Reflections on childhood - as a parent and as a brother. Life is so much simpler as a child and yet, at the same time, we are barely even touched by it hence the title 'Dance of Unknowing'. The piece is a celebration of and a nostalgia for that innocence that we can never return to.

A remarkable video for this piece has been created by Stefania Buzatu and is available on my YouTube channel

https://youtu.be/JXbYd4Ji1bA

The video features archive footage of families enjoying fairground rides at Coney Island and other amusement parks in the 1950s. This recently found material was made by the US Government and restored by film-maker Rick Ray who kindly granted me the license to use it in this context.

The post-war exuberance perfectly captures the care-free spirit that I was hoping to express in the music. Watch the full video on my YouTube channel and listen to the track on your favourite streaming platform. All links in the bio

The photograph is another emotive masterpiece from Hengki Lee. Please follow this visionary artist on Instagram to see more of his work.

Childhood (Dance Of Unknowing) Studio Version

Marco Lucchi : analog synthesizers

with
Daniel Diaz : bowed bass, hang drum and accordina

for Disquiet Junto project
https://llllllll.co/t/disquiet-junto-project-0507-in-dds-key-of-c/48744

Ut [disquiet0507]

Oldiesite Techyon

https://youtu.be/Nm31DLuQEP0

It doesn't work, everyone knows it doesn't work, logic and reason themselves show it can't work yet thankfully it won't harm the ones in charge of making it not work. 

Be wrong to be right, be bad to be good, be incorrect to ensure correctness.

Belittled with a knotted stomach day in, day in, day in....

Welcome to the hell of the metsys drawkcab.


Artwork:
Original pencil sketch by J.Rous.

Please use this link for the music video with more of my original artwork.

https://youtu.be/Nm31DLuQEP0

metsys drawkcab

Rude Jellyfish Hid Self Re: July

9Dec21

Experimenting with Phantasm Polka;
https://soundcloud.com/noxpox7/noxpox-phantasm-polka
:D

noxpox -  Phantasm Polka [with guest, Boson Spin]

A bit of  a journey through some some sounds

Diskowerk

Phrygian Meditation Cello

Pulling Together Again

SO CLOSE, YET SO FAR.

produced by orrionn 
feat. https://soundcloud.com/llreivias 

lyrics:
[llREIVIAS]
you can’t save everyone

[orrionn]
i never wondered why you were hurt
i’m a “nowhere man” and can’t even make sense
drained from my emotions
you’re as fucked in having devotion
you’re no god to me
it’s like i’m losing patience
you lost empathy
now i know, you’re all dead inside
please make this right, for you and i
god, where were you?
fuck
please, i don’t know what to do without you
and your guidance, with no soul to guide then
for all of us, i’m now here hearing what’s hurting you

i never sat down, and asked deeply enough why you died
how you ended up bleeding in the first place
what’s with the time you spent and wasted around me, i’m so sorry
i was a burden to you and us, because i wanted to become you so bad
you were so flawless i got into problems, when i, when i tried
it was so easy to see, to pick up the debris
it was so unfair to me, but especially to you, dear
my love was something i’d see, too deeply
i’m sorry, again
take time to send as many messages as you can
my heart is open, i know your energy is still around sometimes
somewhere, in the universe or in nature, i can’t tell yet
i just know i’m joining you soon enough, love

be alone, time barely passes when you are
and lonely as i am, you’ll see yourself dying slowly
i’m feeling weak, so do you
please allow me to reach your soul, please take care of me when you do
i’m already reassuring your heart since i knew about your existence
you know that i can’t really stand what i’m being forced into
i have no choice to die, when it comes to you
need to sacrifice myself once more to save you
please don’t fuck up this time at all, i know you do not so, you’re all good
please, just don’t ruin things like i did before, now and then
fake anything and it won’t be working for you, i want your real self
so i can heal you properly, your wounds are so bad and deep
make sure you’re not so sad, such a fucking time to take and live through
i’d die for it
make me yours just so i can do anything to be your last hope
it’s not an ultimatum, it’s just a sign to give you until i give up end up gone
i’m a ghost, and you know
i’m fine, trust me
ok?
like you would trust him, i beg

[llREIVIAS]
in the shadows where you linger
i hear whispers of your name
every heartbeat feels like thunder
in this lonely, endless game
i’ll reach for you, through the darkness
hold on tight, i won’t let go

THE ILL

spotify

beg (ft. llREIVIAS)

Almost all tracks are free to download and covered by a Creative Commons license. Collaborations / Remixes are welcome so feel free to experiment - no need to get my permission first. Just send me a link to your track when you're done :)

I love listening to & creating ambient, dark ambient, avant-garde & experimental electronica (and the occasional beatscape). I have no professional aspirations  - I just really like creating music / manipulating sounds. It's my way of relaxing after a hard day at the office. All my tracks are produced using monitoring headphones (Audix A140) so I recommend that you listen to my music through headphones. My DAW of choice is FL Studio. I also use Reason every now & then. 


To the artists I follow; I do my best to try to listen to as many of your tracks as possible each night (I listen to each track all the way through - you went through the effort to create a track so you deserve to have it heard in full). If I miss a recent upload of yours, please forgive me...

Thank you for taking the time to visit my little corner of the soundcloud.

noxpox - Phantasm Polka [with guest, Boson Spin]

Stan Magendanz