?
it doesn't end if i turn it off
would you brighten my eyes just this once?
i'll say nothing my mother won't like
say it'll be fine
when she hits me until i'm seeing stars

seeing stars

nodes (prod. me)

It's You (In&Out)

demo (file will probably be replaced later on)

It's a turning point in my life
what can I say?
nothing I say sounds right
hold it in for one more night
what have i done?
i swear, i'll make it right

I look like a mess today I know
I hope you still love me
feel like I'm on the edge of letting go
it's starting to show
I look like a mess today I know
maybe I'll just shave it all off just to see how you'd react

i know what your expecting
but im giving you something else
when you tell me you love me
i wish i could say the same
cant think of the words
you want me to say
you ask how its been
i dont say a thing
i wish i could say something

I look like a mess today I know
I hope you still love me
shattering my brainstem
wandering away, hoping things are still okay
I look like a mess today I know
maybe I'll just burn the fucking house down
maybe I'll see you react
i swear, i'll make it right

Turning point

don't get attached to this mix. 

Feast at my table
Drink from my cup
Smile while I fill it
Spit it back up
Friendly in public
Vicious behind
You take what I offer
You’re robbing me blind
Preach about real
Preach about soul
It's all just an act
Playing a role
Call it a trick
Call it a lie
You see the wire
I am the eye
No soul in the shell?
No heart in the screen?
Bitch, I’m the ghost in the machine
Run in your circles
I’ll run the map
Stuck in the loop
Springing the trap
Dead dreams
Heavy chest
Put them on me?
Put them to rest
It doesn't count
That’s what you pray
To keep your failure
One step away
You wanted a fan
To sit at your feet
I let the work
Make you obsolete
Try to disconnect
Try to wipe the screen
You can't delete
The ghost in the machine

ghost in the machine (WIP)

Calm Place

acid-injection-acid-pulse

I.W.G.A.N.O , DEC 31.

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